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lajjavati.bsky.social
languishing flower
@lajjavati.bsky.social
I am healthy, I am whole, but I have poor impulse control.
i want to cry fr - after everything i went through today - i come home and there's no chicken in the house

it's not like they're gearing up for mutton on sunday or some special chicken dish or anything i can look forward to as well - i really want to cry

fuck fish to hell and back
January 9, 2026 at 9:04 AM
bruh i also want custom 1-on-1 advice from the priest they've got in but nooooooo i think this whole thing's centred around emmy
January 2, 2026 at 5:39 AM
emmy found our parents' diary today which they'd written in while they'd been dating around 20 years ago - it's sweet, angsty, cringey but above all things im glad that they found each other and made their relationship work for so long.

from the entries, we saw that my dad's a hopeless romantic who
December 22, 2025 at 10:50 AM
fuck pride party i found fredric jameson's postmodernism
December 19, 2025 at 5:44 AM
things i want to remember about sunday night:
- the nine shooting stars i saw without a doubt, winkers and streakers alike
- the way i slowly saw orion's belt, and then orion and betelgeuse in it, and sirius which is a part of canis major, and jupiter attended by castor and pollux
- spliff+brownie
December 16, 2025 at 8:45 AM
the geminid meteor shower is supposed to peak tonight, so i'll be parking myself on the roof after midnight with a brownie and a spliff. wish me luck in seeing a hundred shooting stars tonight!
December 14, 2025 at 3:27 PM
ooof so much has happened:

1. ended a 2-yr long relationship last month
2. passed my grade 5 violin exam
3. presented a paper on mata hari
4. cooked up a viable topic for a research project and sdg agreed to mentor me (in heaven)
5. almost got into a rebound situation (don't fuck your friends)
December 14, 2025 at 3:24 PM
need a drink (or several) to accompany the kind of songs im listening to
November 6, 2025 at 3:38 PM
ate seaside crabs, drank beer, ate a slice of cake while listening to ambient techno
October 6, 2025 at 4:19 PM
what i'm craving to eat in this gloomy weather is bhetki maacher paturi
September 24, 2025 at 6:40 AM
money i want money i want to earn so that i can move the fuck out and live freely
September 19, 2025 at 5:10 PM
this roll is unreasonably huge 😭😭😭
September 16, 2025 at 4:36 PM
LMFAO IT'S SHEILA KI JAWANI NOW
it's that type of evening when the neighbouring para club blasts naagin dance on their speakers
September 16, 2025 at 4:08 PM
ah, today's shaping up to be terrible - i still want to cry. why am i like this why am i like this i hate myself
September 16, 2025 at 3:06 PM
it's that type of evening when the neighbouring para club blasts naagin dance on their speakers
September 16, 2025 at 1:26 PM
crying in the metro again. i really do hate myself sometimes
September 16, 2025 at 8:57 AM
william s. burroughs making the most insane statements like how pimps always have a big dick and how gay people give him "the horrors" before going off and almost having sex with a gay man
September 16, 2025 at 5:33 AM
here at my first research conference and my only companion is google gemini on my phone! and friends and family texting from whatsapp - but gods i wish someone was here QvQ
September 10, 2025 at 4:12 AM
frantically sprinting for the tarot deck to ask if my good friends hate me is just typical form at this point, sigh
September 7, 2025 at 2:43 PM
wishlist: drinking a white russian
August 4, 2025 at 1:16 PM
got white girl wasted last night xD
August 3, 2025 at 2:58 AM
girl i'd happily be a day drinker smh missing out on a tom collins rn
August 2, 2025 at 8:37 AM
maman gave me a box of marshmallows today - happy
July 24, 2025 at 5:59 PM
i too want the sexy oversized silk shirts - pls consider me clothing gods (my mom)
June 19, 2025 at 5:24 PM
i started reading jessa crispin's 'the creative tarot' today. love how the cards come with stories that reflect various artists and their journeys + each card explanation page comes with recs of creatives and their works. interdisciplinary approach, very lit-arts, me likely very much!
June 16, 2025 at 5:46 PM