I feel like i keep relearning the same lesson. I know I have a habit of forming habits only to fall out of them and then come back to it once whatever depressive spell i entered has past. And i feel myself back in the happy habit part of this cycle. I feel so good with myself right now it’s amazing
December 16, 2025 at 3:32 AM
I feel like i keep relearning the same lesson. I know I have a habit of forming habits only to fall out of them and then come back to it once whatever depressive spell i entered has past. And i feel myself back in the happy habit part of this cycle. I feel so good with myself right now it’s amazing
I don’t know where I stand with you. I know we’ve been apart for the summer basically equaling up to half the total time we’ve known each other, but I guess i didn’t expect this transition back to each other to be so difficult. I wait on your texts the way I think you must’ve waited on mine.
December 15, 2025 at 5:36 AM
I don’t know where I stand with you. I know we’ve been apart for the summer basically equaling up to half the total time we’ve known each other, but I guess i didn’t expect this transition back to each other to be so difficult. I wait on your texts the way I think you must’ve waited on mine.
I managed to apologize and it was honestly beautiful but with our regained proximity i’m remembering in vivid detail all the things that drove me from him in the first place. All of the assumptions I jumped to and situations i overthought and the logic behind them that made it all reasonable.
December 14, 2025 at 4:46 AM
I managed to apologize and it was honestly beautiful but with our regained proximity i’m remembering in vivid detail all the things that drove me from him in the first place. All of the assumptions I jumped to and situations i overthought and the logic behind them that made it all reasonable.
I hate not being able to recognize whether my mental is on an actual downward spiral or the week has been just so immaculately horrible that all my problems just come crashing down on me at once. Is it just a bad week? or an ultimate consequence of the decisions that put me in this mental position?
December 12, 2025 at 6:25 AM
I hate not being able to recognize whether my mental is on an actual downward spiral or the week has been just so immaculately horrible that all my problems just come crashing down on me at once. Is it just a bad week? or an ultimate consequence of the decisions that put me in this mental position?
would it be strange to say “im sorry” now? now of all times? getting close to the holidays makes it feel so dramatic but it inherently is dramatic. how can i apologize and then face him everyday afterward. not fully knowing whether the sorry is more to alleviate my conscious or more for his sake
December 11, 2025 at 2:20 AM
would it be strange to say “im sorry” now? now of all times? getting close to the holidays makes it feel so dramatic but it inherently is dramatic. how can i apologize and then face him everyday afterward. not fully knowing whether the sorry is more to alleviate my conscious or more for his sake
i keep getting into these fake arguments with myself. I start with something someone said and begin to spiral into assumptions and I argue with myself and this person who’s also just myself but im acting as them. It’s like i can never find peace because i am the creator of my own discontent.
December 5, 2025 at 7:53 PM
i keep getting into these fake arguments with myself. I start with something someone said and begin to spiral into assumptions and I argue with myself and this person who’s also just myself but im acting as them. It’s like i can never find peace because i am the creator of my own discontent.
im rereading old texts asking myself why i couldn’t just take a step back and fully understand my situation. Why did i let myself spiral and over complicate and overthink. You didn’t deserve that
December 5, 2025 at 9:21 AM
im rereading old texts asking myself why i couldn’t just take a step back and fully understand my situation. Why did i let myself spiral and over complicate and overthink. You didn’t deserve that
when does it stop being so difficult. I just want to say that i’m sorry. I want to go to him and hug him and say i’m so sorry. It’s not your fault i became so distant and i need to know that i didn’t affect you as much as i fear i did. I need you to know you meant something and im just so sorry.
December 5, 2025 at 9:15 AM
when does it stop being so difficult. I just want to say that i’m sorry. I want to go to him and hug him and say i’m so sorry. It’s not your fault i became so distant and i need to know that i didn’t affect you as much as i fear i did. I need you to know you meant something and im just so sorry.