cana/rina
@irohatennoji.bsky.social
i vent and rant a lot of my irl here
im sorry for being a disappointment
April 13, 2025 at 10:16 AM
im sorry for being a disappointment
honestly anywhere i go to vent feels very repressive cause i dont want to feel like im filling up anyone's time reading the edgy or anysuch thoughts. i feel like im always just cursed to be alone, yet its also my fault that i let myself be alone, its just depressing
April 13, 2025 at 10:04 AM
honestly anywhere i go to vent feels very repressive cause i dont want to feel like im filling up anyone's time reading the edgy or anysuch thoughts. i feel like im always just cursed to be alone, yet its also my fault that i let myself be alone, its just depressing
im still scared to talk about my actual things to my main or to others, i just dont really know if im able to do it since i wont be able to walk back out from it, i really do just need to grow a spine and not run away, jfc
February 22, 2025 at 11:48 AM
im still scared to talk about my actual things to my main or to others, i just dont really know if im able to do it since i wont be able to walk back out from it, i really do just need to grow a spine and not run away, jfc
the more i watch MyGO the more i realise how much of a fake personality i really put up, from the way i talk to even how i claim to "love" or know certain things. I've expressed and recognised this as an issue for so long but, I really don't know how to stop
February 22, 2025 at 11:46 AM
the more i watch MyGO the more i realise how much of a fake personality i really put up, from the way i talk to even how i claim to "love" or know certain things. I've expressed and recognised this as an issue for so long but, I really don't know how to stop
trying to be a decent person is hard when your brain makes so much connections between corelations and coincidences behind behaviors that i refuse to give certain people second chances or just blatantly not tolerate them
January 4, 2025 at 3:31 AM
trying to be a decent person is hard when your brain makes so much connections between corelations and coincidences behind behaviors that i refuse to give certain people second chances or just blatantly not tolerate them
event is over, finals is over, i dont have to be a secretary anymore god bless.....
December 20, 2024 at 2:45 PM
event is over, finals is over, i dont have to be a secretary anymore god bless.....
i feel so overpressured these past few days, i cant imagine just not going online and resting my head there, i would probsbly faint if im forced to only work all the time, i just want to sleep after all of this...
December 19, 2024 at 5:13 AM
i feel so overpressured these past few days, i cant imagine just not going online and resting my head there, i would probsbly faint if im forced to only work all the time, i just want to sleep after all of this...
tomorrow is my last day of finals..... im so close
December 19, 2024 at 1:54 AM
tomorrow is my last day of finals..... im so close
i just want to yell at the world, yell to god why should they go through this? they dont deserve this much pain and yet theyre forced to bear this and live through it, how can i just sit there watching them?
December 17, 2024 at 4:05 PM
i just want to yell at the world, yell to god why should they go through this? they dont deserve this much pain and yet theyre forced to bear this and live through it, how can i just sit there watching them?
seeing my friend go through such a tough time makes me filled with undescribable anger that i cant even fathom, i dont even know what to say, i just want to scream in how helpless i am to not even help them directly, its so awful, this world is just cruel
December 17, 2024 at 4:04 PM
seeing my friend go through such a tough time makes me filled with undescribable anger that i cant even fathom, i dont even know what to say, i just want to scream in how helpless i am to not even help them directly, its so awful, this world is just cruel
Feeling powerless when you want to support a friend feels so awful everytime, like I want to be there and help them but theres just so much that I could do that I only end up watching from afar as they deal with their crisis alone, and I hate that I can't help them more
December 16, 2024 at 2:23 AM
Feeling powerless when you want to support a friend feels so awful everytime, like I want to be there and help them but theres just so much that I could do that I only end up watching from afar as they deal with their crisis alone, and I hate that I can't help them more
i dont know how people pay attention to meetings... its always a blur to me when people discuss a lot, its like i have a hearing defficiency cause they sound like mumbles half the time yet everyone know what theyre talking about
December 13, 2024 at 1:20 PM
i dont know how people pay attention to meetings... its always a blur to me when people discuss a lot, its like i have a hearing defficiency cause they sound like mumbles half the time yet everyone know what theyre talking about
submitted the finals that i had the entire semester to work on that i rushed in a day... good to say that im probably not passing this one, lol...
December 11, 2024 at 3:05 AM
submitted the finals that i had the entire semester to work on that i rushed in a day... good to say that im probably not passing this one, lol...
I feel a bit embarassed that some people kinda know that im a girl now, like ahh... people are way too kind
December 8, 2024 at 10:07 AM
I feel a bit embarassed that some people kinda know that im a girl now, like ahh... people are way too kind
also coming out as a girl in a religious indonesian family is probably the worst decision i could ever make lmao
December 3, 2024 at 6:33 AM
also coming out as a girl in a religious indonesian family is probably the worst decision i could ever make lmao
sometimes i want to just admit, tell the whole world that i identify as a girl, but even that feeling is still muddy since it honestly felt a bit wrong, i need more time to let it simmer but i just wish i can just let it go
December 3, 2024 at 6:24 AM
sometimes i want to just admit, tell the whole world that i identify as a girl, but even that feeling is still muddy since it honestly felt a bit wrong, i need more time to let it simmer but i just wish i can just let it go
Anytime my Father does something I just get really pissed off, just his existence of wasting food, doing the most bare minimum chores and "acting" like hes working but being a fucking nuisance and inconsiderate for other just makes it feel like he's utterly blind and ignorant
November 30, 2024 at 1:02 PM
Anytime my Father does something I just get really pissed off, just his existence of wasting food, doing the most bare minimum chores and "acting" like hes working but being a fucking nuisance and inconsiderate for other just makes it feel like he's utterly blind and ignorant
I've been slowly learning how to properly draw the past few days, I really like the process since it makes me appreciate certain character designs much more and seeing my art look a bit better everyday just makes me feel 😭
Drew a Chiaki today and feel satisfied, hope I keep up with the consistency
Drew a Chiaki today and feel satisfied, hope I keep up with the consistency
November 29, 2024 at 3:12 PM
I've been slowly learning how to properly draw the past few days, I really like the process since it makes me appreciate certain character designs much more and seeing my art look a bit better everyday just makes me feel 😭
Drew a Chiaki today and feel satisfied, hope I keep up with the consistency
Drew a Chiaki today and feel satisfied, hope I keep up with the consistency
like fucks sake i just have to vent I'd rather be in a military camp than having the most loose professor ever, at least my time is used productively, this is just bad for work ethics
November 27, 2024 at 1:44 AM
like fucks sake i just have to vent I'd rather be in a military camp than having the most loose professor ever, at least my time is used productively, this is just bad for work ethics
My classmates are all complaining that this one professor is extremely strict and a pain when all she's done was restrict phones during class and have them pay attention, its somehow odd to them how studying is rewarded by learning as if that has never happened before.
November 27, 2024 at 1:37 AM
My classmates are all complaining that this one professor is extremely strict and a pain when all she's done was restrict phones during class and have them pay attention, its somehow odd to them how studying is rewarded by learning as if that has never happened before.
discovering my own gender identity is harder than i thought
November 25, 2024 at 11:47 PM
discovering my own gender identity is harder than i thought
After a conversation yesterday with my friend, I kinda wonder to myself about gender and identity. I always saw myself as a bit of "genderfluid" per say but lately I've been associating myself and my own identity based off a female character, so I'm really not too sure how I actually see myself.
November 23, 2024 at 11:26 PM
After a conversation yesterday with my friend, I kinda wonder to myself about gender and identity. I always saw myself as a bit of "genderfluid" per say but lately I've been associating myself and my own identity based off a female character, so I'm really not too sure how I actually see myself.
Thats enough i ternet for today I think... I really procrastinated work just to be traumatised, what the hell is my priority check...
November 23, 2024 at 7:55 AM
Thats enough i ternet for today I think... I really procrastinated work just to be traumatised, what the hell is my priority check...
I like to think of myself as a person who loves Horror and can tolerate a lot of disturbing content, but also someone who can't even watch The Conjuring without getting nightmares.
So it is within reasoning that deciding to look up the disturbing movies ever made has uh... had an effect on me.
So it is within reasoning that deciding to look up the disturbing movies ever made has uh... had an effect on me.
November 23, 2024 at 7:51 AM
I like to think of myself as a person who loves Horror and can tolerate a lot of disturbing content, but also someone who can't even watch The Conjuring without getting nightmares.
So it is within reasoning that deciding to look up the disturbing movies ever made has uh... had an effect on me.
So it is within reasoning that deciding to look up the disturbing movies ever made has uh... had an effect on me.