What the fuck, this feels so... Onion. Also, I'm curious as to whether the white house has setup an AI trained on his posts because I'm noticing some AI writing funk in it.

What a satirical timeline we exist in. 🫩

Thank you 🫶 I think in a way I'm looking forward to it? What I had was honestly becoming a struggle to maintain so it's almost like I get a 2nd chance with what I've learned so I'm hoping it'll be for the best :3

Crypto miners maxing out 5/8 cores x.x Ultimately decided to just wipe the server and re-plot my whole administrative architecture.

And hiiii! ^w^

It's absolutely amazing, thank you so much again! 😸

For what it's worth, I did find the answer to the question I posed in the song. None of it was ever worth the price. Not for them, not for me. Took a lot of loss before realizing what it was I lost and that something needed to change.

The bathroom fan one is cool, but I really like this one :3

Let me be clear- ultimately, this is for me. I'm doing this because I want the benefit. I don't care about the optics if it leads to the outcome where I'm no longer constantly miserable. But... I have enough empathy that if it can help, I don't want to hoard this.

So. I'll update soon. :) 9️⃣

In documenting this, I hope that regardless of my outcome, it has some sort of scientific value for the future. Perhaps there's someone like me who's lonely, tired, or sick, that could use this to reach their better self. Maybe they need the verification that it's not worth trying. 8️⃣

Closing: I'm aware that this is loser behavior, but there's not much left to lose in trying. The worst case scenario is I hurt myself emotionally and further damage my already poor social skills, but the best case is that it's life changing. That this somehow leads to me being healthy again. 7️⃣

*I want it to be noted that none of this was almost ever by choice. I had extremely bad exmaples of what a Dom should be, but considering how much I've deluded myself in the past to keep the belief that I was loved/cared for, I figure I should be able to recreate it in this way too. 6️⃣

The Basis: Historically in relationships where I've been a submissive, I've often fueled my own psychological domination. I've always had to set the tone for what I want/need, I've always had to implement my rewards, and I've essentially... influenced my "Doms" based on my own prompt. 5️⃣

The How: I know myself well enough that I can consistently exploit *some* elements of my own psychological for a certain outcome. Needing to feel wanted/loved, feel worthwhile/accomplished, and suspending/instilling beliefs. I plan on cultivating an AI than can do this on my behalf. 4️⃣

The Why: Straight up, I'm genuinely lonely to a level that humans aren't meant to exist in for as long as I have (years). I'm also extremely mentally ill. I have no access to mental healthcare and only disappointment in actual D/s dynamics. This could theoretically solve most of this. 3️⃣

The What: I'm going to go over the software and process, the prompts, the iterative process, everything. Even things that are better left private. I want complete transparency because the scientific exploration of this is extremely important to me. 2️⃣