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@invus.bsky.social
26. suffering 24/7 & screaming into the void constantly. mostly chill🌷obsessed with things in my head btw
喜欢搞oc但不会画画的社畜一个，时常在脑袋里发疯
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喜欢搞oc但不会画画的社畜一个，时常在脑袋里发疯
kidelder.tumblr.com
#oc
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@invus.bsky.social
· Dec 2
always looking for moots !!
ノ kpop + taylor swift
ノ kdrama / cdrama
ノ webtoons
ノ making oc / writing / rp
ノ love and deepspace
ノ chinese culture (always happy to share + learn)
ノ pinterest + tumblr addict
ノ gaming even tho i don't game (resident evil, arkham series etc)
ノ eng/中/한
ノ kpop + taylor swift
ノ kdrama / cdrama
ノ webtoons
ノ making oc / writing / rp
ノ love and deepspace
ノ chinese culture (always happy to share + learn)
ノ pinterest + tumblr addict
ノ gaming even tho i don't game (resident evil, arkham series etc)
ノ eng/中/한
when this happens, i get so demotivated to continue threads and drafts bc it just feels like they're not interested. which means if i don't continue, i don't even get to write which is the one thing i enjoy doing and like -- it just goes into a circle again and again
if they do, they are doing a very good job of not making me feel or think like they do
November 30, 2025 at 6:46 AM
when this happens, i get so demotivated to continue threads and drafts bc it just feels like they're not interested. which means if i don't continue, i don't even get to write which is the one thing i enjoy doing and like -- it just goes into a circle again and again
i don't think anyone even likes writing with me
November 30, 2025 at 12:37 AM
i don't think anyone even likes writing with me
back to making character playlists but specifically the type of songs they would sing on spotify
November 29, 2025 at 4:26 PM
back to making character playlists but specifically the type of songs they would sing on spotify
fr there really is zero notif on both tumblr & discord lmao like, i shouldn't get disappointed bc it's really normal, but it really just makes me think about how no one really cares about what i bring to the table anyway. we could plot all we want, but when it comes to actual writing, i get nothing
avoiding my indie tumblr blog like the plague to avoid getting disappointed due to no notifs at all now that i'd be gone for a week for travelling, yet still undeniably getting disappointed when i receive no notifs
November 29, 2025 at 4:21 PM
fr there really is zero notif on both tumblr & discord lmao like, i shouldn't get disappointed bc it's really normal, but it really just makes me think about how no one really cares about what i bring to the table anyway. we could plot all we want, but when it comes to actual writing, i get nothing
first day back from guangzhou: fought with the parents and have been crying so much all day that my eyes are so swollen
last day and night at guangzhou: dad got pissed
first night at guangzhou: headache then stomachache
November 29, 2025 at 4:15 PM
first day back from guangzhou: fought with the parents and have been crying so much all day that my eyes are so swollen
last day and night at guangzhou: dad got pissed
first night at guangzhou: headache then stomachache
November 29, 2025 at 4:14 PM
last day and night at guangzhou: dad got pissed
avoiding my indie tumblr blog like the plague to avoid getting disappointed due to no notifs at all now that i'd be gone for a week for travelling, yet still undeniably getting disappointed when i receive no notifs
November 24, 2025 at 9:56 AM
avoiding my indie tumblr blog like the plague to avoid getting disappointed due to no notifs at all now that i'd be gone for a week for travelling, yet still undeniably getting disappointed when i receive no notifs
no one:
china: has a random huge moomin statue in the middle of the street
china: has a random huge moomin statue in the middle of the street
November 24, 2025 at 9:52 AM
no one:
china: has a random huge moomin statue in the middle of the street
china: has a random huge moomin statue in the middle of the street
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first night at guangzhou: headache then stomachache
November 23, 2025 at 2:55 PM
first night at guangzhou: headache then stomachache
it's so embarrassing and humbling whenever i ask for memes or post plotting or starter calls bc it's truly just cricket noises sigh
November 22, 2025 at 1:01 AM
it's so embarrassing and humbling whenever i ask for memes or post plotting or starter calls bc it's truly just cricket noises sigh
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I am mad about all of the things
November 21, 2025 at 11:54 PM
I am mad about all of the things
i am not gonna lie, i'm an attention seeker. waking up to zero notifs sometimes makes me so :/ esp on my writing blog where i try to write as much as i could yet it still seems like people claim they love it but i never quite feel so
November 22, 2025 at 12:34 AM
i am not gonna lie, i'm an attention seeker. waking up to zero notifs sometimes makes me so :/ esp on my writing blog where i try to write as much as i could yet it still seems like people claim they love it but i never quite feel so
the sooner i come to terms with this, that this is just how things are going to be and i should accept that nothing really changes, the better i will feel (probably) but it's just so hard
i keep holding onto hope for nothing
i keep holding onto hope for nothing
从来没被坚定地选择过真的很难受啊
November 18, 2025 at 12:23 AM
the sooner i come to terms with this, that this is just how things are going to be and i should accept that nothing really changes, the better i will feel (probably) but it's just so hard
i keep holding onto hope for nothing
i keep holding onto hope for nothing
if only i had thicker skin, maybe this would be easier
November 17, 2025 at 3:44 AM
if only i had thicker skin, maybe this would be easier
back onto this topic again and once again it's happened where my character who is honestly not cute gets branded as "cute" and like, it drives me insane bc ig that's all my character gets to be, npcs who are easily replaceable and could be lowkey mischaracterized without any second thoughts
i think this is also bc a lot of times when i try to talk about my ocs or plot with them, someone would always try to overpower mine? as in their ocs are always the stronger, wiser one and mine always has to be the one who follows their lead and i--
November 17, 2025 at 3:44 AM
back onto this topic again and once again it's happened where my character who is honestly not cute gets branded as "cute" and like, it drives me insane bc ig that's all my character gets to be, npcs who are easily replaceable and could be lowkey mischaracterized without any second thoughts
i can feel it happening again
November 15, 2025 at 1:14 AM
i can feel it happening again
the way how things go really just makes me think that no one really cares
November 13, 2025 at 8:52 AM
the way how things go really just makes me think that no one really cares
every day i think about this and every time it never fails to make me feel like shit
the thing is i just think no one is really trying to get to know mine in a way that doesn't make me feel like my ocs are just another easily replaceable npcs
November 13, 2025 at 1:26 AM
every day i think about this and every time it never fails to make me feel like shit
i think i have a toxic rs with writing/rping. every time i try to be active with it, the first three days are sweet and then it goes downhill so fast
November 13, 2025 at 1:26 AM
i think i have a toxic rs with writing/rping. every time i try to be active with it, the first three days are sweet and then it goes downhill so fast
if only i could also freely share about my ocs to an audience without feeling like i'm shoving things down their throat and burdening them with it
November 12, 2025 at 4:23 PM
if only i could also freely share about my ocs to an audience without feeling like i'm shoving things down their throat and burdening them with it
也许我脸皮再厚些的话故事就会不一样了吧
November 11, 2025 at 12:09 AM
也许我脸皮再厚些的话故事就会不一样了吧
i think i am always stuck
November 10, 2025 at 8:13 AM
i think i am always stuck
idek if this rant is valid or makes any sense but yeah sigh
November 10, 2025 at 4:04 AM
idek if this rant is valid or makes any sense but yeah sigh