time to redownload tinder i guess

it just sucks SO BAD to watch a character make all the same stupid fuckups that i make but have them still being wanted in the end. it feels like im being lied to, that shit isnt real

i am confident in my abilities, in my education, and in my career, but i am also confident i have nothing to offer anybody else so i really shouldn't waste their time. perhaps there are people who think otherwise, but they don't even know i need to hear that. i can't ask.

all in all, a FANTASTIC story about women that's cleverly marketed as a het romance (and tragically underappreciated for it)

like, its really fascinating how basically every male character is essentially being led in some way by the women in their lives, the heroes and villains are women, there are great morally grey women, the pain and revenge of women is portrayed as rational given their situations...

garlic press, spatula, glass jar of tea, at least 4 butter knives she dropped in an unretrievable corner behind the counter, a picture frame

like, am i insane for being the type of person who likes to treat the things i own with care? like? even cheap stuff SHOULD last if you treat it right

but nooooo we're not human doctors so clearly we dont know anything

and yes, this is a strategy i use to make myself feel good about the fics i post that never get many hits, but consistently have decent ratios

cannot believe im paying 16k a year for profs to tell me to google shit

(she did not put them away. she consolidated the pile. i put them away so i could clean)