I keep everyone at arms length because I don't trust anyone to get that close again. I am the friend that everyone is excited to see but never gets invited. I have never been more than someone's good time. I'll be fine, I'm just wallowing a bit tonight. But I'm just so tired. 4/4

I would have loved a chosen family that chose me back. I wanted little babies that looked like him so badly. I wanted a career that actually made a difference in the world. Instead of babies I have dogs and an increasingly demented dad. I have the only job my mental health can handle. 3/4

Or make everything more stressful. And I'm still struggling with the grief of the future I wanted instead of the life I'm going to have. I wanted to have a partner that was an equal participant. I would love just once to feel like I was actually the most important person in someone's life. 2/4

This is a huge reason why I'm not doing anything to do with my master's degree right now. Therapists don't get paid enough to make rent.

And that's enough. I think a lot of people put so much pressure on visual media to always be some profound, intensely beautiful, brilliant piece of art. Sometimes I just want to watch the thing that's fun and not have to think so hard.