So… that was a lie and the anxiety is not gone, however her being gone is still a good thing I swear!
Did it one everything, honestly it felt so goddamn relieving holy shit. Feels like a weight off my shoulders, no more anxiety out of THAT, thank god!
Can’t believe I felt any sort of pity before, cold bastard never cared to begin with lmao. I’m slowly just gonna unfriend her in stuff and to distance myself. She’s a coward on confrontation so it’s not like she’ll say something abt it anyway. Hopefully she’ll get the gist and fuck off.
January 19, 2026 at 8:52 AM
So… that was a lie and the anxiety is not gone, however her being gone is still a good thing I swear!
Looking back at the things I said before, I’m not surprised ppl genuinely thought I was going to kms. Though it’s nice to have a place to vent out frustrations. By far the hardest few months in a long time, and being able to speak on it was something I don’t regret doing, which I have much more now.
January 19, 2026 at 8:47 AM
Looking back at the things I said before, I’m not surprised ppl genuinely thought I was going to kms. Though it’s nice to have a place to vent out frustrations. By far the hardest few months in a long time, and being able to speak on it was something I don’t regret doing, which I have much more now.
Did it one everything, honestly it felt so goddamn relieving holy shit. Feels like a weight off my shoulders, no more anxiety out of THAT, thank god!
Can’t believe I felt any sort of pity before, cold bastard never cared to begin with lmao. I’m slowly just gonna unfriend her in stuff and to distance myself. She’s a coward on confrontation so it’s not like she’ll say something abt it anyway. Hopefully she’ll get the gist and fuck off.
January 7, 2026 at 4:33 PM
Did it one everything, honestly it felt so goddamn relieving holy shit. Feels like a weight off my shoulders, no more anxiety out of THAT, thank god!
Happy new year chud.
Let the year end. I’m done man.
January 7, 2026 at 7:35 AM
Happy new year chud.
More and more her presence looming in the background is fucking pissing me off and I’m genuinely upset that I have to see her name almost everyday cause we used to hang so much. God I wish I can just block her and get rid of her in all my circles. Just thinking about her fucking ticks me off.
January 7, 2026 at 7:29 AM
More and more her presence looming in the background is fucking pissing me off and I’m genuinely upset that I have to see her name almost everyday cause we used to hang so much. God I wish I can just block her and get rid of her in all my circles. Just thinking about her fucking ticks me off.
Let the year end. I’m done man.
December 26, 2025 at 6:46 AM
Let the year end. I’m done man.
I have so much anger in how everything is now. Genuinely I’m so fucking mad I don’t think I’ve felt this angry in so long, yet I have nothing and nobody to go over it with. Why is it that I have to deal with such agony, it hurts so fucking much everyday it feels like a gash that grows everyday.
December 26, 2025 at 6:31 AM
I have so much anger in how everything is now. Genuinely I’m so fucking mad I don’t think I’ve felt this angry in so long, yet I have nothing and nobody to go over it with. Why is it that I have to deal with such agony, it hurts so fucking much everyday it feels like a gash that grows everyday.
Hey so what I told you that you’re completely in the wrong and that I lowkey hope she fucking stews for what she’s done to me because the amount of disrespect it takes to do some shit like this is insane.
She deserves the world and more for how she is despite all she’s gone through, and I hope someone can give it to her, even if it isn’t me.
December 24, 2025 at 6:15 AM
Hey so what I told you that you’re completely in the wrong and that I lowkey hope she fucking stews for what she’s done to me because the amount of disrespect it takes to do some shit like this is insane.
This year needs to end immediately.
December 16, 2025 at 6:14 AM
This year needs to end immediately.
Hyper focused into something now that I’ve got time, it’s not a lot of money and it’s a respectable hobby. I like it, but it was also her favorite too. It’s been very hard to not think of her because of it. Nonetheless I’m making it my own and getting into it MY way. I want this, I shouldn’t care.
December 16, 2025 at 5:58 AM
Hyper focused into something now that I’ve got time, it’s not a lot of money and it’s a respectable hobby. I like it, but it was also her favorite too. It’s been very hard to not think of her because of it. Nonetheless I’m making it my own and getting into it MY way. I want this, I shouldn’t care.
It’s the memories that hurt the most at night. I sometimes wish I never went to see her because I miss how comfortable I was wrapped around her arms. Laying in bed is torture. I see why people drink now, my goodness.
December 2, 2025 at 9:47 AM
It’s the memories that hurt the most at night. I sometimes wish I never went to see her because I miss how comfortable I was wrapped around her arms. Laying in bed is torture. I see why people drink now, my goodness.
I try to convince myself I’m fine, I try to show everyone else that I’m okay. I’ve takes to people about my problems. I don’t think I can keep up the act. I’m in so much agony, I keep torturing myself. God fucking damn it. Why did it have to be me. If I simply just didn’t care then I’d be fine.
November 30, 2025 at 10:39 AM
I try to convince myself I’m fine, I try to show everyone else that I’m okay. I’ve takes to people about my problems. I don’t think I can keep up the act. I’m in so much agony, I keep torturing myself. God fucking damn it. Why did it have to be me. If I simply just didn’t care then I’d be fine.
Another long night, god let it end.
November 25, 2025 at 8:59 AM
Another long night, god let it end.
I’ve been trying to get better. Home life isn’t great and unfortunately haven’t had much chance to hang with friends. Atleast I’ve opened up to more people and am actively speaking in more public spaces. Work and school have been keeping me busy. I wanna say atleast I’ve been productive.
November 24, 2025 at 7:10 AM
I’ve been trying to get better. Home life isn’t great and unfortunately haven’t had much chance to hang with friends. Atleast I’ve opened up to more people and am actively speaking in more public spaces. Work and school have been keeping me busy. I wanna say atleast I’ve been productive.
Gonna open up to more people today, better process to move on rather than wallow alone like a loser.
November 20, 2025 at 8:10 PM
Gonna open up to more people today, better process to move on rather than wallow alone like a loser.
Everything feels to me like it’s falling apart. I just want to drown in work so I stop thinking about what next is coming to screw me. Why now. Why right at the end of the year. Why me? It’s all coming down at once, why?
November 20, 2025 at 6:54 AM
Everything feels to me like it’s falling apart. I just want to drown in work so I stop thinking about what next is coming to screw me. Why now. Why right at the end of the year. Why me? It’s all coming down at once, why?
Talked to more people today. Told my hb my predicament, cried a bit, the usual. I don’t feel better but apparently this should be getting better. I hope so. Work is really good at being mind numbing so I hope it continues! Pay is good too! I don’t know how to feel anymore, goodnight! :)
November 19, 2025 at 7:08 AM
Talked to more people today. Told my hb my predicament, cried a bit, the usual. I don’t feel better but apparently this should be getting better. I hope so. Work is really good at being mind numbing so I hope it continues! Pay is good too! I don’t know how to feel anymore, goodnight! :)
Sorry bud.
Spoke to someone today about it, made me feel a little better. Somebody knew I haven’t spoken abt it before. I hope this is a step in the right direction because I want to get better here. This has been such a horrible experience for me. Please tell me I’ll get better soon.
November 18, 2025 at 6:35 AM
Sorry bud.
As Icarus fell towards the ground he smiled, as to fall for him had meant that he had flown.
November 18, 2025 at 6:33 AM
As Icarus fell towards the ground he smiled, as to fall for him had meant that he had flown.
Well atleast I’m at the bottom now. Don’t wanna Murphy’s Law this I wanna believe things such rn to be better later. But yeah, wow it’s been a while since I’ve been here. Thankfully they’ve increased the hours at work and Finals is coming up so Ill just sink into work cause I have nothing else to do
November 17, 2025 at 10:34 PM
Well atleast I’m at the bottom now. Don’t wanna Murphy’s Law this I wanna believe things such rn to be better later. But yeah, wow it’s been a while since I’ve been here. Thankfully they’ve increased the hours at work and Finals is coming up so Ill just sink into work cause I have nothing else to do
Gotta give myself credit for having some CRAZY premonition! Maybe I should go gambling… 🤔
No idea why, but yesterday was on of the worst days I’ve ever had mentally. Which is strange because it’s just a normal day for me usually, I don’t do anything differently but my mind was so filled with horrible and anxious thoughts. I’m not doing so good atm man, and idk if it’s going to get better
November 17, 2025 at 10:18 PM
Gotta give myself credit for having some CRAZY premonition! Maybe I should go gambling… 🤔