Lost so much of my life to self hate AND to lessened opportunities & immobility bc of my weight … I really support women of all shapes and sizes dating, traveling, dressing how they want, and living life. I wish I didn’t hide & shrink bc of my body.

Only thing I regret is all the self hate and negativity and bullying I experienced bc of my weight. I think even if your weight is a problem you still deserve to look nice and live a normal life. This is why I support plus size creators. I lost so much of my life to self hate

& nobody even talks about how all the weight really morphs your face & limbs into something unrecognizable. I lift up my arms sometimes & I’m like wow I can’t believe im even able to use this limb with all this on here.

“Just love your body!” Why would I love something that’s actively killing me & causing me harm? I love my body for keeping me alive despite all the neglect I caused it. I want out of all this fat! just could never get over the damn food addiction. & I think I’m finally making some progress.

Like I don’t need to be skinny I don’t even been to be an average weight right now. My goal is just that I just cannot be morbidly obese anymore I just can’t. My body is weighing me down literally.

The visceral fat just has to go. And I’m getting an insurance sponsored breast reduction as soon as possible bc the cysts, the raw skin, the bacteria and sweat that is up under here and has bothered me for years is just enough

Like just the sheer size & heaviness of my stomach & breasts is enough for me to lose weight it’s just painful seriously painful. & my weight & where I carry it is based on hormonal issues I probably wouldn’t care about being this size if so much of my weight wasn’t in my stomach

Thankfully I’ve lost about 20lbs now but I’m trying to keep it off & as much as they try to shame GLP-1s I’ve been overweight since I was a little kid I don’t care anymore I’m getting it. & it’s not even about the aesthetics. The physical pain & immobility is just far too much

wait what app is this

These $40-$25 dollar copay’s are so useless. The actual appointments are hundreds which the insurance covers. These copays are just so they can get any kind of money out of you which is annoying. Just cover the whole thing my mom pays several hundred a month for 30+ yrs. Stop charging me!

But I’m not taking all these Advils everyday I took one last night I’m only taking one a day. The thing is it clears up on its own which it did last time. But I still want medical treatment and assessment and professional help to better get a hold of this. I shouldn’t need to PAY $40 for assessment

& it’s so painful bc I have large breasts & the flare up is right in the crease and it spreads to the outer part of my breasts. So any friction or movement of my breast pulls at the flare up growth and it hurts so fucking bad. My energy is depleted. Advil helps a lot

I’m in so much pain I legit don’t even care I’m gonna find the $40 and use the uber Wednesday if my mom says yes. I literally can’t take this pain anymore it’s horrible. I almost passed out in the shower earlier from the pain I could barely bend down.

using at home remedies like tea tree oil & tiger balm to treat HS when I should be able to see a damn dermatologist. I have freaking PPO insurance in network why do I have to pay ANYTHING just to get an assessment? I don’t even know if I have HS I’m just assuming bc of the nature of flare ups

I don’t enjoy food anymore at all. And the few times I do rarely it’s when I binge and that’s few a far between now a days. Mentally I’m still eff’d up about food.

I was 299lbs back in may. I weighed myself not too long ago like a week and a half ago and I was 271. My family keeps mentioning that I lost weight too so they can see it. The thing is my diet is still not the best I’ve just been eating considerably less bc I just don’t feel good anymore

I wish I could just enjoy a sweet treat or greasy food without feeling like shit and sadly I’ve fucked up my body to the point that I can’t I think I’m gonna make another appointment with my ed psychologist. I need to take my weight loss seriously

I wanna cry I’m so miserable. Food addiction is sooooo ugh like I can’t even enjoy food anymore bc I’ve binged and ate unhealthy for so long that I will legit kill myself if I continue to do so my body actually can’t handle it anymore