i’m jst so fucking confused and scared i don’t wanna feel like this anymore

do that again. it’ll probably push my friends away aswell bc they’re prbly getting annoyed w having to tell me what to do and w me going to them to complain abt him. but i jst genuinely can’t bring myself to completely stop talking to him and idfk why idk what’s wrong w me.

and he’s struggling. i’m tryna help him the best i can but if that means staying w him forever i think i’d be the one to kms. but anyway we ended up talking for ages n having fun and i feel like after that we’re probably gonna end up getting back together and ik we shouldn’t bc i don’t think i can -

realizes that he treated me badly but he misses me sm and it was a mistake to leave me and he hopes i can forgive him. he also said that the thought of me being in his life helps to keep him going, it gives him something to live for. he genuinely makes me feel so guilty. i understand he has issues -

wrong because he fucking hit me for christ sake. it was only a couple times but ik he shouldn’t have done that at all. but we’re still talking and we jst had this rlly long call where at first he was venting to me and i had to basically stop him from khs and he started apologizing to me saying he -

he also goes on abt me talking to him about what i’m going through but i cant bc he always has smt to complain about whenever i try and i understand he’s allowed to go through things and struggle as well but anytime i try to help he just completely judges me for what i’m doing and ignores me

yeah ty i’ve drunk like 500cals worth so far so i’m gnna reset my fast once i’ve finished