lucas sadboy edition
@miraclemask.bsky.social
☁️ (not nsfw) 17+ acc of @cinnapuppy.bsky.social ☁️ experiencing thoughts over here. follows from friends only, please refrain from rting my posts
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(inhaling thru my teeth really hard) fed is better than hungry fed is better than hungry fed is better than hungry
December 9, 2025 at 7:39 PM
(inhaling thru my teeth really hard) fed is better than hungry fed is better than hungry fed is better than hungry
one moment i’ll be like “yay i love to eat a yummy meal. gotta get that nutrition” and the next i’ll be like “i have to stop eating for the next week and become thinner or i’ll fucking die”
December 1, 2025 at 10:31 PM
one moment i’ll be like “yay i love to eat a yummy meal. gotta get that nutrition” and the next i’ll be like “i have to stop eating for the next week and become thinner or i’ll fucking die”
brain feels like a soup of ingredients that don’t make sense together
December 1, 2025 at 9:58 PM
brain feels like a soup of ingredients that don’t make sense together
i relapsed and it wasnt even satisfying to do. like sure it was easy to clean but i expected more out of it
December 1, 2025 at 2:17 AM
i relapsed and it wasnt even satisfying to do. like sure it was easy to clean but i expected more out of it
boy oh boy is it fucking bad
December 1, 2025 at 1:51 AM
boy oh boy is it fucking bad
constantly swapping between wanting to eat a yummy meal and feeling immense shame and guilt and dysmorphia for wanting to eat
November 29, 2025 at 6:05 PM
constantly swapping between wanting to eat a yummy meal and feeling immense shame and guilt and dysmorphia for wanting to eat
aaaaoooouuuurrrrrggghhhhh
November 28, 2025 at 11:18 PM
aaaaoooouuuurrrrrggghhhhh
my identity feels like a revolving door, in a way. sometimes it’s completely still for awhile and then suddenly rapidly shifting and spinning and i have a completely different sense of self. either that or i’m just making all this shit up. ughhhhh
November 28, 2025 at 8:41 PM
my identity feels like a revolving door, in a way. sometimes it’s completely still for awhile and then suddenly rapidly shifting and spinning and i have a completely different sense of self. either that or i’m just making all this shit up. ughhhhh
knowing how much weight i’ve put on in the past year has been making me feel sick. a lot of the time it makes me want to not eat at all
November 28, 2025 at 8:35 PM
knowing how much weight i’ve put on in the past year has been making me feel sick. a lot of the time it makes me want to not eat at all
do you regret what you did to me. i know it’s useless for me to but i hope it never leaves the back of your mind. i hope it haunts you every day for the rest of your life. i hope that burden outweighs the one you forced upon me as a child ten times over
November 28, 2025 at 8:31 PM
do you regret what you did to me. i know it’s useless for me to but i hope it never leaves the back of your mind. i hope it haunts you every day for the rest of your life. i hope that burden outweighs the one you forced upon me as a child ten times over
little guy doodles
October 17, 2025 at 7:18 AM
little guy doodles
i fucking hate you. i miss you
August 4, 2025 at 5:26 PM
i fucking hate you. i miss you
i looked at my old tumblr i made back when i was starting out at college bc i was worried as an art student someone mightve asked me for my tumblr.
July 26, 2025 at 6:42 AM
i looked at my old tumblr i made back when i was starting out at college bc i was worried as an art student someone mightve asked me for my tumblr.
works like a charm
July 20, 2025 at 5:22 AM
works like a charm
that one post about being bi but its like “i think i might have a dissociative disorder but i have a job so idrc about that right now”
June 14, 2025 at 7:41 AM
that one post about being bi but its like “i think i might have a dissociative disorder but i have a job so idrc about that right now”
every couple of weeks i go into a depressive spiral about how i'm pathetic and worthless and unworthy of love from others and it feels like it always ends the same way
June 2, 2025 at 5:28 AM
every couple of weeks i go into a depressive spiral about how i'm pathetic and worthless and unworthy of love from others and it feels like it always ends the same way
i keep having very unhappy thoughts about myself
June 2, 2025 at 4:43 AM
i keep having very unhappy thoughts about myself
i want to isolate myself! i think i deserve it
June 2, 2025 at 4:36 AM
i want to isolate myself! i think i deserve it
had a conversation with myself in order to talk myself into wanting to eat. i feel pathetic for it but i don’t feel like i have much else
March 26, 2025 at 7:38 PM
had a conversation with myself in order to talk myself into wanting to eat. i feel pathetic for it but i don’t feel like i have much else
i don't want to think about it but paradoxically i want someone to listen
March 5, 2025 at 8:09 AM
i don't want to think about it but paradoxically i want someone to listen
all within reach!
March 5, 2025 at 8:07 AM
all within reach!
i would say i wish i could pass off my trauma to non traumatized people who claim to want it bc they think its sexy and fun but i wouldnt wish that on anybody. not even my worst enemy
March 5, 2025 at 7:33 AM
i would say i wish i could pass off my trauma to non traumatized people who claim to want it bc they think its sexy and fun but i wouldnt wish that on anybody. not even my worst enemy
it pops up in the most unexpected places and now i want to fucking scream
March 5, 2025 at 7:28 AM
it pops up in the most unexpected places and now i want to fucking scream
every goddamn second is stressful because my stupid brain doesnt know when to shut off the danger alarm
February 24, 2025 at 12:36 AM
every goddamn second is stressful because my stupid brain doesnt know when to shut off the danger alarm
people who claim to want trauma because it sounds “fun” No you dont No the fuck you do not
February 24, 2025 at 12:31 AM
people who claim to want trauma because it sounds “fun” No you dont No the fuck you do not