breakfast is purely liquid, 190 cal vanilla protein shake w oat milk and vanilla iced coffee for 300 cal (only had half so far)

nic is officially all gone, then I checked my bank account (it’s negative) then I caught myself looking at the entire crumbl menu. I can’t let myself turn food into my next addiction to fill the hole

wanting so badly to be thin and fragile but needing to build muscle for work (feeling confused in disordered)