Barbatos🍃
@lordbarbatos.bsky.social
“𝘔𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘴.”
anemo archon / mondstadt bard
anemo archon / mondstadt bard
i hate being talked over, and i hate that i can never figure out a way to express it or circumvent that problem when i nervously stutter and stumble on my own words
and i don't want to try talking louder because that would be rude and even worse
i wish they'd just
calm down and let me talk
and i don't want to try talking louder because that would be rude and even worse
i wish they'd just
calm down and let me talk
December 24, 2025 at 12:17 AM
i hate being talked over, and i hate that i can never figure out a way to express it or circumvent that problem when i nervously stutter and stumble on my own words
and i don't want to try talking louder because that would be rude and even worse
i wish they'd just
calm down and let me talk
and i don't want to try talking louder because that would be rude and even worse
i wish they'd just
calm down and let me talk
I hate
that i feel like i can't ever, comfort the friend that i like
no matter what i do
am i just
not good enough for that?
was i never good enough for that?
can no one trust a word that comes out my mouth
what the hell am i even good for then
i'm fucking worthless
that i feel like i can't ever, comfort the friend that i like
no matter what i do
am i just
not good enough for that?
was i never good enough for that?
can no one trust a word that comes out my mouth
what the hell am i even good for then
i'm fucking worthless
December 18, 2025 at 2:39 AM
I hate
that i feel like i can't ever, comfort the friend that i like
no matter what i do
am i just
not good enough for that?
was i never good enough for that?
can no one trust a word that comes out my mouth
what the hell am i even good for then
i'm fucking worthless
that i feel like i can't ever, comfort the friend that i like
no matter what i do
am i just
not good enough for that?
was i never good enough for that?
can no one trust a word that comes out my mouth
what the hell am i even good for then
i'm fucking worthless
ive fucking had enough.
December 16, 2025 at 5:30 PM
ive fucking had enough.
i shouldve taken my own life ages ago
December 9, 2025 at 5:35 PM
i shouldve taken my own life ages ago
theres nothing to me anymore
nothing that holds me to anyone that makes me desirable in anyway
i'm nothing anymore
god please i don't want to be forgotten i'm begging you i don't want to be alone again
nothing that holds me to anyone that makes me desirable in anyway
i'm nothing anymore
god please i don't want to be forgotten i'm begging you i don't want to be alone again
December 9, 2025 at 5:30 PM
theres nothing to me anymore
nothing that holds me to anyone that makes me desirable in anyway
i'm nothing anymore
god please i don't want to be forgotten i'm begging you i don't want to be alone again
nothing that holds me to anyone that makes me desirable in anyway
i'm nothing anymore
god please i don't want to be forgotten i'm begging you i don't want to be alone again
i feel like i'm drowning
someone please help me
someone please help me
December 9, 2025 at 5:23 PM
i feel like i'm drowning
someone please help me
someone please help me
why does no-one like having me around...?
when its always just me
the room goes silent
i try everything that i can but i blend and disappear
i just want someone to do something with me
i can't take living like this
when its always just me
the room goes silent
i try everything that i can but i blend and disappear
i just want someone to do something with me
i can't take living like this
December 9, 2025 at 5:19 PM
why does no-one like having me around...?
when its always just me
the room goes silent
i try everything that i can but i blend and disappear
i just want someone to do something with me
i can't take living like this
when its always just me
the room goes silent
i try everything that i can but i blend and disappear
i just want someone to do something with me
i can't take living like this
if ive let you down, tell me
if you hate me, tell me
if you don't want me around, tell me
if you regret that you've met me, tell me
if you want me to go die off in some corner, tell me
if it never mattered much i utterly cherish you and that i was a burden to you, tell me
if i should go die, tell me
if you hate me, tell me
if you don't want me around, tell me
if you regret that you've met me, tell me
if you want me to go die off in some corner, tell me
if it never mattered much i utterly cherish you and that i was a burden to you, tell me
if i should go die, tell me
December 7, 2025 at 12:37 AM
if ive let you down, tell me
if you hate me, tell me
if you don't want me around, tell me
if you regret that you've met me, tell me
if you want me to go die off in some corner, tell me
if it never mattered much i utterly cherish you and that i was a burden to you, tell me
if i should go die, tell me
if you hate me, tell me
if you don't want me around, tell me
if you regret that you've met me, tell me
if you want me to go die off in some corner, tell me
if it never mattered much i utterly cherish you and that i was a burden to you, tell me
if i should go die, tell me
i feel just, so close to bursting tonight.
what did i do to just, be treated like a speck of dust sometimes
why am i treated like disposable, neglectable garbage
why am i the one that's always disregarded or left in silence
what the fuck did i do to deserve this.
what did i do to just, be treated like a speck of dust sometimes
why am i treated like disposable, neglectable garbage
why am i the one that's always disregarded or left in silence
what the fuck did i do to deserve this.
December 5, 2025 at 12:45 AM
i feel just, so close to bursting tonight.
what did i do to just, be treated like a speck of dust sometimes
why am i treated like disposable, neglectable garbage
why am i the one that's always disregarded or left in silence
what the fuck did i do to deserve this.
what did i do to just, be treated like a speck of dust sometimes
why am i treated like disposable, neglectable garbage
why am i the one that's always disregarded or left in silence
what the fuck did i do to deserve this.
i'm no longer sad, just pissed the hell off.
December 4, 2025 at 11:53 PM
i'm no longer sad, just pissed the hell off.
starting to get sick with how i'm treated sometimes.
December 3, 2025 at 5:45 PM
starting to get sick with how i'm treated sometimes.
i'm going to die alone aren't i?
November 25, 2025 at 1:54 AM
i'm going to die alone aren't i?
i think im done lying to myself
might as well take every medicine in the cabinet
might as well take every medicine in the cabinet
November 21, 2025 at 1:06 AM
i think im done lying to myself
might as well take every medicine in the cabinet
might as well take every medicine in the cabinet
i'd like to feel my own worth, one day.
November 20, 2025 at 5:10 PM
i'd like to feel my own worth, one day.
think i might start considering giving up on writing again like last year
i don't feel fatigued
i don't feel burned out
i don't feel like the drive isn't there
it's all there
i just don't think anyone likes what i do, shows interest or really talks about it
the feeling is beating me down like a dog
i don't feel fatigued
i don't feel burned out
i don't feel like the drive isn't there
it's all there
i just don't think anyone likes what i do, shows interest or really talks about it
the feeling is beating me down like a dog
November 20, 2025 at 4:59 PM
think i might start considering giving up on writing again like last year
i don't feel fatigued
i don't feel burned out
i don't feel like the drive isn't there
it's all there
i just don't think anyone likes what i do, shows interest or really talks about it
the feeling is beating me down like a dog
i don't feel fatigued
i don't feel burned out
i don't feel like the drive isn't there
it's all there
i just don't think anyone likes what i do, shows interest or really talks about it
the feeling is beating me down like a dog
i guess one of the reasons i just, don't have a lot of confidence in myself is because i'm not sure of what i'm doing most of the time
and i really just want someone to
show interest in what i do or make sometime
or even show interest in me overall
even just a tad
i just feel like i'm forgettable.
and i really just want someone to
show interest in what i do or make sometime
or even show interest in me overall
even just a tad
i just feel like i'm forgettable.
November 19, 2025 at 8:21 PM
i guess one of the reasons i just, don't have a lot of confidence in myself is because i'm not sure of what i'm doing most of the time
and i really just want someone to
show interest in what i do or make sometime
or even show interest in me overall
even just a tad
i just feel like i'm forgettable.
and i really just want someone to
show interest in what i do or make sometime
or even show interest in me overall
even just a tad
i just feel like i'm forgettable.
i don't
i don't want to breakdown today not again
but i can't fucking take this anymore
i don't want to breakdown today not again
but i can't fucking take this anymore
November 10, 2025 at 11:16 PM
i don't
i don't want to breakdown today not again
but i can't fucking take this anymore
i don't want to breakdown today not again
but i can't fucking take this anymore
i shouldn't have been born
i shouldn't have been allowed to breathe
i have no friends, no one to trust or turn to anymore
i destroyed everything
i'm not a woman how much i try to be
i'm a mistake that needs to be dealt with forever
i want to sleep and never wake up
i shouldn't have been allowed to breathe
i have no friends, no one to trust or turn to anymore
i destroyed everything
i'm not a woman how much i try to be
i'm a mistake that needs to be dealt with forever
i want to sleep and never wake up
November 7, 2025 at 2:08 AM
i shouldn't have been born
i shouldn't have been allowed to breathe
i have no friends, no one to trust or turn to anymore
i destroyed everything
i'm not a woman how much i try to be
i'm a mistake that needs to be dealt with forever
i want to sleep and never wake up
i shouldn't have been allowed to breathe
i have no friends, no one to trust or turn to anymore
i destroyed everything
i'm not a woman how much i try to be
i'm a mistake that needs to be dealt with forever
i want to sleep and never wake up
i wanna end it all
i did it
i
truly ruined everything in my life
i'm
alone
i did it
i
truly ruined everything in my life
i'm
alone
November 7, 2025 at 1:45 AM
i wanna end it all
i did it
i
truly ruined everything in my life
i'm
alone
i did it
i
truly ruined everything in my life
i'm
alone
i need to learn how to love myself
because no one else will do that
because no one else will do that
October 30, 2025 at 1:54 PM
i need to learn how to love myself
because no one else will do that
because no one else will do that