PTSD is one of the most complicated and hardest things I've had to deal with in my cancer journey for so many different reasons.

Its hard for me at times to talk about because in my mind i shouldn't be complaining or even saying I suffer with this when first responders surgeons police firefighters

Still crazy that 4 years ago I was mentioned and shown on @fallontonight.bsky.social for being #thegoatofchemotherapy. But Jimmy Fallon back then it was just 93, yesterday I hit my 162ed round, if ever needed a guest to come talk about cancer and colorectal awareness and prevention I'm your guy

Chemo round 162. It's a mental struggle to be here today
I dont want to do this
I dont want to experience the next 72 hours
I dont want to feel the hell chemo brings physically or mentally
I wonder sometimes what my life would be like if the cancer

Chemo round 159 completed. Now to recover and get through the side effects and hell that chemo brings

Tough days require tough people but the strongest and toughest usually don't get noticed. I see you

I know it's not easy being my friend or family or someone who cares about me. Cancer is a lot and I know I bring a lot of heavy emotions and baggage but a few people in my life have reminded me what caring and being there not for the issue or event but for the person really is.

Thankful for you

Morning walks in WNC Canton NC

Sometimes I got a quote or a message or something to say that is profound inspirational funny or helpful
Tonight is none of that it's just me watching another day pass and the pointless wishing as the sun went down
#lifewithcancer #MentalHealth #FightCRC #coloncancercoalition #makecancerlessshitty

Nov 16 2015 3288 days or 9 years ago I walked through the doors to the infusion floor at the cancer center for the first time for the 1st of 12 rounds of chemotherapy to kill the rest of my cancer.
Monday was round 158 it's crazy to think about