im nothibg but religious leverage rn. love me and leave me at least i can be comfortable on my own now

now i really am meaningless, the one person who made me feel like i was worth anything has abandoned me

i just hope he doesn’t kill himself
my eyes are so heavy and sore from crying, i hate him, and i love him just as much, i am too gullible to get close to anyone

im disgusting of course he wouldnt love me why wluld he whywould he

love is all i have without him im meaningless

I DOTN CARE JUST KEEP LOVING ME NO ONE CAN LOVE YOU MORE THAN I DO OKAY

i don’t remember a time i’ve been wrong 🧐🧐

you’re beautiful

i was like drooling bro and i described this to him afterwards he agrees i might be schizophrenic

i had to get to class asap but i was gonna talk to mr sp9 sx9 because throwing myself into conversation especially when the high is half based around the desire i have for him wouldve exacerbated it tenfold but he was a little busy so i ran away

music enhances everything really

you are too good for this world

i have periodic meltdowns for no reason like i cried my heart out and i dont know why i dont know anything my brain is empty and sluggish and liquidy i miss him i was gonna write him a paragraph about how i love him and how fragile i feel but decided against it i dont like that

i cried last night really hard and i could smell him like idk

i actually cant tell if thats what it is or just from me pinching myself trying not to laugh