like, how much of youtube has become ai and how its becoming more and more difficult to avoid it. where is the academic integrity. where is your doing your own work. what is the value of human content in this day and age. what are the lines in the sand and how are people compromising and why.

ok found the goods - id hidden them with my rings

thank you thank you i'll put this on my wall

ok so i overreacted, i Am getting chicken for dinner
not in the mood to eat it tho, evening nap and cold ramen ruined my appetite

the priest gave me advice, btw. happily enough, there was no favouritism

i just wonder - would they be happier if i wasn't in their lives. if i wasn't the way i am - queer, unmotivated, wasting my potential and draining their patience and resources.

that train of thought won't lead to anywhere good, so i'll stop there.

days and my mom.

gods, they made an ldr work too. despite everything, all the troubles and opposition before and after marriage, they stayed together. i love the fact that they have a son and a daughter like they'd dreamt of.

has a ton of nicknames for my mom while my mom's a shy sweetheart, equally devoted. they talked about missing each other in every paragraph.

recognised myself in my mom's entries where she shared her fears and crying fits. recognised myself in my dad's entries where he constantly longed for happy

while papa irritated me immensely, he was also very funny. his focus was on everything but the stars - passing airplanes, trucks on the road, people talking on the pavements, people on neighbouring rooftops.
it was cool that he let me smoke without investigating my "cigarette" too deeply, haha