i hate asking people to spend any amount of their time to be with / talk with / think about me, for the same reason :’)

NICE!!

a big step in my personal journey is learning to let go of the passive goal to optimize everything. In myself or in others. Live and let live, and for myself, enjoy and learn from the process rather than always fixate on a result or improvement.

this is the kind if bravery I envy you for

also woke up nauseated. also having to move on despite nightmares

I also believe in those things you mentioned, because they’re worth believing in. I think of belief as a tool to shape reality.

We have to believe in the world we dream of; how else can it become?

HEMA does this for me. Hard to think about ~other things~ in a swordfight.

Although last night we were too short on space to spar and I volunteered to help the club librarian, so I wasn’t thinking about a lesson or anything… so my mind wandered anyway 🥲

noooo 😭

if my current job ever goes south, I’m heavily considering going this route instead of trying to find new footing in the software industry

(copy/paste with your passion topic filled in)

I wish so desperately I could understand why sustaining fun, healthy, and interesting hobbies is such a difficulty for me

so far the only explanation I can come up with is that god gave executive dysfunction to ND people as a balancing mechanic, otherwise we’d break the game

at least, as of t+6 hours… always possible for my mental state to give out again at any time 👍

but while nothing got fixed long term (not going to happen in 50 min), hopefully between getting a bit off my chest and grabbing a buoy of hope, I’ll stay afloat for at least a few more days

SCREAMING CRYING SWEARING

do you know when you might get more info??

saaaaame

we love multitudes <3