Just Ma | Agender | Aroace | Any pronoun | 30 | ADHD
💜🦑All about my Xal, TheEmperor x Xal x Ayumu, Illithid propaganda, gore
❌No porn, furry, bara, dicks, *nsur/an/or, gith (except for Ayumu!).
❌❌DNI the Emperor's haters.
1. I write solely under the influence of my emotions, feelings and questions, so every word, every piece of Xal's personality is important to me and brings me catharsis.
I love raising philosophical questions about self-identity and self-awareness through Xal, examining them from Xal's pov
1. I write solely under the influence of my emotions, feelings and questions, so every word, every piece of Xal's personality is important to me and brings me catharsis.
I love raising philosophical questions about self-identity and self-awareness through Xal, examining them from Xal's pov
Xal believes in himself and in magic.
I mean, he believes in the very core of all magic as something fundamental, incomprehensible, inexpressible, pre-rational and chaotic.
Xal believes in himself and in magic.
I mean, he believes in the very core of all magic as something fundamental, incomprehensible, inexpressible, pre-rational and chaotic.
People who try to fix him, to heal him.
Meek, generous, lowly, religious, prone to self-sacrifice and heroism in the name of the greater good, weak-willed, such people are ugly to Xal.
Also:
- Purple colour
- Gortash style
But the ugliest thing Xal ever saw was pubic hair on Orpheus' jaw.
People who try to fix him, to heal him.
Meek, generous, lowly, religious, prone to self-sacrifice and heroism in the name of the greater good, weak-willed, such people are ugly to Xal.
Also:
- Purple colour
- Gortash style
But the ugliest thing Xal ever saw was pubic hair on Orpheus' jaw.
It is important to Xal that his hair does not interfere with him in battle. He cut his long hair because he didn't want anyone to grab him by it in battle. That would have been the most unpleasant situation he could ever imagine.
It is important to Xal that his hair does not interfere with him in battle. He cut his long hair because he didn't want anyone to grab him by it in battle. That would have been the most unpleasant situation he could ever imagine.
The Emperor.
For Xal, the Emperor is like a lighthouse in the midst of uncertainty and darkness, in which he quickly loses himself when alone. His mind strives for self-destruction and an endless cycle of asking himself the same questions, to which there are no answers.
The Emperor.
For Xal, the Emperor is like a lighthouse in the midst of uncertainty and darkness, in which he quickly loses himself when alone. His mind strives for self-destruction and an endless cycle of asking himself the same questions, to which there are no answers.
Xal is an herbalist and alchemist. He always was.
He loves plants and enjoys making balms, poisons and potions, but does not sell any of them; instead, he keeps it all for himself, the Emperor, Ayumu, and his personal squad from the KotS.
Xal is an herbalist and alchemist. He always was.
He loves plants and enjoys making balms, poisons and potions, but does not sell any of them; instead, he keeps it all for himself, the Emperor, Ayumu, and his personal squad from the KotS.
It was a day like millions of others before it... except that somewhere in a distant corner of the Underdark, an Illithid in a Drow body was giving birth to an anomaly, an abomination just like itself.
It was a day like millions of others before it... except that somewhere in a distant corner of the Underdark, an Illithid in a Drow body was giving birth to an anomaly, an abomination just like itself.
He stole the ring of mind shielding from Omeluum.
Xal did not believe it about the usefulness of the ring, and the very suggestion of parting with such an important ring for gold seemed to him complete bullshit and a blatant lie.
So he just wanted to make sure of it, and make sure for free.
He stole the ring of mind shielding from Omeluum.
Xal did not believe it about the usefulness of the ring, and the very suggestion of parting with such an important ring for gold seemed to him complete bullshit and a blatant lie.
So he just wanted to make sure of it, and make sure for free.
It's not exactly a tattoo, and Xal himself doesn't know what it is, except that it's another gift from his strange Patron, which has no effect whatsoever. Perhaps only at first glance?
The white spots on his face appear and disappear as they please. It seems that they live their own lives.
It's not exactly a tattoo, and Xal himself doesn't know what it is, except that it's another gift from his strange Patron, which has no effect whatsoever. Perhaps only at first glance?
The white spots on his face appear and disappear as they please. It seems that they live their own lives.
Xal doesn't have a backpack, so almost nothing.
His two-handed sword, a few potions, some coins, keys, lockpicks, and that's it.
Everything else, including chests, tents, food, and other useful items, he teleports to his house in the Far Realm.
Xal doesn't have a backpack, so almost nothing.
His two-handed sword, a few potions, some coins, keys, lockpicks, and that's it.
Everything else, including chests, tents, food, and other useful items, he teleports to his house in the Far Realm.
1. The Devil's Advocate.
Xal would definitely have enjoyed this movie immensely for its philosophy. I even think he would have become a fan.
2. Alien/The Thing.
It's hard for me to say what he would like more.
3. Joker.
Joaquin Phoenix would have been his favourite actor.
1. The Devil's Advocate.
Xal would definitely have enjoyed this movie immensely for its philosophy. I even think he would have become a fan.
2. Alien/The Thing.
It's hard for me to say what he would like more.
3. Joker.
Joaquin Phoenix would have been his favourite actor.
Alone. Quiet.
It is easier for him to control his feelings when no one is trying to comfort him. His emotional pain is always intense, but he copes best with its peak when alone and only seeks advice and comfort from the Emperor once the most painful peak has passed.
Alone. Quiet.
It is easier for him to control his feelings when no one is trying to comfort him. His emotional pain is always intense, but he copes best with its peak when alone and only seeks advice and comfort from the Emperor once the most painful peak has passed.
@ashlynnaska.bsky.social' Ayumu! I have never been as happy as I was on the day Ayumu entered my canon and remained there forever. I love her so much, and she resonates so powerfully with my Xal that it literally drives me crazy. I can never get enough of her.
This is the best squid family
@ashlynnaska.bsky.social' Ayumu! I have never been as happy as I was on the day Ayumu entered my canon and remained there forever. I love her so much, and she resonates so powerfully with my Xal that it literally drives me crazy. I can never get enough of her.
This is the best squid family
Every time Xal sees the Gith.
He hates them all for what they did to him, for all the humiliation he suffered at their hands, for all the pain and despair. He wishes nothing but for them to be torn to pieces and fed to the pigs.
And he tears them apart. Slowly. One by one.
Every time Xal sees the Gith.
He hates them all for what they did to him, for all the humiliation he suffered at their hands, for all the pain and despair. He wishes nothing but for them to be torn to pieces and fed to the pigs.
And he tears them apart. Slowly. One by one.
As the Emperor's Right Hand and the Firs Sword, Xal DEMANDS respect from other KotS members. He doesn't care what people respect him for, as long as they obey him.
He can force others to respect him through fear, by clearly demonstrating his Illithid powers and cruelty.
As the Emperor's Right Hand and the Firs Sword, Xal DEMANDS respect from other KotS members. He doesn't care what people respect him for, as long as they obey him.
He can force others to respect him through fear, by clearly demonstrating his Illithid powers and cruelty.
The Emperor's membranes.
At first, they greatly embarrassed Xal, but he couldn't stop looking at them. Especially when the Emperor "spoke" and his membranes pulsed in time with his words.
Then, curiosity replaced his embarrassment, but Xal was still afraid to touch them.
The Emperor's membranes.
At first, they greatly embarrassed Xal, but he couldn't stop looking at them. Especially when the Emperor "spoke" and his membranes pulsed in time with his words.
Then, curiosity replaced his embarrassment, but Xal was still afraid to touch them.