Jess
@jessmythoughts.bsky.social
Non-binary/transwomen starting the transition process; autistic
She/they
She/they
Omg, I found a pair of panties that work perfectly. They also shape my loose skin so well that I actually like seeing my body in the mirror minus all the hair.
January 9, 2024 at 4:50 PM
Omg, I found a pair of panties that work perfectly. They also shape my loose skin so well that I actually like seeing my body in the mirror minus all the hair.
My breasts are coming in a bit early. At least the buds are. I'm ahead by 1-3 months from what I've read.
Also why are they so fun to play with :x
Also why are they so fun to play with :x
December 26, 2023 at 11:22 PM
My breasts are coming in a bit early. At least the buds are. I'm ahead by 1-3 months from what I've read.
Also why are they so fun to play with :x
Also why are they so fun to play with :x
My spotify wrapped came out to ~140 days of listening to music nonstop.
Interesting to see how things played out with the trainwreck that was this year for me.
Interesting to see how things played out with the trainwreck that was this year for me.
November 29, 2023 at 8:26 AM
My spotify wrapped came out to ~140 days of listening to music nonstop.
Interesting to see how things played out with the trainwreck that was this year for me.
Interesting to see how things played out with the trainwreck that was this year for me.
I took an attractiveness test for shits and gigs and it detected me as female and I...o.o
November 27, 2023 at 2:20 AM
I took an attractiveness test for shits and gigs and it detected me as female and I...o.o
Something I've found interesting is my autism symptoms have significantly worsened since starting estrogen. My body is on fire with anxiety. Add in a healthy dose of depression and random bouts of anger.
Oof.
Oof.
November 19, 2023 at 10:26 PM
Something I've found interesting is my autism symptoms have significantly worsened since starting estrogen. My body is on fire with anxiety. Add in a healthy dose of depression and random bouts of anger.
Oof.
Oof.
Went in for a consultation with Endocrinologist; walked away with estradiol in my butt.
I can't believe I actually got the shot TODAY.
I'm so goddamn happy! My childhood dream begins on the same day my childhood game (Super Mario RPG) is released.
Lets. Fucking. Go.
I can't believe I actually got the shot TODAY.
I'm so goddamn happy! My childhood dream begins on the same day my childhood game (Super Mario RPG) is released.
Lets. Fucking. Go.
November 17, 2023 at 6:42 PM
Went in for a consultation with Endocrinologist; walked away with estradiol in my butt.
I can't believe I actually got the shot TODAY.
I'm so goddamn happy! My childhood dream begins on the same day my childhood game (Super Mario RPG) is released.
Lets. Fucking. Go.
I can't believe I actually got the shot TODAY.
I'm so goddamn happy! My childhood dream begins on the same day my childhood game (Super Mario RPG) is released.
Lets. Fucking. Go.
Having men find me attractive already feels weird.
I'm dreading the day I get /those/ dms.
I'm dreading the day I get /those/ dms.
November 17, 2023 at 4:13 AM
Having men find me attractive already feels weird.
I'm dreading the day I get /those/ dms.
I'm dreading the day I get /those/ dms.
I have been playing this god damn fucking game for 19 years.
Super hyped to celebrate! (My main will be 18 years old in Feb 🫠)
Fun fact: I started playing WoW through the GotWoW? Community (Pirated Alpha Server)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Drops enabled
Super hyped to celebrate! (My main will be 18 years old in Feb 🫠)
Fun fact: I started playing WoW through the GotWoW? Community (Pirated Alpha Server)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Drops enabled
November 16, 2023 at 9:03 PM
I have been playing this god damn fucking game for 19 years.
Super hyped to celebrate! (My main will be 18 years old in Feb 🫠)
Fun fact: I started playing WoW through the GotWoW? Community (Pirated Alpha Server)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Drops enabled
Super hyped to celebrate! (My main will be 18 years old in Feb 🫠)
Fun fact: I started playing WoW through the GotWoW? Community (Pirated Alpha Server)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Drops enabled
Fucking fuck my chest is so irritated. How do transwomen deal with being this fucking hairy?
Like please help. I'm doing all the right tricks and my chest is on fire. Thanks to my loose skin I look like I have breast and I want to see them 😭
Like please help. I'm doing all the right tricks and my chest is on fire. Thanks to my loose skin I look like I have breast and I want to see them 😭
November 16, 2023 at 7:29 PM
Fucking fuck my chest is so irritated. How do transwomen deal with being this fucking hairy?
Like please help. I'm doing all the right tricks and my chest is on fire. Thanks to my loose skin I look like I have breast and I want to see them 😭
Like please help. I'm doing all the right tricks and my chest is on fire. Thanks to my loose skin I look like I have breast and I want to see them 😭
It's not Wednesday yet but no reason we can't get over the hump early.
Trans awareness week🏳️⚧️
Come join and lets hangout :)
(Hopefully servers actually go up at 11...)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Trans awareness week🏳️⚧️
Come join and lets hangout :)
(Hopefully servers actually go up at 11...)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
November 14, 2023 at 6:32 PM
It's not Wednesday yet but no reason we can't get over the hump early.
Trans awareness week🏳️⚧️
Come join and lets hangout :)
(Hopefully servers actually go up at 11...)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Trans awareness week🏳️⚧️
Come join and lets hangout :)
(Hopefully servers actually go up at 11...)
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
My mom said if this is what you mean by being trans then I'm ok with it.
She has a lot of work to do still but it is sweet that she is trying.
(The actor is non-binary; but this is a lot coming from her TBH)
She has a lot of work to do still but it is sweet that she is trying.
(The actor is non-binary; but this is a lot coming from her TBH)
November 14, 2023 at 7:16 AM
My mom said if this is what you mean by being trans then I'm ok with it.
She has a lot of work to do still but it is sweet that she is trying.
(The actor is non-binary; but this is a lot coming from her TBH)
She has a lot of work to do still but it is sweet that she is trying.
(The actor is non-binary; but this is a lot coming from her TBH)
I clean up nicely.
FUCK SHAVING.
Refer to photo of all the body hair and realize all the fucking hell I went thru for this photo.
FUCK SHAVING.
Refer to photo of all the body hair and realize all the fucking hell I went thru for this photo.
November 13, 2023 at 7:44 PM
I clean up nicely.
FUCK SHAVING.
Refer to photo of all the body hair and realize all the fucking hell I went thru for this photo.
FUCK SHAVING.
Refer to photo of all the body hair and realize all the fucking hell I went thru for this photo.
This choker is so damn cute. I still got a lot of chest hair I need to address (Looked like a husky shedded when I was done)
I tried waxing but not enough hair is being pulled off so I'm not sure how to get this hair without causing ingrown hairs.
I tried waxing but not enough hair is being pulled off so I'm not sure how to get this hair without causing ingrown hairs.
November 12, 2023 at 11:53 PM
This choker is so damn cute. I still got a lot of chest hair I need to address (Looked like a husky shedded when I was done)
I tried waxing but not enough hair is being pulled off so I'm not sure how to get this hair without causing ingrown hairs.
I tried waxing but not enough hair is being pulled off so I'm not sure how to get this hair without causing ingrown hairs.
Shoes arrived! They fit!
Walking with them felt fairly easily. Lot of strain on my back park of my inner ankle on left foot ankle and on my left big toe. Right foot seems fine.
Kept them on for 20 min while standing; assume this is more of a muscle thing that'll get better with time.
Walking with them felt fairly easily. Lot of strain on my back park of my inner ankle on left foot ankle and on my left big toe. Right foot seems fine.
Kept them on for 20 min while standing; assume this is more of a muscle thing that'll get better with time.
I bit the bullet and bought these. Sadly it's gonna make me 6ft but they're so fucking cute and are at least (hopefully) in my size.
Thinking these with fishnet stockings + the goth open front skirt with the sheer shoulder top and choker is gonna make such a cute look.
Thinking these with fishnet stockings + the goth open front skirt with the sheer shoulder top and choker is gonna make such a cute look.
November 12, 2023 at 2:26 AM
Shoes arrived! They fit!
Walking with them felt fairly easily. Lot of strain on my back park of my inner ankle on left foot ankle and on my left big toe. Right foot seems fine.
Kept them on for 20 min while standing; assume this is more of a muscle thing that'll get better with time.
Walking with them felt fairly easily. Lot of strain on my back park of my inner ankle on left foot ankle and on my left big toe. Right foot seems fine.
Kept them on for 20 min while standing; assume this is more of a muscle thing that'll get better with time.
Waiting on some tops to arrive so I can match something with this skirt but I love this lipstick color. Feel like I can wear it in public with nobody looking twice.
November 10, 2023 at 9:23 PM
Waiting on some tops to arrive so I can match something with this skirt but I love this lipstick color. Feel like I can wear it in public with nobody looking twice.
I bit the bullet and bought these. Sadly it's gonna make me 6ft but they're so fucking cute and are at least (hopefully) in my size.
Thinking these with fishnet stockings + the goth open front skirt with the sheer shoulder top and choker is gonna make such a cute look.
Thinking these with fishnet stockings + the goth open front skirt with the sheer shoulder top and choker is gonna make such a cute look.
November 10, 2023 at 5:49 PM
I bit the bullet and bought these. Sadly it's gonna make me 6ft but they're so fucking cute and are at least (hopefully) in my size.
Thinking these with fishnet stockings + the goth open front skirt with the sheer shoulder top and choker is gonna make such a cute look.
Thinking these with fishnet stockings + the goth open front skirt with the sheer shoulder top and choker is gonna make such a cute look.
I need estrogen RIGHT NOW so my feet can shrink and I can wear these, omg
November 8, 2023 at 10:43 PM
I need estrogen RIGHT NOW so my feet can shrink and I can wear these, omg
Having painted nails is so gender affirming.
I love looking at my hands and feet. :3
I love looking at my hands and feet. :3
November 8, 2023 at 5:25 PM
Having painted nails is so gender affirming.
I love looking at my hands and feet. :3
I love looking at my hands and feet. :3
A very good friend of mine shared this song with me, absolutely incredible and I absolute love it!
We are warriors
Yeah, that's what we've become
Won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there is a pace for us
For we are glorious
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cjxu...
We are warriors
Yeah, that's what we've become
Won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there is a pace for us
For we are glorious
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cjxu...
November 8, 2023 at 3:42 AM
A very good friend of mine shared this song with me, absolutely incredible and I absolute love it!
We are warriors
Yeah, that's what we've become
Won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there is a pace for us
For we are glorious
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cjxu...
We are warriors
Yeah, that's what we've become
Won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there is a pace for us
For we are glorious
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cjxu...
Twitch Drops are enabled! Come get your cute dottie pet and riding camel!
Talking about my transition, blizzcon and 10.2!
I've missed you all and I'm hoping to be able to stream a little bit more than I have been
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Talking about my transition, blizzcon and 10.2!
I've missed you all and I'm hoping to be able to stream a little bit more than I have been
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
November 7, 2023 at 11:27 PM
Twitch Drops are enabled! Come get your cute dottie pet and riding camel!
Talking about my transition, blizzcon and 10.2!
I've missed you all and I'm hoping to be able to stream a little bit more than I have been
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
Talking about my transition, blizzcon and 10.2!
I've missed you all and I'm hoping to be able to stream a little bit more than I have been
www.twitch.tv/DesMephisto
When does your old name become a dead name? It feels so...bad to be called by my original already.
I have to list it for documents but follow it with my preferred name and when its ignored it just, its like a punch to the gut that makes me not want to talk any more with the person.
I have to list it for documents but follow it with my preferred name and when its ignored it just, its like a punch to the gut that makes me not want to talk any more with the person.
November 7, 2023 at 9:13 PM
When does your old name become a dead name? It feels so...bad to be called by my original already.
I have to list it for documents but follow it with my preferred name and when its ignored it just, its like a punch to the gut that makes me not want to talk any more with the person.
I have to list it for documents but follow it with my preferred name and when its ignored it just, its like a punch to the gut that makes me not want to talk any more with the person.
I absolutely hate phones (as do many autistics) but I've been calling Kaiser 5 times a day trying to see if there have been any cancellations for an earlier appointment for the Endocrinologist.
November 7, 2023 at 4:05 PM
I absolutely hate phones (as do many autistics) but I've been calling Kaiser 5 times a day trying to see if there have been any cancellations for an earlier appointment for the Endocrinologist.
Small wins: Went out as Jess to the store today. I was scared and nervous as hell but it felt so good to be free of some of the dysphoria in public.
November 6, 2023 at 10:18 PM
Small wins: Went out as Jess to the store today. I was scared and nervous as hell but it felt so good to be free of some of the dysphoria in public.
These are some of my deepest insecurities and things that have kept me from choosing to transition.
My hope is by sharing this and showing my progression that others like me can help combat their own insecurities and be their authentic selves.
My hope is by sharing this and showing my progression that others like me can help combat their own insecurities and be their authentic selves.
November 6, 2023 at 6:29 PM
These are some of my deepest insecurities and things that have kept me from choosing to transition.
My hope is by sharing this and showing my progression that others like me can help combat their own insecurities and be their authentic selves.
My hope is by sharing this and showing my progression that others like me can help combat their own insecurities and be their authentic selves.