i just have feelings of how people are going to see me. i suppose. one misstep and im like oh they hate me forever now

its inevitable that im eventually going to be the only child living with them and its going to happen soon and why does that just feel so. Like I feel like its going to come to the foreground how much we just dont get along but i dont think thats ever been their fault

i dont think i can live like this for long to be honest

im not doing very well

i suck

i appreciate you but you don't have to feel obligated to be the person that responds to all my posts. It's fine. Live your life. I'll be fine

or maybe deep down i'm just an awful person in denial

sorry i was spiralling and got interrupted but i figured i should at least post this anyway as a representation of how i felt

to happen to me and then it's all down. thats goodbye to a life that never mattered in the first place. everyone who hated me will now cry over a tragedy. They were so sweet and happy. Scary how you never know. I don't want their tears of obligation