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helenlawson2007.bsky.social
Helen Lawson she/they
@helenlawson2007.bsky.social
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Transitioned 17 years ago now & like all I only regret not doing it sooner. 57 but still under guarantee. Asexual & Lesbian.
Lots of hobbies but don't spend not enough time on any of them. Miss not having a garden.
Atheist & Tea drinker
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What we learn from history is that once you dehumanise people you can take anything and everything from them... the lesson was supposed to be not to do it again.
Glasses of prisoners are piled up at the camp. Roger Viollet/LAPI/Getty Images
November 17, 2025 at 2:56 PM
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Just finished a 1/16 Dragon kit of the Screaming Eagle soldier Normandy 1944 for a friend. I think I over did the highlights a bit but overall very happy. Give it to him tomorrow.
A model I just finished for a friend. A 1/16 scale model by Dragon. Screaming Eagle Normandy 1944. An American soldier in a tan army suit with rifle in hand charging towards the enemy. What makes him unusual is the Mohican & red patterns on his face. Screaming Eagle Normandy 1944 from the rear showing backpack, shovel & water bottle.
November 1, 2025 at 5:43 PM
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It took about 5 years of tiny steps but I came out at 40. Transitioning was tough but worth it.
This was me in I think 2008 with my favourite wig, just about when I stopped using it.
October 22, 2025 at 2:06 PM
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It's been a tough year in so many ways, made more so by reaching the age Mum passed away at. My lack of memories of her despite being 27 at the time make it all the harder to mourn or at least ever move pass it. Been looking at photos to see if I can bring her back for a moment, but without luck.
A memorial page listing people who have passed. In the middle with a drawing of her favourite red rose is my Mum's. Audrey, Irene, Lawson. Born 13th September 1936, died 29th September 1994. A dear wife, mother and grandmother. Constantly lover, ever remembered.
September 27, 2025 at 9:48 PM
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One of the reasons I joined a model boat club back in 1985 was I knew it would be good for my anxiety. Out with them tomorrow despite not feeling my best.
Painting up a model of a AFV434 RRV for someone right now, it's for money but also fun. Nearly finished.
September 19, 2025 at 9:31 PM
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I'm wondering about opening up fully to my family & friends on FaceBook about just how little I remember about my life. I have what my therapist called an emotional memory as that is the only part that makes memories that some times last.
This is my Memory Wall, a number of shelves that have moved with me over time to help me keep something of my past alive. It's photos of family & bits n pieces connected to them.
September 15, 2025 at 12:52 AM
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As kids we used to record Top of the Pops on this big tape to tape of dad's. It's still in the family but not sure which brother or if it still works.
Sharp real to real tape deck from the 1970s.
September 2, 2025 at 10:46 PM
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At the Powder Monkey pub in Gosport today with friends.
The cider is called Fannie's Bramble.😊
Me at the pub. I'm sitting at a round wooden table with friends around me. I have a black sleeveless top on and I'm holding a pint of cider up in front of me.
August 31, 2025 at 10:37 PM
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Occasionally I end up in a photograph and don't completely hate it. The sailing ship is radio controlled with working cannons, it was built & owned by 3 of us. The model is having a refit as it is now 20 years old.
A photo of me standing next to my radio controlled sailing ship I built and own between me & two friends.
August 11, 2025 at 1:57 PM
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Who needs Waterloo sunset when you can have a Pompey sunset. 😎❤️
A footbridge over a railway line in Portsmouth UK. There is graffiti on the red, green & yellow panels of the bridge in front of me and a mesh goes up over my head. In the distance is tower blocks reflecting the yellow light of dusk. Between two tower blocks is the golden setting sun captured just before it vanishes from view.
August 5, 2025 at 8:40 PM
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Thunderstorms hitting Pompey right now.⚡
Disappointed we're missing out on the light show it being this early. 😊
screenshot of a map of the south coast of England showing thunderstorms passing through.
July 31, 2025 at 4:16 PM
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Socialised Health for all.
The new National Health Service. Your new National Health Service begins on 5th July. What is it? How do you get it? It will provide you with all medical, dental and nursing care. Everyone rich or poor, man or woman or child can use it or any part of it. There are no charges, except a few special items. There are no insurance qualifications, but it is not a charity. You are all paying for it mainly as Taxpayers and it will relieve your money worries in a time of illness.
July 23, 2025 at 12:20 AM
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The shadow is me in 2011 suddenly realising I actually had some shape to me, plus it made a nice photo.
I've seen another trans woman take a photo of her shadow, is this something we do? 😊
A shadow of a woman on a wall. The shadow is me in 2011 suddenly realising I actually had some shape to me, plus it was an interesting photo.
July 20, 2025 at 3:26 PM
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I'm stuck in doors as my brother has covid, so it's no makeup and hair doing its own thing. 😊
Old woman with no makeup and messy hair... yeah it's me. :)
July 20, 2025 at 2:13 PM
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Found out if you pay attention when unboxing that there are more figures to paint than you realise. 🙄😊
Two Officers in snow jackets to go with the infantry men, plus a desert infantry man in shirt & shorts. Started as I always do, prime them in white, then quickly block in some colours.
A photo of five 1/16 scale resin figures. One German infantryman in his desert shirt & shorts, two Officers in snow jacket, plus two infantrymen in full snow gear.
July 19, 2025 at 6:46 PM
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Getting some of my painting mojo back by painting some 1/16 figures up for some one. Gives me a little cash in hand money plus stops my brain going into self destruct mode.
I think I need to post some more of this just to show a bit more of who I am away from the keyboard. x
Photo of two 1/16 scale German infantry in snow uniform. I have painted these up for someone I'm quite happy with how the worn and dirty white coats look on them. Both models are the same, so I have painted one up with white helmet, coat & trousers, the other has a grey helmet with a whitewashed look, white coat, autumn camo trousers.
July 16, 2025 at 6:29 PM
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Proud of myself today as I actually got to the Thai Food Festival as planned.
Everything was saying don't go, bad stomach still recovering from meds last week, always high anxiety first few weeks of the month... and flippin hot.☺️😎
Me doing that rare thing of wearing a hat and a dress... but it is really hot here in Pompey. A drink and a box of Som Tam Thai salad sitting on a table. It was a Laos version so had added fermented fish source appeal. Some time not being able to smell is good. The drink was a flower Thai iced tea. A tray of different flavour dumplings in a cardboard tray with chopsticks. The mushroom & bamboo shoot ones were the best. A photo of the Chive Dumpling stall. There first time there and really nice food.
July 12, 2025 at 6:28 PM
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They're just missing the Nazis uniforms, that's all.
Himmler visiting the Dachau concentration camp in 1936
July 2, 2025 at 11:43 PM
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If anyone wants to play 'Where's Helen' I'm hiding here in a hat & sunglasses. Be thankful you can't see my legs as I had shorts on today. 😊
This is a photo of todays radio controlled tank battle we put on for the public at the Hollycombe Model Show. In a big square grass space is an arrangement of what are plywood building in the rough layout of a bombed French village on D-Day. It is surrounded by public watching the RC Tanks move around. There is commentary and explosions as we use pyrotecnics.
June 29, 2025 at 9:27 PM
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I didn't go in the museum or the castle but the walk around that area is beautiful. A chance to look upon the Solent on a summers day helps lift my sprits.
Southsea Castle. Photo shows a modern walkway that is part of the new sea defences put up around Portsmouth to help keep our heads above water in the coming years. Henry the 8ths castle is not much in this photo with the black & white stripped light house that is part of it the most striking feature. A second view of Southsea Castle, this time from the shore side. It is low and built of stone, it's light house standing above it. There is a grass moat around it and a wooden bridge to cross into the castle. This photo is of the long walkway up to the castle in the distance. It is called Brian Kidd Way and is two paths with a very long flower bed running all the way between them. In the distance is the castle. I found a secluded spot across the road from the D-Day museum where I did the unthinkable and just sat there doing nothing for a bit. Took the time to try and get some colour into my white legs.
June 19, 2025 at 11:42 PM
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Got my sorry arse out the house today & went for a walk along Southsea seafront. Hot day with even me putting a dress on for a change. Took a wander past the D-Day Museum & Southsea Castle.
4.5 mile round trip by the time I walked home.
Photo looking across a road towards a low brick building with trees to the right of it. The building is the D-Day Museum on Southsea seafront. A unique part of the D-Day Museum is this section that houses the D-Day Tapestry, it is red brick and completely round in shape. A smaller round section sit above a bit like a layered cake. A photo of Landing Craft HLCT707417, this is the last of the large tank carrying ships from WW2 to survive. It sits outside the D-Day museum under a canopy that curves up & down like a wave. There are stairs & a ramp to get onboard but you must have a ticket for the museum. Me trying to take a selfie with Southsea Castle in the background. I hate photos of myself but this one is ok-ish.
June 19, 2025 at 11:28 PM
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By about 2008/9 when I turned up there I arrived on their doorstep looking like this and got away with it. Although they weren't happy with me as I had the audacity to transition & self HRT and was working so didn't need them for much.
Me in 2008 at a military show. Photo is of a woman in a dark blue hoodie & jeans. She has a cream coloured lightweight jacket hung over her bag. She stands in front of an American Howitzer gun from WW2 at a military.
June 11, 2025 at 5:50 PM
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Kind of cheating but this is an etching I did in school. I check every once and a while to see if it's still there all these years later.
An etching of mine of a rather dishevelled Scots Pine tree.
May 30, 2025 at 11:56 AM
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You look great x
Car selfies should be a thing again. 😎🚗
The only one I have is from I think 2008 just a few years into my transition. Oh to be in my 40s again.
Me in a car. A woman with mousy brown hair wearing a black coat over a green top, sitting in a car taking a selfy. Only now realising that I wasn't that bad looking in my 40s but that's what anxiety & gender dysphoria will do to you.
May 24, 2025 at 12:25 PM
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Me yesterday before going out to my Birthday meal with family, throwing on different clothes to try and make my mind up. No makeup & hair a mess. I was thinking something a bit masc but changed tack later. Yes I would have tidied my blue silk scarf up and did stick with it. The dartboard is back.😂
Me trying to to decide what to wear for my Birthday meal with the family. The photo is of me taking a pic of myself in the mirror, I'm wearing a black suite top but with baggy jeans to tone it down. Another hint of blue with a silk scarf. My brother's dart board on a stand is in view as the star of the show once more.
May 6, 2025 at 6:22 PM