Bea 🐝
lonely.quest
Bea 🐝
@lonely.quest
I dont trust anyone 🧡
"I want to help"

Telling you how to make yourself useful is more exhausting than doing it myself.
August 21, 2025 at 6:44 AM
I want to carve artwork of my frustration into my pelvis where my womb should be.
July 15, 2025 at 7:26 AM
Where does my desire for you end and my desire to be you begin
July 13, 2025 at 10:22 PM
Thinking about grade school. For the school play the girls danced to "girls just wanna have fun" and I cried through the performance telling my teacher "I just wanna have fun."

I guess there are some things I've always known.
July 6, 2025 at 11:23 PM
So that it's somewhere.
I'm going to "cut" contact with her. She'll still be my friend's friend. And I'll still see her at events, but I have to make this active and tell her. I've been emotionally abused for too long.

Until I move I'll have our chats muted so that I have to opt in.
July 2, 2025 at 12:07 AM
All my feelings around being trans boil down to "it feels like im so far behind."

I'm happy with my hobbies and interests, I just wish I didn't have to spend so much time slipping before I found them.
June 10, 2025 at 12:05 AM
Love enables you to see all those beautiful things about someone. It is not that those beautiful things make you fall in love.
May 20, 2025 at 3:31 AM
What is the evolutionary benefit of being obsessed with a girl who you barely know. God damnit I just want out. Or her. And i guess that's why it's like this.
May 15, 2025 at 6:18 AM
I usually treat people as frail and weak. I'm scared to mildly inconvenience someone because I don't think they'll be able to take it. This seems bad.
May 12, 2025 at 5:38 PM
Well chat, I tried opening up and got shut down. I know I have a problem, but I don't think I can grow with these people.
April 26, 2025 at 5:22 PM
How come everyone else can do things without considering my feelings, but I'm forced to consider theirs? I wish I didn't have a conscience.
April 26, 2025 at 4:29 PM
Every post is an invitation to burn it all down.

Please RSVP,
Bea.
April 26, 2025 at 6:05 AM
How can my "friends" ask me to open up to them when we hang out on a Friday night and I have to basically talk to myself the whole evening, and pick where we eat.
April 26, 2025 at 6:03 AM
Why is she asking for virtual kisses from her 10 years older gaming friend when I am in person hanging out with her??
April 20, 2025 at 2:29 AM
"hey I'm having a hard time, do you still love me?”

Am I a liar, or did they make me one?
April 19, 2025 at 5:53 AM