Probably gonna use this account for venting more than anything. But yeah, life sucks and I just want out.

I tried to kms on Monday night by overdosing on benadryl. Now obviously I'm still here, but I so wish I hadn't survived it. I feel so guilty for putting my partner through what ended up being a ridiculous high, full of hallucinations and uncoordination.
At least if I were dead I wouldn't feel bad