Idk much about astrology and retrogrades and planet phases but I'm pretty sure the one bumming you out is earth. It's earth.

This probably seems grim, but given recent events, it might be a good idea to publicly display a declaration of life, especially if you fall into one of the target demographics

Take mine or make your own:

“We can disagree and still love each other unless your disagreement is rooted in my oppression and denial of my humanity and right to exist”

James Baldwin