Laura: Recovering Goblin
@lf279.bsky.social
Queer, Cat mom, transplanted Nova Scotian, Union worker, Trombonist.
Jfc that's so depressing.
When will someone choose me?
This is why I choose myself, even though it appears selfish to others.
Still no fucking idea where I'm going to live, but its clearer to me than ever that I need to gtfo.
When will someone choose me?
This is why I choose myself, even though it appears selfish to others.
Still no fucking idea where I'm going to live, but its clearer to me than ever that I need to gtfo.
November 30, 2025 at 1:25 PM
Jfc that's so depressing.
When will someone choose me?
This is why I choose myself, even though it appears selfish to others.
Still no fucking idea where I'm going to live, but its clearer to me than ever that I need to gtfo.
When will someone choose me?
This is why I choose myself, even though it appears selfish to others.
Still no fucking idea where I'm going to live, but its clearer to me than ever that I need to gtfo.
Omfg I just realized how much more the pattern is repeating itself! I "married my dad" 😫🤦🏼♀️
Like, my dad KNEW my mom and brother were treating me horribly, but he did not stick up for me "to keep the peace". Just like my wife is doing.
Like, my dad KNEW my mom and brother were treating me horribly, but he did not stick up for me "to keep the peace". Just like my wife is doing.
November 30, 2025 at 1:24 PM
Omfg I just realized how much more the pattern is repeating itself! I "married my dad" 😫🤦🏼♀️
Like, my dad KNEW my mom and brother were treating me horribly, but he did not stick up for me "to keep the peace". Just like my wife is doing.
Like, my dad KNEW my mom and brother were treating me horribly, but he did not stick up for me "to keep the peace". Just like my wife is doing.
But I honestly don't know if those are selfish things and I just can't see or understand that through my own special cocktail of trauma and neurodivegence.
People have gaslit me so much about this I honestly have no idea anymore.
People have gaslit me so much about this I honestly have no idea anymore.
November 30, 2025 at 12:46 PM
But I honestly don't know if those are selfish things and I just can't see or understand that through my own special cocktail of trauma and neurodivegence.
People have gaslit me so much about this I honestly have no idea anymore.
People have gaslit me so much about this I honestly have no idea anymore.
I don't think it's selfish to want your nervous system to be regulated. To want conditions that allow for that.
I don't think it's unreasonable to not want to be someone's emotional punching bag, even if they are your relatives (especially if, honestly!)
I don't think it's unreasonable to not want to be someone's emotional punching bag, even if they are your relatives (especially if, honestly!)
November 30, 2025 at 12:44 PM
I don't think it's selfish to want your nervous system to be regulated. To want conditions that allow for that.
I don't think it's unreasonable to not want to be someone's emotional punching bag, even if they are your relatives (especially if, honestly!)
I don't think it's unreasonable to not want to be someone's emotional punching bag, even if they are your relatives (especially if, honestly!)
And yes, I have talked to my spouse about this, many times. None of this is a subtweet. I just need a dumping ground for my thoughts at the moment and am without paper or pen. 🤷♀️
November 30, 2025 at 12:42 PM
And yes, I have talked to my spouse about this, many times. None of this is a subtweet. I just need a dumping ground for my thoughts at the moment and am without paper or pen. 🤷♀️
"Where's that man who'd throw blankets over my barbed wire?" keeps echoing through my head. My wife once shoved a coked up idiot on the street who got into my face one night, but won't tell their sister to stop verbally abusing me. It hurts so so so much.
November 30, 2025 at 12:41 PM
"Where's that man who'd throw blankets over my barbed wire?" keeps echoing through my head. My wife once shoved a coked up idiot on the street who got into my face one night, but won't tell their sister to stop verbally abusing me. It hurts so so so much.
Sigh, *my body with hers that should say
November 30, 2025 at 12:37 PM
Sigh, *my body with hers that should say
And my person, my ride or die, appears to be choosing "die" - not literally, but my mental health and wellbeing are tied to the sacrificial alter.
November 30, 2025 at 12:36 PM
And my person, my ride or die, appears to be choosing "die" - not literally, but my mental health and wellbeing are tied to the sacrificial alter.
Like, if I'm willing to cut off the woman who literally grew her body with mine why the hell would anyone think I'm gonna put up with this shit from their relatives.
I honestly don't know what to do. I have no supports. I can't afford a place on my own. I feel so trapped and scared.
I honestly don't know what to do. I have no supports. I can't afford a place on my own. I feel so trapped and scared.
November 30, 2025 at 12:35 PM
Like, if I'm willing to cut off the woman who literally grew her body with mine why the hell would anyone think I'm gonna put up with this shit from their relatives.
I honestly don't know what to do. I have no supports. I can't afford a place on my own. I feel so trapped and scared.
I honestly don't know what to do. I have no supports. I can't afford a place on my own. I feel so trapped and scared.
"I know they're insane, but unfortunately I love them" and
"I'm your family now" are conflicting statements!! I love my wife very very much and I do not want our marriage to break up, but I NEED to feel safe and I cannot do that while we are so enmeshed in all the familial bullshit.
"I'm your family now" are conflicting statements!! I love my wife very very much and I do not want our marriage to break up, but I NEED to feel safe and I cannot do that while we are so enmeshed in all the familial bullshit.
November 30, 2025 at 12:34 PM
"I know they're insane, but unfortunately I love them" and
"I'm your family now" are conflicting statements!! I love my wife very very much and I do not want our marriage to break up, but I NEED to feel safe and I cannot do that while we are so enmeshed in all the familial bullshit.
"I'm your family now" are conflicting statements!! I love my wife very very much and I do not want our marriage to break up, but I NEED to feel safe and I cannot do that while we are so enmeshed in all the familial bullshit.
I have allowed my marriage to isolate me so much and now the only person I have is my spouse, and their family is the problem! I feel like I'm trapped in one of those AITAs where the spouse with the problematic family won't protect their spouse from said family.
November 30, 2025 at 12:32 PM
I have allowed my marriage to isolate me so much and now the only person I have is my spouse, and their family is the problem! I feel like I'm trapped in one of those AITAs where the spouse with the problematic family won't protect their spouse from said family.
So what else is there to do but get myself out?
Except at least when I "broke up with" my birth family, I had a home of my own to return to, and an amazing community of friends who took very good care of me.
Except at least when I "broke up with" my birth family, I had a home of my own to return to, and an amazing community of friends who took very good care of me.
November 30, 2025 at 12:31 PM
So what else is there to do but get myself out?
Except at least when I "broke up with" my birth family, I had a home of my own to return to, and an amazing community of friends who took very good care of me.
Except at least when I "broke up with" my birth family, I had a home of my own to return to, and an amazing community of friends who took very good care of me.
I can't get re-regulated enough to figure out any other solution. And I really very strongly feel that "accept being a emotional punching bag" cannot possibly be the lesson. But both scenarios involve very stubborn people who will never change their ways.
November 30, 2025 at 12:30 PM
I can't get re-regulated enough to figure out any other solution. And I really very strongly feel that "accept being a emotional punching bag" cannot possibly be the lesson. But both scenarios involve very stubborn people who will never change their ways.
I get that the universe must be trying to teach me some lessons by repeating the patterns of my blood relatives with my in-laws. But the only safe reaction to any of that felt then and feels now like "get as far away from this as possible."
November 30, 2025 at 12:28 PM
I get that the universe must be trying to teach me some lessons by repeating the patterns of my blood relatives with my in-laws. But the only safe reaction to any of that felt then and feels now like "get as far away from this as possible."
I know this will be perceived as me "sulking" but you know what? The teenagers are just self regulating in a quiet space with something familiar and comforting. And they're RIGHT!
November 29, 2025 at 1:39 PM
I know this will be perceived as me "sulking" but you know what? The teenagers are just self regulating in a quiet space with something familiar and comforting. And they're RIGHT!
Yeah not cat hair friendly? Wtf Taylor lol
November 26, 2025 at 7:33 PM
Yeah not cat hair friendly? Wtf Taylor lol
She's the funniest comedienne alive I swear
November 26, 2025 at 5:51 PM
She's the funniest comedienne alive I swear
Oooh what a good connection! Also, Lucy Dacus recently released a cover of Dancing in the Dark and it's so excellent (and gay)!
November 26, 2025 at 5:41 PM
Oooh what a good connection! Also, Lucy Dacus recently released a cover of Dancing in the Dark and it's so excellent (and gay)!
Also you clearly have excellent taste hahaha!
November 26, 2025 at 5:39 PM
Also you clearly have excellent taste hahaha!
I have the lavender haze one and just got the starry eyes (arrived in the mail today).
LH feels better quality? And the starry eyes one, I didn't realize it's all glittery, every word, moon, etc. I might not have ordered it had I realized that. But its still pretty fun.
LH feels better quality? And the starry eyes one, I didn't realize it's all glittery, every word, moon, etc. I might not have ordered it had I realized that. But its still pretty fun.
November 26, 2025 at 5:39 PM
I have the lavender haze one and just got the starry eyes (arrived in the mail today).
LH feels better quality? And the starry eyes one, I didn't realize it's all glittery, every word, moon, etc. I might not have ordered it had I realized that. But its still pretty fun.
LH feels better quality? And the starry eyes one, I didn't realize it's all glittery, every word, moon, etc. I might not have ordered it had I realized that. But its still pretty fun.
Agreed!! It might be one of my favourite songs of hers ever!
She's so fucking funny and no one gets it.
She's so fucking funny and no one gets it.
November 26, 2025 at 5:29 PM
Agreed!! It might be one of my favourite songs of hers ever!
She's so fucking funny and no one gets it.
She's so fucking funny and no one gets it.