Dammit I wrote month when I meant $1500 a year. I wasn't getting bougie HRT lol

Also switching up from Valerate injections to Undecylate, meaning from injections 1-2 a week, I can either do them twice a month or theoretically once a month. <_< the onboarding dose for the first month scared me off that (an entire ml).

youtu.be/wyyXL__Awlk?...

Free on YouTube if you follow it week to week (first 2 episodes are out)

Anyways, everyone should watch "There's No Freaking Way I'll Be Your Lover! Unless..." It's good good mostly wholesome Yuri.

Opening up myself to people personally (versus this shouting into the void that is bsky) is hard and the social anxiety I've built up over decades is hard to overcome...

I can literally trace into my mind what caused me to get to this point. Betrayals from close friends, failed relationships, how emotionally neglectful my family was (and my much older brother threatening my death if I was queer...)

The bad part is I don't know what to do with that knowledge...

Emergency pill taken. Probably going to sleep the rest of today and tomorrow. Generally 16+ hours though if I take another after who knows when I'll pop up again.

Brought to you by it's way too hot where I live, and I'm lounging with my robe mostly open to maybe cool off a bit.