So we’re just going to ignore the racism? Got it.

My! You are young!
That came out of right field. I had that album
Thanks for sharing.

I know that’s how you feel. I’ve seen you in this place before. I’m sorry you feel this way. Feeling as if you’re backed into a corner is scary. Hopefully it will pass quickly.

You asked why people don’t trust that you’re fine / ok. I trust you fully - I know you’re not lying to me. However, when it comes to suicide, it’s a matter of trust but verify. Almost always those of us who live with SI are fine. But it can be just a moment for that to change. We also know that.

True. I’m not saying you’re not ok. I know about your safety plans and believe you are ok.
When I was at your house there was no response to the door bell or telephone, the truck was in the driveway and there was no barking, I tried very hard to not go to the worst case scenario, but it was there.

You’re right, a better word is needed.

I’m sorry. That must have been awful.

My own experience runs to this. I’ve been fine until I wasn’t and by that point I had pushed back with “I’m fine” so often it was really hard to ask for help. And too I’ve had friends say they’re fine today and dead tomorrow. It’s a tough place to sit.

I fully believe you’ll be ok.
Maybe because I’ve been “barely functional” too many times that I empathize a bit too much.

I’m doing okay. Survived the colonoscopy. Hand surgery on Friday next. I’m keeping busy.

Big hugs.

I got this message. Sorry for the delay. I’ve been thinking a lot about what you’ve said.

I do sometimes get caught in the “it’s my fault” loop. Sorry.

My heart hurts for you and what’s happening to you.

I miss your smile but I’ll see it again in time.

Wish I could help.

Love you Mister.

Must be a helpful tool. I guess I use the dissociative tool box too; when I go hang out with the DID boyz inside me.

I hope it helps more than the cost of losing track of time. I find it can be good but it “costs” me time and can be disconcerting when this reality returns.

Interesting

Yuck. Suicidal ideation is so annoying. Not sure what you’re saying here. I know redirecting that flaming energy to something else can help me.

This sounds like a dissociative tool or am I off track?

Only slightly better than not peeing at all I suppose.

And they make up your wonderfullness.

She’s such a smart doggo. She’ll teach you her words.