I already lost everything this week. I've mentally prepared myself for this moment. Photographic memory. Whoops, & I'm petty.

Yeah, I was told to leave it alone, but ya know what. I'm tired of other people telling me what I can & can't do. So. If you all want me to spill who all I emailed and my resignation letter on a blogsite I will. I do not care. Peace. I don't think is directed at the right platform but I don't META.

I still have the Zyns my lead gave me. Proof is in the details. #IYKYK Night guys. I have nothing to hide nor will I ever. And now I have nothing to lose.

The only thing you can take from me is my dog and you don't want to do that. With love, a dumb hillbilly who loves tech.

I am not a prisoner of my past but I will not be an idiot made to look crazy either. I am Mathew Whitehead. I am from West by God Viriginia, I am a recovered addict, I am sober. Not everything has to be shared but I am not psychotic. I have held my shit together through worse.

Sorry. I’ll switch to my notes next time. 😬

Learn to live my life again. I remember it all and will not not talk about it. I’m ready to move on. I looked up, something in my head said “Holy shit that is my best friend in the whole wide world. Idgaf about his sexuality. I just want to be his friend and help him out. I’m sick of my head

Depression zapped away. I get that this post was supposed to be some big speech about changing the world but it still is. I just don’t have structure right now and am waiting on some stuff to come back from the doctors. I’ll get a move on. I just don’t have the energy and I’ve recently have to

I get that everything comes with time but i am literally waiting for a software update like. I was smoking pot while I was going through some things and lemme tell you what. I panic deleted the autofill. So if you guys could just help me out. I am sorry. Okay. I am almost better. I just need my

I have depression. 🤷🏼‍♂️

I am tired like Loki from that show called Loki. Whomever the fuck I call Derek who wants nothing to do with me will you please help me? I am not calling your number because I totally have like free will or some crap. It’s weird. I get you do too but damn. I’ll clean my house.

I’ve lost weeks of my life, have been put through CR in 2 seconds, and am told to just have faith? No, I am accessing like 100% of my brain. I don’t understand what else I have to do.

You literally cannot care about anything. Ig yall thought I was bonded to my dog? No, it’s the neighbor bc I just happened to look up after I deleted meta. Like. I’m sorry I didn’t keep to your timeline but my front lobe is on fire when I get annoyed. It’s like I have the will of the people.

Or just a married man who lives in WV fighting the good fight. Idgaf. I’m in it to win it. Yeah, I jumped ahead of my time, and yes, I do get emotional at times but I mourned my mother this evening and I only cried for like 15 minutes. That’s a record for me.

Yeah, I know I’m not supposed to share but ya know what. I’m tired of being tired of being confused. Yall are trying to get me to lash out? Ain’t gonna happen? I’ve been raising 5 kids since I was 24ish. I have had enough of these gd games. If I want to be a gay president I will be a gay president.

With the help of a community too. I am an amazing member of society, yeah I cuss, who doesn’t. I don’t beat my kids, diddle kids like our current ones, and I’ll be right over the age limit by the time I finish college. I can do both things at once. I just need to know I have people behind me.

I think. Who gives a crap. You guys are literally no better than the right. I reached out for help, got thrown in jail because people thought I was on drugs after I got fucking sober BY MYSELF.

I would like to add a photo or 8.

I’ve sent y’all emails. It’s time y’all show your worth.

I have proof I emailed a lot more than what mark knows about. Please tell he doesn’t have you to.