@helliness.bsky.social
Just a little artist's diary
She/her 🟆 23
Art profile: @mintarin.bsky.social
She/her 🟆 23
Art profile: @mintarin.bsky.social
For the past few months, thoughts about wanting to stop existing have been coming back.
Not plans - just the wish to disappear, to rest, to not have to keep going.
Most days I feel empty, exhausted, and overwhelmed by simply being alive.
Not plans - just the wish to disappear, to rest, to not have to keep going.
Most days I feel empty, exhausted, and overwhelmed by simply being alive.
December 30, 2025 at 12:36 PM
For the past few months, thoughts about wanting to stop existing have been coming back.
Not plans - just the wish to disappear, to rest, to not have to keep going.
Most days I feel empty, exhausted, and overwhelmed by simply being alive.
Not plans - just the wish to disappear, to rest, to not have to keep going.
Most days I feel empty, exhausted, and overwhelmed by simply being alive.
I increased my antidepressant dose and for the third day I've been shaking with anxiety and muscle tension and can't do anything. The doctor said to be patient and that it could last up to two weeks. It's exhausting T.T
November 9, 2025 at 11:54 AM
I increased my antidepressant dose and for the third day I've been shaking with anxiety and muscle tension and can't do anything. The doctor said to be patient and that it could last up to two weeks. It's exhausting T.T
Just a small burnt bun in flour. My husband tried baking bread himself and spilled a bit of flour, huh
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
September 29, 2025 at 8:28 PM
Just a small burnt bun in flour. My husband tried baking bread himself and spilled a bit of flour, huh
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
Hungry VS ate dumplings :D
August 24, 2025 at 8:21 PM
Hungry VS ate dumplings :D
I'm trying to pay off all my debts for drawings as soon as possible, drawing 14 hours a day and drinking tons of cold coffee. I'm a little burnt out, but I feel really bad that I'm making my clients wait, so... work work work
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
August 19, 2025 at 8:09 PM
I'm trying to pay off all my debts for drawings as soon as possible, drawing 14 hours a day and drinking tons of cold coffee. I'm a little burnt out, but I feel really bad that I'm making my clients wait, so... work work work
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
I'm resting today too, I think I'm going to spend a lot of time at Infinity Nikki and maybe some more sketching on paper. My hands are really shaky, need to get the skill back! ❤️
July 30, 2025 at 6:39 AM
I'm resting today too, I think I'm going to spend a lot of time at Infinity Nikki and maybe some more sketching on paper. My hands are really shaky, need to get the skill back! ❤️
Had a weekend off yesterday and today, picked up some painting materials and tried them out, it's incredibly relaxing. I've missed it.
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
July 30, 2025 at 6:35 AM
Had a weekend off yesterday and today, picked up some painting materials and tried them out, it's incredibly relaxing. I've missed it.
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
I drew for 16 hours today
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
July 28, 2025 at 6:44 PM
I drew for 16 hours today
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
I had a little treat today с;
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
July 25, 2025 at 3:05 PM
I had a little treat today с;
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
Today is two years since my mom died. To be honest, it's still very hard for me.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
July 22, 2025 at 6:26 PM
Today is two years since my mom died. To be honest, it's still very hard for me.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
Today I ordered canvases and paints for myself to draw on. I haven't even picked up a pencil in almost 7 years, so I'm so excited! С;
July 21, 2025 at 1:09 AM
Today I ordered canvases and paints for myself to draw on. I haven't even picked up a pencil in almost 7 years, so I'm so excited! С;
IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL 😭💖
July 18, 2025 at 6:38 PM
IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL 😭💖
Oh I wish I could afford to get an all new outfit at infinity nikki... They also added a butterfly rerun, I'm crying 😭
But at least I was able to make my Nikki look beautiful!
But at least I was able to make my Nikki look beautiful!
July 18, 2025 at 6:37 PM
Oh I wish I could afford to get an all new outfit at infinity nikki... They also added a butterfly rerun, I'm crying 😭
But at least I was able to make my Nikki look beautiful!
But at least I was able to make my Nikki look beautiful!
I'm super lucky - decided to paint my nails for the first time in ages and got an allergic reaction 🫠
Now I'm treating my hands with ointment, they’re itchy and sore.
But! I walked in the rain for the first time in a while and had a nice weekend overall ;3
Now I'm treating my hands with ointment, they’re itchy and sore.
But! I walked in the rain for the first time in a while and had a nice weekend overall ;3
July 15, 2025 at 4:59 PM
I'm super lucky - decided to paint my nails for the first time in ages and got an allergic reaction 🫠
Now I'm treating my hands with ointment, they’re itchy and sore.
But! I walked in the rain for the first time in a while and had a nice weekend overall ;3
Now I'm treating my hands with ointment, they’re itchy and sore.
But! I walked in the rain for the first time in a while and had a nice weekend overall ;3
After the surgery, she didn't seem to understand what had happened or why everyone was running around her like that. She purrs a lot and is now happily running around the home and playing with our spitz :3
July 9, 2025 at 10:52 AM
After the surgery, she didn't seem to understand what had happened or why everyone was running around her like that. She purrs a lot and is now happily running around the home and playing with our spitz :3
I am incredibly grateful for everyone's help, I have never gotten so much support in my entire life as I have from you! I didn't expect this, honestly.
I'm really very grateful and happy that you are so supportive during this difficult time. Thank you!
I'm really very grateful and happy that you are so supportive during this difficult time. Thank you!
July 3, 2025 at 5:13 AM
I am incredibly grateful for everyone's help, I have never gotten so much support in my entire life as I have from you! I didn't expect this, honestly.
I'm really very grateful and happy that you are so supportive during this difficult time. Thank you!
I'm really very grateful and happy that you are so supportive during this difficult time. Thank you!
Smokey felt strong enough yesterday to break out of her little enclosure - now the whole living room is hers! I was so stressed I slept the whole day, and she thanked me by flipping her litter box 😩
but I’m really glad she’s getting better! 🩷
but I’m really glad she’s getting better! 🩷
June 26, 2025 at 11:44 AM
Smokey felt strong enough yesterday to break out of her little enclosure - now the whole living room is hers! I was so stressed I slept the whole day, and she thanked me by flipping her litter box 😩
but I’m really glad she’s getting better! 🩷
but I’m really glad she’s getting better! 🩷
This is just a fun trend my friends asked me to do, wanted to show you too 🩷
June 20, 2025 at 1:30 PM
This is just a fun trend my friends asked me to do, wanted to show you too 🩷
A very dangerous kind of piranha, first lures you in with its cute appearance, and then treacherously does a bite (well, or steals your socks while you can't see)
June 15, 2025 at 12:57 PM
A very dangerous kind of piranha, first lures you in with its cute appearance, and then treacherously does a bite (well, or steals your socks while you can't see)
One artist drew my Mintie! Look how funny it turned out, I really love it 🥹🩷
June 8, 2025 at 2:29 PM
One artist drew my Mintie! Look how funny it turned out, I really love it 🥹🩷
I promised to show the watermarks I'm making, here you go ;3
I actually originally just made a watermark for myself, and then a few people I know asked me to make them one too... So now it's my mini part-time job <:
I actually originally just made a watermark for myself, and then a few people I know asked me to make them one too... So now it's my mini part-time job <:
June 7, 2025 at 8:54 AM
I promised to show the watermarks I'm making, here you go ;3
I actually originally just made a watermark for myself, and then a few people I know asked me to make them one too... So now it's my mini part-time job <:
I actually originally just made a watermark for myself, and then a few people I know asked me to make them one too... So now it's my mini part-time job <:
