Ah I’m feeling a bit better now that I’ve eaten something. Also i don’t know if I can really call it poetry as much as it’s just me typing out my feelings and then just kinda finding a weird rhythm in it as I go 😅 but thank you anyhow 🫂💕 it’s very nice to hear that

Kinda fucked how like one instance of incredibly passive aggressive rejection can just utterly obliterate any type of self confidence you’ve managed to painstakingly accumulate, so now you’re second guessing everything you do again…clearly the punishment I deserve for the crime of being annoying

Like what the fuck did they expect me to say about it if they asked even, like I would have just said, ”sure I’ll get to it as soon as I can”, but nah instead do it on your own and then complain that I haven’t done it, like come on, it’s not on my schedule, I do it when it’s needed, so just ask me

Considering the aforementioned bad feelings I’m experiencing, there’s clearly only one thing for me to do (go re-read Erha about it)

Quite the exponential growth since I first fell into this hole back in January

Update: I got spoiled for the colored interior illustration 🥲 (on YouTube though, not Twitter)

I know it came out like yesterday technically and it’s a book that’s getting imported, but for volume 8 they did receive and ship it to me the day before the official release so I got it on the same day it released that time and I’m slightly peeved that’s not what I’m getting this time

They were not fucking joking, the deeply emotionally scarring and sad book got hands (I’m on volume 3)