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I don’t know how you got here but I suggest stepping back and away. This is a completely uncurated stream of consciousness and indulgences and I don’t give a fuck.
Maybe I should drink some juice…
November 6, 2025 at 8:29 AM
Maybe I should drink some juice…
Oh Mother Mary there is discernment waiting for me today, isn’t there? 😭
Fine. I’ll ask my family to pick up that thing the university is preparing in your image.
Fine. I’ll ask my family to pick up that thing the university is preparing in your image.
September 21, 2025 at 10:01 PM
Oh Mother Mary there is discernment waiting for me today, isn’t there? 😭
Fine. I’ll ask my family to pick up that thing the university is preparing in your image.
Fine. I’ll ask my family to pick up that thing the university is preparing in your image.
Global crisis after global crisis be speedrunning you through lifetimes and careers but guess what? You are still a human being, residing in human flesh, and fuelled but human wants, needs, desires, emotions, bound human weaknesses
This fucking SUCKS
This fucking SUCKS
September 21, 2025 at 10:01 PM
Global crisis after global crisis be speedrunning you through lifetimes and careers but guess what? You are still a human being, residing in human flesh, and fuelled but human wants, needs, desires, emotions, bound human weaknesses
This fucking SUCKS
This fucking SUCKS
Yeah actually all your more practical and specialised classes can be out of date at some point but NOT any of the humanities, no. NOTHING’S MORE TIMELESS THAN THE HUMAN CONDITION YOU INEXPERIENCED FOOL?
HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO BE PROVEN WRONG, YOU BLISSFULLY IGNORANT CHILD?!
HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO BE PROVEN WRONG, YOU BLISSFULLY IGNORANT CHILD?!
September 21, 2025 at 10:01 PM
Yeah actually all your more practical and specialised classes can be out of date at some point but NOT any of the humanities, no. NOTHING’S MORE TIMELESS THAN THE HUMAN CONDITION YOU INEXPERIENCED FOOL?
HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO BE PROVEN WRONG, YOU BLISSFULLY IGNORANT CHILD?!
HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO BE PROVEN WRONG, YOU BLISSFULLY IGNORANT CHILD?!
Now I am using them to help me work out what it is that unsettles me about this decision that I have to make. Why do the options presented to me both seem like they aren’t the right one? Why am I acting like those prissy annoying philosophers that had to endlessly question everything?
September 21, 2025 at 10:01 PM
Now I am using them to help me work out what it is that unsettles me about this decision that I have to make. Why do the options presented to me both seem like they aren’t the right one? Why am I acting like those prissy annoying philosophers that had to endlessly question everything?
But also I have a truly terrible temper and I will more likely choose violence over peace. Maybe I won’t hit anyone but my words are sharp and my temper is fierce, especially when stressed. I have a lot of growing to do before I can act civil with a non-guest non-family member in my own home 😅
September 20, 2025 at 6:06 AM
But also I have a truly terrible temper and I will more likely choose violence over peace. Maybe I won’t hit anyone but my words are sharp and my temper is fierce, especially when stressed. I have a lot of growing to do before I can act civil with a non-guest non-family member in my own home 😅
Generally speaking, part of the reason why I have no desire to get married is because it sounds so troublesome to have someone else in the house and having to coordinate with them 😅 my parents were never big on communication and I also preferred doing school projects solo.
September 20, 2025 at 6:06 AM
Generally speaking, part of the reason why I have no desire to get married is because it sounds so troublesome to have someone else in the house and having to coordinate with them 😅 my parents were never big on communication and I also preferred doing school projects solo.
So yeah, some food for thought for you. I think those people who suggest cohabitation before marriage were on the right because it’s probably valuable knowledge to know if you can’t stand living with someone 😂 and also how troublesome you can be as a roommate too. Lots compromise and communication.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
So yeah, some food for thought for you. I think those people who suggest cohabitation before marriage were on the right because it’s probably valuable knowledge to know if you can’t stand living with someone 😂 and also how troublesome you can be as a roommate too. Lots compromise and communication.
Personally, I will be a lot less tolerant with a husband with messes and poorly done chores than I ever have been for my father LMAO. I am willing to pick up after my father but a grown ass man I’m married to needs to be able to clean up after himself and put things back in their proper place 💁
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Personally, I will be a lot less tolerant with a husband with messes and poorly done chores than I ever have been for my father LMAO. I am willing to pick up after my father but a grown ass man I’m married to needs to be able to clean up after himself and put things back in their proper place 💁
Your idea of “normal” home living can’t be considered standard. Every household will be different and have its own quirks. You’ll need to be attentive to your home life as well as your partner’s to work out how you can live civilly with each other.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Your idea of “normal” home living can’t be considered standard. Every household will be different and have its own quirks. You’ll need to be attentive to your home life as well as your partner’s to work out how you can live civilly with each other.
Then this does circle back to your recent diagnosis, no? You also need to take the time to understand yourself and how you work, as well as what support you currently getting to be able to execute your daily living. This can be as simple as things being reliably returned to specific place.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Then this does circle back to your recent diagnosis, no? You also need to take the time to understand yourself and how you work, as well as what support you currently getting to be able to execute your daily living. This can be as simple as things being reliably returned to specific place.
Understandable frustration, unacceptable reaction. I’d never allow such a person to live under the same roof as me. I can put up with a lot, but if anyone dares to call themselves my family while giving me grief for something I made clear they would need to help me through then they are dead to me.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Understandable frustration, unacceptable reaction. I’d never allow such a person to live under the same roof as me. I can put up with a lot, but if anyone dares to call themselves my family while giving me grief for something I made clear they would need to help me through then they are dead to me.
My illness and need for accommodations can be used against me and even kind people, when pushed under the pressures of life, will likely cave to our world’s normalised ableism and blame their misfortune on having to care for me in a world that works against me.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
My illness and need for accommodations can be used against me and even kind people, when pushed under the pressures of life, will likely cave to our world’s normalised ableism and blame their misfortune on having to care for me in a world that works against me.
My partner would have to help me through all those trials. That is an irrefutable fact. And most people especially our age would have no idea what to do or how to deal with it. I am also wholly cognisant about the stigma between sickly women and healthy husbands. I want to deal with none of it.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
My partner would have to help me through all those trials. That is an irrefutable fact. And most people especially our age would have no idea what to do or how to deal with it. I am also wholly cognisant about the stigma between sickly women and healthy husbands. I want to deal with none of it.
I also know my mother’s own reservations about asking my other siblings to help her with touchy medical concerns like massaging an ointment into her back when it hurts. As well as how tough a nurse had to be to help me through my hospitalisation when I couldn’t even walk to the bathroom by myself.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
I also know my mother’s own reservations about asking my other siblings to help her with touchy medical concerns like massaging an ointment into her back when it hurts. As well as how tough a nurse had to be to help me through my hospitalisation when I couldn’t even walk to the bathroom by myself.
I don’t have a lot of mettle so I get the value of it. And I think not a lot of people understand what it means to be able to stick it out with someone. I know I’m in for medical poverty for the rest of my life and anyone who seeks to be involved with me has to be okay with that as well.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
I don’t have a lot of mettle so I get the value of it. And I think not a lot of people understand what it means to be able to stick it out with someone. I know I’m in for medical poverty for the rest of my life and anyone who seeks to be involved with me has to be okay with that as well.
Personally for me, I’ve never been interested in relationships but if I were at all to pick, I wouldn’t take anyone seriously unless I can tell they have mettle and wouldn’t turn away if things got tough or had to handle me in my illness.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Personally for me, I’ve never been interested in relationships but if I were at all to pick, I wouldn’t take anyone seriously unless I can tell they have mettle and wouldn’t turn away if things got tough or had to handle me in my illness.
Perhaps framing it from the pov that ok I need to make things work with this person and their family
On one hand, people with good intentions can be messy themselves and wouldn’t know how to be a good spouse and some people are clearly dangerous. On the other, it’s absurd what people can overcome.
On one hand, people with good intentions can be messy themselves and wouldn’t know how to be a good spouse and some people are clearly dangerous. On the other, it’s absurd what people can overcome.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Perhaps framing it from the pov that ok I need to make things work with this person and their family
On one hand, people with good intentions can be messy themselves and wouldn’t know how to be a good spouse and some people are clearly dangerous. On the other, it’s absurd what people can overcome.
On one hand, people with good intentions can be messy themselves and wouldn’t know how to be a good spouse and some people are clearly dangerous. On the other, it’s absurd what people can overcome.
If all else fails, you can tell your parents if you think your partner can ruin everything for you and your family. That would send alarm bells because now they need to double check if this guy is a liability for their own survival.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
If all else fails, you can tell your parents if you think your partner can ruin everything for you and your family. That would send alarm bells because now they need to double check if this guy is a liability for their own survival.
Ugh sorry the sudden rant. What I mean to say is that there are so many ways things can turn out so no solution is a clear win.
What I hope is that you can keep your feet on the ground and have a clear idea of what could be a problem and how to handle it. That’s probably the deciding factor tbh.
What I hope is that you can keep your feet on the ground and have a clear idea of what could be a problem and how to handle it. That’s probably the deciding factor tbh.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Ugh sorry the sudden rant. What I mean to say is that there are so many ways things can turn out so no solution is a clear win.
What I hope is that you can keep your feet on the ground and have a clear idea of what could be a problem and how to handle it. That’s probably the deciding factor tbh.
What I hope is that you can keep your feet on the ground and have a clear idea of what could be a problem and how to handle it. That’s probably the deciding factor tbh.
Like we knew there was something wrong with him but we never expected things to ever get this bad. I thought he just needed some time to mature! He was the most normal of us! No terrible event ruined his education! No broken friendships! No clear neurodivergence! People always loved him!
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Like we knew there was something wrong with him but we never expected things to ever get this bad. I thought he just needed some time to mature! He was the most normal of us! No terrible event ruined his education! No broken friendships! No clear neurodivergence! People always loved him!
It’s insulting. We are willing to drop everything for his sake and he thinks we want bribes? How about show that you even care about us instead of just an afterthought as you use us to get further with your life? Does he know no shame?
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
It’s insulting. We are willing to drop everything for his sake and he thinks we want bribes? How about show that you even care about us instead of just an afterthought as you use us to get further with your life? Does he know no shame?
The help doesn’t come cheap, nor is it convenient for us but we do it anyway (except for my sister, she won’t even stand to let the girl into our house,
He genuinely does not think he has done anything wrong, only that he has somehow offended us and so he only tries to bribe us. It’s disgusting.
He genuinely does not think he has done anything wrong, only that he has somehow offended us and so he only tries to bribe us. It’s disgusting.
September 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
The help doesn’t come cheap, nor is it convenient for us but we do it anyway (except for my sister, she won’t even stand to let the girl into our house,
He genuinely does not think he has done anything wrong, only that he has somehow offended us and so he only tries to bribe us. It’s disgusting.
He genuinely does not think he has done anything wrong, only that he has somehow offended us and so he only tries to bribe us. It’s disgusting.