you're telling me (⁠◡⁠ w ⁠◡⁠) i find them wonderful to have but growing them sucked and shopping for bras is a nightmare depending on your figure. trans boobs also tend to look kinda weird, but all boobs tend to look kinda weird in one way or another, so it's all good. just take your time.

big changes + hormone fuckery + the sudden crash that happens when you achieve certain things. totally, utterly normal. a right of passage for all girls, i think, no matter who they become at the end. puberty sucks, but you've done it before and you can do it again >:3 just take your time.

i speak as someone who used to ID as a girl before gender mattered/i was expected to ID as a woman, there is a period in every girl's life where they are just kind of just moody and anxiety-filled and ever so slightly manic. totally normal, goes away. I'd say you're just having that same experience.

welcome to female puberty. the reason all teenage girls are a mess is because they have the same kind of hormones flurrying around in their heads too. for you it manifests as self doubt and questioning. for cis girls? a whole variety of emotions, self doubt and questioning included.