also from what i've seen (I tried to hear her out) she was more worried this ghoulish man would think her nigerian family was "too much" than than anything else,,, oh my god there's gotta be a word for when your brain is so colonized you act like you're y/n on wattpad or the mc in a hallmark movie

let alone a WHITE man,,, i feel like my ancestors would have shaken my entire house if that thought even crossed my mind

💕💕 you deserve it all :')

like there's gotta be a deep dive or SOMETHING we need first person accounts from the trenches </3

i'm just. very sad for that girl who died. and i don't blame her at all.

it's not "just bullying" even bullying isn't "just" bullying

one day there needs to be a proper documentary on the horrors of fandom spaces. everything from the grooming to gamergate to nazis with 'waifu' pfps to vitriolic antiblackness in kpop. living it all in real time was... absolutely demoralizing.

idk seeing my art thinking "god i was truly passionate that's cute" then also seeing the hate comments the slander campaigns again... it's like ykw... i'm so glad younger me ragequit and won her peace lol. fuck those freaks. they're no doubt still miserable bigots. so who cares

i see my old star wars and voltron fan blogs dead linked or waybacked in wiki articles and part of me wishes to have never deleted anything... but that that probably saved my life. the doxxing actually never ends. there are racists devoted to taking black people out over media... that's real life...

tw suicide mention // people are mocking that young woman for taking her own life but i can only imagine the hopelessness she felt... harassment doesn't exist in a vacuum, it's always on top of all of life's regular stressors and traumas, it can grow into gangstalking, to documentary levels of abuse