If you had told me a year ago that I’d enjoy pain this much I would have looked at you like you had two heads

Important learnings:

1) being a dog is so good, I loved turning my brain off so fucking much
2) being beaten in public is actually excellent
3) I need to invest in some knee pads

I am going to go to more parties. Holy fuck that was good.

“adult content” I’M WEARIN’ A BRA, YA PRUDES

HI omg

I still feel the intensity of this bite the next day oh my god I was SHAKING

I wasn’t prepared tbh I think it snuck up on me right around the time I had the yawning realization that the teeth weren’t letting go and I was just going to have to take it indefinitely but also I really WANTED to take it. So idk, I think I submitted too close to the sun

I’m personally responsible for software, equipment, and data that’s collectively equivalent in worth to the GDP of a small country, so idk if ANY of these words should be coming out of my brain, but what are you gonna do

Being in touch with this is novel and it does hurt a lot sometimes, but I also honestly think it’s an enormous step in my journey toward self-understanding and healing. Plus now when I wear a collar it does so many things to my brain lol

joke’s on you, I can fit so many years of ridicule in this traumatized dog. It’s just for other reasons

once again I am being gatekept by the rest of the trans community for my massive hog smh

and idk that just sucks. Like the EMDR/brainspotting thing to do is to find that shaking, sad stray within and embrace her and pet her and tell her that it's going to be alright and she's never going to lose another home. But idk I can't promise that to her. Nobody can. sucks.

Oh my god wow I wonder if we’re thinking of the same place 😳

hhhhhhhhhhh look not to get too out of pocket but I have spotted a place in this photo where I think we would both enjoy my mouth being