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The claim made ­here, and that a black trans feminism attempts to make clear, is that the external and supposedly obvious is at best an ostensibility, at worst a phantasm (with no set criteria to discern which). That which appears simply ­there and an unadulterated mainstay of, say, the body is not in fact such. ­These external ­things subject to the senses are, as Denise Ferreira da Silva puts it in the context of problematic Enlightenment reason and rationality, “already an effect of regulating reason”—­that is, already mediated and tainted, as it ­were, by the white and cis and masculine genre of being a valid subject. We are already touched by vio­lence and supremacist discourses even when we wish to claim that which has been pathologized on and in us, making even the gesture to say “I am black/I am a ­woman, and that’s okay” understandable but not the final resting place of our politi­cal endeavors. It is ­because one’s categorical race and gender, despite its feeling of deep inherency and self-­fashioning, is an “exterior ­thing”; racial and gender identity, da Silva would conclude, “constitute but effects of the interior tools of ‘pure reason.’ ” It is pure reason, which is mired in white supremacist, cisnormative, masculine conceptions of the subject, that has authored the very idea of identity, racial, gender, or other­wise, and thus the abolitionist and radical forces indexed in black trans feminism act as a negation, a “radical gesture” ­toward not merely their reclothing; no, black trans feminism, to take da Silva’s call seriously, insofar as racial and gender identity are “exterior ­things,” serves as “the declaration of the ontoepistemological inexistence of exterior ­things.”53 This is a radically abolitionist proj­ect, a proj­ect that, in the ­grand scheme of ­things, is a black and trans and feminist proj­ect.
January 5, 2026 at 5:24 AM
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from The Faggots and Their Friends Between Revolutions
The faggots once called themselves the men who love men. But they discovered that they, did not love men, they loved only other men who loved men which was not that many of the men. The men who hate others were false and death-inflicting and obsessed with being strangers. The men who hate others hate the men who love men. And this hatred is so strong that it turns the men who love men into the faggots. Take the case of Pinetree. When he was young his gentle mother told him that when he became a grown-up he would be a grown-up man. Pinetree liked to think about this. He liked men, grown-up or not. So he thought it would be OK to be a grown-up man. When he left his gentle mother for the men’s indoctrination center he heard other voices, harsh voices, demanding "Be a man, at once." He did not know what to do and so became confused and frightened and longed for his gentle mother. Then the harsh voices told him what to do. "Be mean to all the others and distrust other men. Be mean to all the others and distrust other men." Over and over in every tone the harsh voices could manage they repeated the instructions for being a man. "Be mean to all the others and distrust other men." Pinetree discovered that if he did not appear to be mean to all the others and to distrust other men he would be hurt by the harsh voices. So he appeared to be mean to all the others and to distrust other men while longing to share with all the others and to cherish the other men. By the time Pinetree left the men’s indoctrination center he knew that he would never be one of the men. He could not follow the admonitions of the harsh voices, he could barely appear to follow them anymore.
September 13, 2025 at 9:50 AM
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What does that mean, to take the body seriously is to admit one can suffer? I suffer because I’m a body; if I weren’t a body, how could I suffer? — Lao Tzu: Tao Te Ching: A Book About the Way and the Power of the Way (Ursula K. le Guin)
September 11, 2025 at 8:59 AM
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Crazy talk is not enough. In each case we must judge whether what we see is an adaptation of an old semiotic, a new variety of a particular mixed semiotic, or the process of creation of an as yet unknown regime. For exam- ple, it is relatively easy to stop saying “I,” but that does not mean that you have gotten away from the regime of subjectification; conversely, you can keep on saying “I,” just for kicks, and already be in another regime in which personal pronouns function only as fictions. Signifiance and interpretation are so thick-skinned, they form such a sticky mixture with subjectification, that it is easy to believe that you are outside them when you are in fact still secreting them.
September 9, 2025 at 9:54 AM
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I think about black holes, resonance, and fascism, but it's hard to actually connect all the ways I came by those ideas together. Tad DeLay talked about resonance machines in Against: What Does the White Evangelical Want?

He got it from William Connolly, who got it from Deleuze and Guattari,
A page of A Thousand Plateaus, by Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari "Things are even more complicated than we have let on. Subjectification assigns the line of flight a positive sign, it carries deterritorialization to the absolute, intensity to the highest degree, redundancy to a reflexive form, etc. But it has its own way of repudiating the positivity it frees, or of relativizing the absoluteness it attains, without, however, falling back to the preceding regime. In this redundancy of resonance, the absolute of consciousness is the absolute is the absolute of impotence and the intensity of passion, the heat of the void. This is because subjectification essentially constitutes finite linear proceedings, one of which ends before the next begins: thus the cogito is always recommenced, a passion or grievance is always recapitulated. Every consciousness pursues its own death, every love-passion its own end, attracted by a black hole, and all the black holes resonate together." Underneath the text is a drawing I did a few years ago, two bottles or containers one of which contains a representation of a black hole and is labeled "resonance machine."
September 8, 2025 at 4:37 AM
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Reading some off-brand schizoanalysis
The cover of Undoing Yourself with Energized Meditation and Other Devices, by Christopher S. Hyatt, Ph.D. Introduced by Robert Anton Wilson and Israel Regardie. The art is a golden ratio spiral over a sky filled with stars. WARNING! THREATS TO THE PRIMATE EGO ARE COMING!
July 25, 2025 at 6:17 AM
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Books I finished last month. Not all exactly pride relevant books, but I'm a slow-ish reader and I've got a bunch of books going at a time, so I haven't managed to finish the gay novel and the book about trans history I started last month
June wrap-up from the StoryGraph, with the covers for the five books I finished during the month: Tribute to Freud by H.D., The Unique and Its Property by Max Stirner, Session 9: The Official Novelization by Christian Francis, The Four Fundamental Concepts of Psychoanalysis by Jacques Lacan, and Anti-Oedipus by Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari.
July 1, 2025 at 4:38 PM
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The quote is a bit less dramatic than I remembered. Also I misspelled Perlman lol
The zek’s ancestors did less work than a corporation owner. They didn’t know what work was. They lived in a condition J.J. Rousseau called “the state of nature.” Rousseau’s term should be brought back into common use. It grates on the nerves of those who, in R. Vaneigem’s words, carry cadavers in their mouths. It makes the armor visible. Say “the state of nature” and you’ll see the cadavers peer out. Insist that “freedom” and “the state of nature” are synonyms, and the cadavers will try to bite you. The tame, the domesticated, try to monopolize the word freedom; they’d like to apply it to their own condition. They apply the word “wild” to the free. But it is another public secret that the tame, the domesticated, occasionally become wild but are never free so long as they remain in their pens.
December 20, 2024 at 11:44 PM
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Same cat, same position lol
A dark tortishell cat loafing with one paw crossed over another. She is looking directly at the person behind the camera.
November 5, 2024 at 5:57 PM
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pona! toki mi li nasa a, mi sona lili e nasin sona (e toki pona). taso mi wile toki
Thoughts don't happen in heads lol I kinda want to expand on that a bit lol: I think the metaphor of thoughts occurring inside the head is like the last refuge of mind body dualism. The brain is an organ that serves the bodily functions of processing and storing information, and connecting different parts of the body together, but it isn't the place where thoughts occur, it isn't synonymous with "the mind." Thinking involves the whole body, all the way to the fingertips. And it doesn't occur "inside" either, it extends beyond the body insofar as information passes between bodies in various ways. And not just human bodies. Like, a spider's movements catch my attention, it notices me move to look at it and starts moving faster: the thinking involved isn't occurring within the bodies encountering each other, it's happening to them!
October 24, 2024 at 6:40 PM