goooooshh

my therapist told me to slow down and act like a grownup long enough to escape someone who played upon my insecurities to manipulate me. I'm glad I listened

and I guess just a general fight-or flight tension, and I'm easily startled

sometimes I get *stuck* placed, like there's some primordial command to hide that's been triggered

manifests as a tightness in my chest, shortness of breathing, uncontrollable trembling and general paralysis of my limbs accompanied of course by heavy dissociation

also it affects my vision, it's like my field of vision gets narrower and dimmer

i love you more than anything

"i've never even heard of this, sounds fake"

🩷

I've been broken up with a lot, but never such a nasty and unhinged breakup letter. And what came after...

How dare you.

Fuck you. I can't believe I ever let you in my bed.

I wish I had never met you.

best wishes,
Mickie (she/her)
🔩

You couldn't keep it together and not make a huge scene over nothing for one more day. Angry at me for listening to my therapist instead of soaring back into your arms at the snap of your fingers. Angry at my wife for daring to support me.