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it was already dark out at 4:30pm do you understand how brave i am for not killing myself yet
November 5, 2024 at 12:20 AM
it was already dark out at 4:30pm do you understand how brave i am for not killing myself yet
( a restless slumber, tears falling down cheeks as he sleeps. )
November 2, 2024 at 1:17 AM
( a restless slumber, tears falling down cheeks as he sleeps. )
( sleep won't take him despite the exhaustion seeping in his bones. )
November 1, 2024 at 12:25 AM
( sleep won't take him despite the exhaustion seeping in his bones. )
dazai still couldn't wrap his head around it. oda had a child? oda's child was alive, and a mafioso? what had mori fed to yuuto about oda? the thoughts open up a cavern in his soul.
( ... )
( ... )
Yuuto trembled, startled briefly by the touch. He was overwhelmed of his own emotions that brewed up like tea in a pot.
Audible sobs could be
heard, his voice starts
to crack at the mention
of his father.
His own tears that would
threaten to fall, he couldn’t
hold back.
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Audible sobs could be
heard, his voice starts
to crack at the mention
of his father.
His own tears that would
threaten to fall, he couldn’t
hold back.
++
November 1, 2024 at 12:05 AM
dazai still couldn't wrap his head around it. oda had a child? oda's child was alive, and a mafioso? what had mori fed to yuuto about oda? the thoughts open up a cavern in his soul.
( ... )
( ... )
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// destroying myself emotionally by replying to the oda family
October 31, 2024 at 1:17 AM
// destroying myself emotionally by replying to the oda family
" you're ... "
hands frozen in mid-air, stops himself from saying what his first instinct is to say.
( you're odasaku. )
he knows that's not the case, because odasaku is dead, and he's emotional because of the date, and therapy and medications aren't helping.
( --> )
hands frozen in mid-air, stops himself from saying what his first instinct is to say.
( you're odasaku. )
he knows that's not the case, because odasaku is dead, and he's emotional because of the date, and therapy and medications aren't helping.
( --> )
......
Silence was left in the air, Yuuto felt mixture of emotions that caved in. It was overwhelming, the red head mafioso's hand trembled. He never knew his father, he only ever had experienced watching his mother grieve as he got older.
( continue . ++ )
Silence was left in the air, Yuuto felt mixture of emotions that caved in. It was overwhelming, the red head mafioso's hand trembled. He never knew his father, he only ever had experienced watching his mother grieve as he got older.
( continue . ++ )
after all the effort ( the torture, the penance ) he had gone through to have a new start, his reputation still precedes him. not that dazai yearns for approval from strangers, but this is different.
he's looking into the eyes of his late friend -- his best friend -- no, it's not him,
( --> )
he's looking into the eyes of his late friend -- his best friend -- no, it's not him,
( --> )
October 31, 2024 at 12:28 AM
" you're ... "
hands frozen in mid-air, stops himself from saying what his first instinct is to say.
( you're odasaku. )
he knows that's not the case, because odasaku is dead, and he's emotional because of the date, and therapy and medications aren't helping.
( --> )
hands frozen in mid-air, stops himself from saying what his first instinct is to say.
( you're odasaku. )
he knows that's not the case, because odasaku is dead, and he's emotional because of the date, and therapy and medications aren't helping.
( --> )
a touch that should bring comfort only serves to send shivers down dazai's spine. hands shoot upward to touch phantom lingering, heart freezing when he finds nothing there.
" oda ... odasaku ... " murmurs, swallows the knot in his throat. he thought his medications were working.
" oda ... odasaku ... " murmurs, swallows the knot in his throat. he thought his medications were working.
October 31, 2024 at 12:19 AM
a touch that should bring comfort only serves to send shivers down dazai's spine. hands shoot upward to touch phantom lingering, heart freezing when he finds nothing there.
" oda ... odasaku ... " murmurs, swallows the knot in his throat. he thought his medications were working.
" oda ... odasaku ... " murmurs, swallows the knot in his throat. he thought his medications were working.
after all the effort ( the torture, the penance ) he had gone through to have a new start, his reputation still precedes him. not that dazai yearns for approval from strangers, but this is different.
he's looking into the eyes of his late friend -- his best friend -- no, it's not him,
( --> )
he's looking into the eyes of his late friend -- his best friend -- no, it's not him,
( --> )
Yuuto was not blind to it, he could sense the tension that had radiated off of the other. He could tell that he would perturbed him with his physiognomy alone.
He had an uncanny resemblance to 𝙎𝙖𝙠𝙪𝙣𝙤𝙨𝙪𝙠𝙚 𝙊𝙙𝙖. He was like a mini clone of his father, indisputably.
( continue. ++ )
He had an uncanny resemblance to 𝙎𝙖𝙠𝙪𝙣𝙤𝙨𝙪𝙠𝙚 𝙊𝙙𝙖. He was like a mini clone of his father, indisputably.
( continue. ++ )
October 28, 2024 at 12:06 AM
after all the effort ( the torture, the penance ) he had gone through to have a new start, his reputation still precedes him. not that dazai yearns for approval from strangers, but this is different.
he's looking into the eyes of his late friend -- his best friend -- no, it's not him,
( --> )
he's looking into the eyes of his late friend -- his best friend -- no, it's not him,
( --> )
he forces himself to hide his reaction, though there's no avoiding the flash of terror in his expression.
odasaku wasn't the only oda on earth, but...
" i'm dazai, " tone carefully controlled, " osamu dazai. "
odasaku wasn't the only oda on earth, but...
" i'm dazai, " tone carefully controlled, " osamu dazai. "
❛︎︎Do you do this to everyone you encounter .ᐣ ❜︎︎
Yuuto inquired, a bewildering expression visible.
The mafioso suspired as he would shrug his shoulders.
❛︎︎It’s water under the bridge, no casualties happened.
My name is Yuuto Oda, what about yours .ᐣ
I think we have gotten on the wrong foot.❜︎︎
Yuuto inquired, a bewildering expression visible.
The mafioso suspired as he would shrug his shoulders.
❛︎︎It’s water under the bridge, no casualties happened.
My name is Yuuto Oda, what about yours .ᐣ
I think we have gotten on the wrong foot.❜︎︎
October 27, 2024 at 7:45 PM
he forces himself to hide his reaction, though there's no avoiding the flash of terror in his expression.
odasaku wasn't the only oda on earth, but...
" i'm dazai, " tone carefully controlled, " osamu dazai. "
odasaku wasn't the only oda on earth, but...
" i'm dazai, " tone carefully controlled, " osamu dazai. "
// dazai can't have a normal conversation with yuuto to save his life
October 27, 2024 at 4:35 PM
// dazai can't have a normal conversation with yuuto to save his life
oh. he hadn't had anyone evade him so well, other than of course chuuya, and...oda, who could predict dazai's movements unless dazai touched him.
dazai now knew yuuto's identity, but being reminded of oda so suddenly pangs his heart, especially this season.
" ah, it was a joke, my bad. "
dazai now knew yuuto's identity, but being reminded of oda so suddenly pangs his heart, especially this season.
" ah, it was a joke, my bad. "
.ᐟ.ᐟ.ᐟ
Yuuto would evade the endeavor, utilizing the ability to see six seconds into the future. He twitched his digits as he had formed, evidently exasperated. Situations like this, he was rather thankful for his father's ability.
❛Keep those grotesque hands to yourself, jerk.ᐟ.ᐟ❜
Yuuto would evade the endeavor, utilizing the ability to see six seconds into the future. He twitched his digits as he had formed, evidently exasperated. Situations like this, he was rather thankful for his father's ability.
❛Keep those grotesque hands to yourself, jerk.ᐟ.ᐟ❜
October 27, 2024 at 4:21 PM
oh. he hadn't had anyone evade him so well, other than of course chuuya, and...oda, who could predict dazai's movements unless dazai touched him.
dazai now knew yuuto's identity, but being reminded of oda so suddenly pangs his heart, especially this season.
" ah, it was a joke, my bad. "
dazai now knew yuuto's identity, but being reminded of oda so suddenly pangs his heart, especially this season.
" ah, it was a joke, my bad. "
coughs into his hand.
and touches youto's shoulder with his germy hand.
and touches youto's shoulder with his germy hand.
❛Tch. Cover your mouth, have some decency for people around you.❜
Yuuto said, rather bluntly as he subtly rolled his cerulean orbs. The red head shook his head, an suspire would emit from his lips.
Yuuto said, rather bluntly as he subtly rolled his cerulean orbs. The red head shook his head, an suspire would emit from his lips.
October 27, 2024 at 2:47 AM
coughs into his hand.
and touches youto's shoulder with his germy hand.
and touches youto's shoulder with his germy hand.
coughs into his hat.
....
coughs and heaves on the tl.
October 27, 2024 at 2:03 AM
coughs into his hat.
coughs and heaves on the tl.
October 26, 2024 at 8:23 AM
coughs and heaves on the tl.
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October 24, 2024 at 5:50 PM
// i deleted x from my phone pay attention to me
October 23, 2024 at 5:38 PM
// i deleted x from my phone pay attention to me
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October 21, 2024 at 6:25 PM
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