the grief and the guilt and the time of year all stir up inside of him, and he can't help it.
he pulls yuuto close, wrapping his arms around the younger tightly. shaking hands brush through yuuto's hair, like he's holding his own son.
" odasaku would love you more than anything. " dazai whispers.
he pulls yuuto close, wrapping his arms around the younger tightly. shaking hands brush through yuuto's hair, like he's holding his own son.
" odasaku would love you more than anything. " dazai whispers.
November 1, 2024 at 12:08 AM
the grief and the guilt and the time of year all stir up inside of him, and he can't help it.
he pulls yuuto close, wrapping his arms around the younger tightly. shaking hands brush through yuuto's hair, like he's holding his own son.
" odasaku would love you more than anything. " dazai whispers.
he pulls yuuto close, wrapping his arms around the younger tightly. shaking hands brush through yuuto's hair, like he's holding his own son.
" odasaku would love you more than anything. " dazai whispers.
" i'm sorry, " tumbles out before he can think about it. after all, it's his own fault that yuuto doesn't have a father.
and what a wondrous father oda would have been.
" i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, " he can't stop apologizing. not that it would fix anything. it won't bring oda back.
( ... )
and what a wondrous father oda would have been.
" i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, " he can't stop apologizing. not that it would fix anything. it won't bring oda back.
( ... )
November 1, 2024 at 12:06 AM
" i'm sorry, " tumbles out before he can think about it. after all, it's his own fault that yuuto doesn't have a father.
and what a wondrous father oda would have been.
" i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, " he can't stop apologizing. not that it would fix anything. it won't bring oda back.
( ... )
and what a wondrous father oda would have been.
" i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, " he can't stop apologizing. not that it would fix anything. it won't bring oda back.
( ... )
// the only solace is dazai and yuuto eventually becoming friends and dazai healing by sharing about oda to yuuto and yuuto learning more about his father
October 31, 2024 at 2:10 AM
// the only solace is dazai and yuuto eventually becoming friends and dazai healing by sharing about oda to yuuto and yuuto learning more about his father
" oda, " dazai says shakily.
his hands are pressed to yuuto's cheeks and he doesn't want to ever let go.
( odasaku, odasaku, odasaku ... )
" you're related to sakunosuke oda, aren't you? "
his hands are pressed to yuuto's cheeks and he doesn't want to ever let go.
( odasaku, odasaku, odasaku ... )
" you're related to sakunosuke oda, aren't you? "
October 31, 2024 at 12:31 AM
" oda, " dazai says shakily.
his hands are pressed to yuuto's cheeks and he doesn't want to ever let go.
( odasaku, odasaku, odasaku ... )
" you're related to sakunosuke oda, aren't you? "
his hands are pressed to yuuto's cheeks and he doesn't want to ever let go.
( odasaku, odasaku, odasaku ... )
" you're related to sakunosuke oda, aren't you? "
without thinking, ( he's thinking so much yet not at all ), hands finally make contact with skin. the frosty no longer human thrums through his fingertips into yuuto's body, and dazai inhales sharply.
" you're, " dazai starts again. tears fall freely down his face.
( -- > )
" you're, " dazai starts again. tears fall freely down his face.
( -- > )
October 31, 2024 at 12:29 AM
without thinking, ( he's thinking so much yet not at all ), hands finally make contact with skin. the frosty no longer human thrums through his fingertips into yuuto's body, and dazai inhales sharply.
" you're, " dazai starts again. tears fall freely down his face.
( -- > )
" you're, " dazai starts again. tears fall freely down his face.
( -- > )
" i know you, " dazai whispers. he resists the urge to touch yuuto's cheeks, hands hovering inches away from the mafioso's face.
tears slip down his face, something he hasn't allowed himself to show in front of others, especially not a stranger ... ever.
( it must be the date. )
" i know you. "
tears slip down his face, something he hasn't allowed himself to show in front of others, especially not a stranger ... ever.
( it must be the date. )
" i know you. "
October 28, 2024 at 12:11 AM
" i know you, " dazai whispers. he resists the urge to touch yuuto's cheeks, hands hovering inches away from the mafioso's face.
tears slip down his face, something he hasn't allowed himself to show in front of others, especially not a stranger ... ever.
( it must be the date. )
" i know you. "
tears slip down his face, something he hasn't allowed himself to show in front of others, especially not a stranger ... ever.
( it must be the date. )
" i know you. "
hands travel up again, quivering. a shaky breath leaves him. his resolve, his mask which he never lets slip, is crumbling in one fell swoop.
maybe it's the time of year. october makes dazai weak at heart.
( --> )
maybe it's the time of year. october makes dazai weak at heart.
( --> )
October 28, 2024 at 12:10 AM
hands travel up again, quivering. a shaky breath leaves him. his resolve, his mask which he never lets slip, is crumbling in one fell swoop.
maybe it's the time of year. october makes dazai weak at heart.
( --> )
maybe it's the time of year. october makes dazai weak at heart.
( --> )
his best friend has been dead longer than dazai has even known him at this point.
" i am not searching for enemies anymore. " dazai replies, though he can't say that the words shared about him are untrue -- it is still the great misfortune for dazai's enemies to be his enemies, even now.
( --> )
" i am not searching for enemies anymore. " dazai replies, though he can't say that the words shared about him are untrue -- it is still the great misfortune for dazai's enemies to be his enemies, even now.
( --> )
October 28, 2024 at 12:08 AM
his best friend has been dead longer than dazai has even known him at this point.
" i am not searching for enemies anymore. " dazai replies, though he can't say that the words shared about him are untrue -- it is still the great misfortune for dazai's enemies to be his enemies, even now.
( --> )
" i am not searching for enemies anymore. " dazai replies, though he can't say that the words shared about him are untrue -- it is still the great misfortune for dazai's enemies to be his enemies, even now.
( --> )
yuuto I hate my phone
October 27, 2024 at 2:47 AM
yuuto I hate my phone