alas, my bank put a hold on the check from the alleged new job, which means i'm back to just waiting to be homeless again. wish i could say i'm at all surprised

they're apparently sending me a check to pay for all this stuff i need for the job, but no clue how i'll fit it all in here or plug it all in, or move it with me if i ever find another place to live, but i guess those are probs for later? 😬

hmm, had a thought here, seeing as lae'zel's approvals already turned SH evil; when i finally get to astarion's quest, for once i might actually 'accidentally' kill 1 of his sibs, cuz i have a BAD feeling about what lae will approve of if i don't 😬

it was a pain in the ass, but i saved jaheira after letting SH kill aylin destroyed last light... yet jaheira's not waiting outside moonrise before the ketheric fight.. may have to go all the way back to before nightsong after all 😣

so i decided to go back to last light to see if i can still save jaheira from SH & lae's horrid decisions, to find her fighting 30 shadow cursed, including dammon & this guy! 😠

ok, so here's the problem with lae telling SH to kill aylin: though i try to stay true to an origin when playing them, & use RNG to choose anything not character-specific, i do veto anything that costs me a companion, & apparently killing aylin means i can't recruit jaheira 😖

well here's how the post araj convo went with cunt'zel (keep in mind, the options i pick here were chosen by RNG since none were lae'zel specific. at least the last one was somewhat humane... after the damage was already done... again...) 😭