Hell yeah, perseverance!! 

It’s only been two years, but the grief feels as fresh as it did that day. And the betrayal of not receiving her ashes back from UA just added more salt to the wound. I have talked about getting another cat but I am afraid to open that door again. She truly was so special in every way.

I knew after that, she wasn’t physically present with me anymore. Only her tiny little body continued to live. That day, we had the worst ice storm in the Seattle area so even if had wanted to take her to the vet, it wasn’t an option. I have felt so much guilt and pain from losing her.

Hours passed and I knew that the end was near. She wouldn’t meow and couldn’t really move. The last half of my shift I spent just holding her, wrapped up in her favorite blanket. At 5 pm I called my best friend Mauna and while on speakerphone, Jackie had a seizure. I felt so helpless and scared.

She was a lot less active in her old age, but she usually was up and about waiting for me. She was awake and alert, but so very quiet. I could feel something wasn’t right but had to get logged in for work. Thankfully I could keep a close eye on her from my desk.