Marcus
@maxxcor.bsky.social
Owned by two Pembroke Welsh Corgis.
PTSD-C, DID, BP-II, Diabetic, Essential Tremor, All around crazy.
Kind, gentle human living in the rural area I’ve always wanted.
Survivor of childhood sexual abuse, emotional abuse and neglect.
PTSD-C, DID, BP-II, Diabetic, Essential Tremor, All around crazy.
Kind, gentle human living in the rural area I’ve always wanted.
Survivor of childhood sexual abuse, emotional abuse and neglect.
@melissa0366.bsky.social welcome to a brave new world. 🤣
February 21, 2025 at 4:59 AM
@melissa0366.bsky.social welcome to a brave new world. 🤣
7 of 7
Last entry. Thumbs are hurting.
Gotta go shopping for my clear liquid diet starting tomorrow. Yuck.
Life is okay today.
I miss my friend. Not sure if I fucked up with him somehow. Won’t answer my calls or texts. I hate this.
Lots of things to work on today. Time to get moving.
Last entry. Thumbs are hurting.
Gotta go shopping for my clear liquid diet starting tomorrow. Yuck.
Life is okay today.
I miss my friend. Not sure if I fucked up with him somehow. Won’t answer my calls or texts. I hate this.
Lots of things to work on today. Time to get moving.
December 30, 2024 at 8:32 PM
7 of 7
Last entry. Thumbs are hurting.
Gotta go shopping for my clear liquid diet starting tomorrow. Yuck.
Life is okay today.
I miss my friend. Not sure if I fucked up with him somehow. Won’t answer my calls or texts. I hate this.
Lots of things to work on today. Time to get moving.
Last entry. Thumbs are hurting.
Gotta go shopping for my clear liquid diet starting tomorrow. Yuck.
Life is okay today.
I miss my friend. Not sure if I fucked up with him somehow. Won’t answer my calls or texts. I hate this.
Lots of things to work on today. Time to get moving.
6 of X
I worry that the hypomania will abruptly end leaving me falling into major depression. It’s happened before.
Trying to just enjoy this state and use it to my advantage. At least until I get all the holiday decorations put away.
I worry that the hypomania will abruptly end leaving me falling into major depression. It’s happened before.
Trying to just enjoy this state and use it to my advantage. At least until I get all the holiday decorations put away.
December 30, 2024 at 8:28 PM
6 of X
I worry that the hypomania will abruptly end leaving me falling into major depression. It’s happened before.
Trying to just enjoy this state and use it to my advantage. At least until I get all the holiday decorations put away.
I worry that the hypomania will abruptly end leaving me falling into major depression. It’s happened before.
Trying to just enjoy this state and use it to my advantage. At least until I get all the holiday decorations put away.
5 of X
I guess I have a lot to say today.
Mental health is uncomfortably good. Hypomanic I think. Only about 2 (0-10). I’ve always wondered if this is what “normal” people feel. At least I’m getting things done. Even descaled the Keurig coffee machine.
I guess I have a lot to say today.
Mental health is uncomfortably good. Hypomanic I think. Only about 2 (0-10). I’ve always wondered if this is what “normal” people feel. At least I’m getting things done. Even descaled the Keurig coffee machine.
December 30, 2024 at 8:25 PM
5 of X
I guess I have a lot to say today.
Mental health is uncomfortably good. Hypomanic I think. Only about 2 (0-10). I’ve always wondered if this is what “normal” people feel. At least I’m getting things done. Even descaled the Keurig coffee machine.
I guess I have a lot to say today.
Mental health is uncomfortably good. Hypomanic I think. Only about 2 (0-10). I’ve always wondered if this is what “normal” people feel. At least I’m getting things done. Even descaled the Keurig coffee machine.
4 of X
It’s not really a “New Year” resolution to quit smoking. I’m tired of it even though it’s my go-to stress tool. It’s been my “friend” for 40+ years.
If I could just find something I enjoy sucking on…
It’s not really a “New Year” resolution to quit smoking. I’m tired of it even though it’s my go-to stress tool. It’s been my “friend” for 40+ years.
If I could just find something I enjoy sucking on…
December 30, 2024 at 8:21 PM
4 of X
It’s not really a “New Year” resolution to quit smoking. I’m tired of it even though it’s my go-to stress tool. It’s been my “friend” for 40+ years.
If I could just find something I enjoy sucking on…
It’s not really a “New Year” resolution to quit smoking. I’m tired of it even though it’s my go-to stress tool. It’s been my “friend” for 40+ years.
If I could just find something I enjoy sucking on…
3 of X
How to quit smoking.
I need to quit. I’m scared of stopping and scared I’ll fail. What a fucked up headspace. I’m afraid I’ll substitute more food and get even fatter. Don’t want to go there. Not even sure what kind of help I need. I asked my doctor - he just shook his head - nothing.
How to quit smoking.
I need to quit. I’m scared of stopping and scared I’ll fail. What a fucked up headspace. I’m afraid I’ll substitute more food and get even fatter. Don’t want to go there. Not even sure what kind of help I need. I asked my doctor - he just shook his head - nothing.
December 30, 2024 at 8:18 PM
3 of X
How to quit smoking.
I need to quit. I’m scared of stopping and scared I’ll fail. What a fucked up headspace. I’m afraid I’ll substitute more food and get even fatter. Don’t want to go there. Not even sure what kind of help I need. I asked my doctor - he just shook his head - nothing.
How to quit smoking.
I need to quit. I’m scared of stopping and scared I’ll fail. What a fucked up headspace. I’m afraid I’ll substitute more food and get even fatter. Don’t want to go there. Not even sure what kind of help I need. I asked my doctor - he just shook his head - nothing.
2 of X
Next week I get to have surgery on my right hand and arm. Loooooonnnngggg overdue. I’ve been trying to get this started for over a year. The left hand / arm will follow in a few (several?) months. I have high hopes for the surgery. Hope it stops the pain and makes my hand usable.
Next week I get to have surgery on my right hand and arm. Loooooonnnngggg overdue. I’ve been trying to get this started for over a year. The left hand / arm will follow in a few (several?) months. I have high hopes for the surgery. Hope it stops the pain and makes my hand usable.
December 30, 2024 at 8:14 PM
2 of X
Next week I get to have surgery on my right hand and arm. Loooooonnnngggg overdue. I’ve been trying to get this started for over a year. The left hand / arm will follow in a few (several?) months. I have high hopes for the surgery. Hope it stops the pain and makes my hand usable.
Next week I get to have surgery on my right hand and arm. Loooooonnnngggg overdue. I’ve been trying to get this started for over a year. The left hand / arm will follow in a few (several?) months. I have high hopes for the surgery. Hope it stops the pain and makes my hand usable.
1 of X
Colonoscopy prep week. Colonoscopy on Friday. I can hardly wait! Sedate me when I get in the car to go there and don’t wake me up until Saturday. I HATE colonoscopies. I can watch surgery no problem but NO I don’t want to watch the video. Weird.
Colonoscopy prep week. Colonoscopy on Friday. I can hardly wait! Sedate me when I get in the car to go there and don’t wake me up until Saturday. I HATE colonoscopies. I can watch surgery no problem but NO I don’t want to watch the video. Weird.
December 30, 2024 at 8:11 PM
1 of X
Colonoscopy prep week. Colonoscopy on Friday. I can hardly wait! Sedate me when I get in the car to go there and don’t wake me up until Saturday. I HATE colonoscopies. I can watch surgery no problem but NO I don’t want to watch the video. Weird.
Colonoscopy prep week. Colonoscopy on Friday. I can hardly wait! Sedate me when I get in the car to go there and don’t wake me up until Saturday. I HATE colonoscopies. I can watch surgery no problem but NO I don’t want to watch the video. Weird.
Suture removal! Hope my forehead has healed well and the scar is minimal. I have a feeling I’m going to be like dear old dad - a constant battle to deal with all the skin cancer. Too many sunny days at the beach and all those sunburns have caught up to me. That and all that Northern European DNA
December 26, 2024 at 7:34 PM
Suture removal! Hope my forehead has healed well and the scar is minimal. I have a feeling I’m going to be like dear old dad - a constant battle to deal with all the skin cancer. Too many sunny days at the beach and all those sunburns have caught up to me. That and all that Northern European DNA
Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanza, and all the wonderful holidays to you.
A wonderful Christmas has happened for me. Christmas Eve dinner at my house finally. Haven’t been able to host since Don died. This year was about traditions and transitions.
I’m very content and feel loved.
A wonderful Christmas has happened for me. Christmas Eve dinner at my house finally. Haven’t been able to host since Don died. This year was about traditions and transitions.
I’m very content and feel loved.
December 25, 2024 at 11:45 PM
Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanza, and all the wonderful holidays to you.
A wonderful Christmas has happened for me. Christmas Eve dinner at my house finally. Haven’t been able to host since Don died. This year was about traditions and transitions.
I’m very content and feel loved.
A wonderful Christmas has happened for me. Christmas Eve dinner at my house finally. Haven’t been able to host since Don died. This year was about traditions and transitions.
I’m very content and feel loved.
Not as ready for Christmas as I need to be. This forehead surgery has really slowed me down. I’ll make it if the pain quits. Xmas eve dinner at my house. I’m still excited to have family here. None of my special friends will be here but I understand.
If only it would snow. ❄️❄️❄️
If only it would snow. ❄️❄️❄️
December 20, 2024 at 10:19 PM
Not as ready for Christmas as I need to be. This forehead surgery has really slowed me down. I’ll make it if the pain quits. Xmas eve dinner at my house. I’m still excited to have family here. None of my special friends will be here but I understand.
If only it would snow. ❄️❄️❄️
If only it would snow. ❄️❄️❄️
Had the skin cancer removal “procedure” this week. Pain in the ass and serious pain on my forehead. Was much larger and deeper than expected. Of course it was.
The pain has been far worse than I was ready for. Tylenol my ass! Dilauded was required. Stupid doctors.
It’s getting better slowly.
The pain has been far worse than I was ready for. Tylenol my ass! Dilauded was required. Stupid doctors.
It’s getting better slowly.
December 20, 2024 at 10:16 PM
Had the skin cancer removal “procedure” this week. Pain in the ass and serious pain on my forehead. Was much larger and deeper than expected. Of course it was.
The pain has been far worse than I was ready for. Tylenol my ass! Dilauded was required. Stupid doctors.
It’s getting better slowly.
The pain has been far worse than I was ready for. Tylenol my ass! Dilauded was required. Stupid doctors.
It’s getting better slowly.
@wookietron9000.bsky.social how are you? Not having any luck trying phone calls to you. When you have some time, hopefully soon, I’d love to talk with you. I miss the Wookie man.
Thinking about you.
Thinking about you.
December 18, 2024 at 11:26 PM
@wookietron9000.bsky.social how are you? Not having any luck trying phone calls to you. When you have some time, hopefully soon, I’d love to talk with you. I miss the Wookie man.
Thinking about you.
Thinking about you.
5/5. OOPS! Forgot to mark #4
To all who observe thanksgiving, I hope you get to enjoy the day.
For those who don’t observe the holiday, I wish you all the love and joy you can receive.
Time to set the table. My family will be here soon enough.
To all who observe thanksgiving, I hope you get to enjoy the day.
For those who don’t observe the holiday, I wish you all the love and joy you can receive.
Time to set the table. My family will be here soon enough.
November 28, 2024 at 8:14 PM
5/5. OOPS! Forgot to mark #4
To all who observe thanksgiving, I hope you get to enjoy the day.
For those who don’t observe the holiday, I wish you all the love and joy you can receive.
Time to set the table. My family will be here soon enough.
To all who observe thanksgiving, I hope you get to enjoy the day.
For those who don’t observe the holiday, I wish you all the love and joy you can receive.
Time to set the table. My family will be here soon enough.
I miss Don. He was always my dish washer / helper. It’s harder doing it alone.
I sometimes wonder what he would think of my “new life”. He would see me happy and content. I think that is what he always wanted; when he wasn’t contemplating choking me in my sleep. Yes, I miss him today.
I sometimes wonder what he would think of my “new life”. He would see me happy and content. I think that is what he always wanted; when he wasn’t contemplating choking me in my sleep. Yes, I miss him today.
November 28, 2024 at 8:11 PM
I miss Don. He was always my dish washer / helper. It’s harder doing it alone.
I sometimes wonder what he would think of my “new life”. He would see me happy and content. I think that is what he always wanted; when he wasn’t contemplating choking me in my sleep. Yes, I miss him today.
I sometimes wonder what he would think of my “new life”. He would see me happy and content. I think that is what he always wanted; when he wasn’t contemplating choking me in my sleep. Yes, I miss him today.
3/? This is the first holiday dinner in my new house. It feels like it will be okay.
The pies are baked, the stuffing made and the turkey is in the oven. Time to sweep up dog fur.
I even have a few minutes to sit down and be annoying on here.
The pies are baked, the stuffing made and the turkey is in the oven. Time to sweep up dog fur.
I even have a few minutes to sit down and be annoying on here.
November 28, 2024 at 8:08 PM
3/? This is the first holiday dinner in my new house. It feels like it will be okay.
The pies are baked, the stuffing made and the turkey is in the oven. Time to sweep up dog fur.
I even have a few minutes to sit down and be annoying on here.
The pies are baked, the stuffing made and the turkey is in the oven. Time to sweep up dog fur.
I even have a few minutes to sit down and be annoying on here.
2/? For me it’s always been a day of stress and anxiety. People coming over an everything it takes to cook the meal, make the house clean and looking like nobody lives here, family stuff and general craziness. I can’t say I’m not anxious but better than previous years.
November 28, 2024 at 8:06 PM
2/? For me it’s always been a day of stress and anxiety. People coming over an everything it takes to cook the meal, make the house clean and looking like nobody lives here, family stuff and general craziness. I can’t say I’m not anxious but better than previous years.
For many, today is Thanksgiving. I’m probably wrong but I think this mostly a North American thing. Canada in October, November for the U.S. please inform me what other places have a “Thanksgiving” type holiday.
1/?
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November 28, 2024 at 8:02 PM
For many, today is Thanksgiving. I’m probably wrong but I think this mostly a North American thing. Canada in October, November for the U.S. please inform me what other places have a “Thanksgiving” type holiday.
1/?
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That feeling of rapid descent into depression scared the crap out of me. I can’t do another 25 months of major depression right now. My history makes it clear that major depression fucks me up for a long time. Just hoping things settle down. Glad I’m mindful enough to have caught it in time.
2/2
2/2
November 21, 2024 at 10:02 PM
That feeling of rapid descent into depression scared the crap out of me. I can’t do another 25 months of major depression right now. My history makes it clear that major depression fucks me up for a long time. Just hoping things settle down. Glad I’m mindful enough to have caught it in time.
2/2
2/2
Changing sleep meds was an experiment. Results were not good. Didn’t help the sleep and ignited the depression rocket. Took about a week and a half to get started but it rapidly flew off the cliff. Suicidal thoughts, no energy, blah blah. Changed meds back and getting back my sanity. 1/2
November 21, 2024 at 9:58 PM
Changing sleep meds was an experiment. Results were not good. Didn’t help the sleep and ignited the depression rocket. Took about a week and a half to get started but it rapidly flew off the cliff. Suicidal thoughts, no energy, blah blah. Changed meds back and getting back my sanity. 1/2
3/3
I’ll stop whining. I promise.
I have a lot to work on and it needs to get done.
My mood is good even if my body is inflamed.
The floof-dogs are bored so I’d better become a better daddy for awhile.
Now to find motivation. Apparently Amazon doesn’t carry it.
I’ll stop whining. I promise.
I have a lot to work on and it needs to get done.
My mood is good even if my body is inflamed.
The floof-dogs are bored so I’d better become a better daddy for awhile.
Now to find motivation. Apparently Amazon doesn’t carry it.
October 20, 2024 at 7:59 PM
3/3
I’ll stop whining. I promise.
I have a lot to work on and it needs to get done.
My mood is good even if my body is inflamed.
The floof-dogs are bored so I’d better become a better daddy for awhile.
Now to find motivation. Apparently Amazon doesn’t carry it.
I’ll stop whining. I promise.
I have a lot to work on and it needs to get done.
My mood is good even if my body is inflamed.
The floof-dogs are bored so I’d better become a better daddy for awhile.
Now to find motivation. Apparently Amazon doesn’t carry it.
2/x
My hands hurt so much today. The arthritis is awful. The trigger finger aches. The Carpel tunnel tendons ache and my thumbs are shot. Couldn’t hold a cock if it was on Zackery Quinto. (I’m in love).
I’m DONE with all this pain.
The question is
To pill or not to pill, that is the question.
My hands hurt so much today. The arthritis is awful. The trigger finger aches. The Carpel tunnel tendons ache and my thumbs are shot. Couldn’t hold a cock if it was on Zackery Quinto. (I’m in love).
I’m DONE with all this pain.
The question is
To pill or not to pill, that is the question.
October 20, 2024 at 7:56 PM
2/x
My hands hurt so much today. The arthritis is awful. The trigger finger aches. The Carpel tunnel tendons ache and my thumbs are shot. Couldn’t hold a cock if it was on Zackery Quinto. (I’m in love).
I’m DONE with all this pain.
The question is
To pill or not to pill, that is the question.
My hands hurt so much today. The arthritis is awful. The trigger finger aches. The Carpel tunnel tendons ache and my thumbs are shot. Couldn’t hold a cock if it was on Zackery Quinto. (I’m in love).
I’m DONE with all this pain.
The question is
To pill or not to pill, that is the question.
1/x
PAIN. Today’s word is pain.
I worked hard yesterday so I expect to have a few muscle aches. I fell on the woodstove (cold) and cut my leg (minor). I expected to hurt a little after that little stunt.
I had no idea it would be those pains and fibromyalgia this morning. I can hardly move.
PAIN. Today’s word is pain.
I worked hard yesterday so I expect to have a few muscle aches. I fell on the woodstove (cold) and cut my leg (minor). I expected to hurt a little after that little stunt.
I had no idea it would be those pains and fibromyalgia this morning. I can hardly move.
October 20, 2024 at 7:50 PM
1/x
PAIN. Today’s word is pain.
I worked hard yesterday so I expect to have a few muscle aches. I fell on the woodstove (cold) and cut my leg (minor). I expected to hurt a little after that little stunt.
I had no idea it would be those pains and fibromyalgia this morning. I can hardly move.
PAIN. Today’s word is pain.
I worked hard yesterday so I expect to have a few muscle aches. I fell on the woodstove (cold) and cut my leg (minor). I expected to hurt a little after that little stunt.
I had no idea it would be those pains and fibromyalgia this morning. I can hardly move.
Timber (B&W) and Forrest (red)
October 16, 2024 at 1:12 AM
Timber (B&W) and Forrest (red)