and im afraid it wont last much longer

and i don’t want to feel that

towards their company over mine. Our shared awkwardness and nerdiness gets glossed over with this group of people that more greatly portrays your outwardly perceived character. I wish you didn’t do that. I wish that you searched for me in this crowd instead. But then i feel spiteful and jealous

Your friends and I are different and I can’t forget that. I can’t fully understand what these connections say about you or what you’re looking for in general companionship. And you text me that you wish you were home but you don’t leave. I can’t forget that in our shared public space you gravitate