thats true ;__; ty... i genuinely think it would be one of the most healing things i could ever do for myself too. maybe one day

this basically

this was like. really nothing in comparison to pretending to try to murder me as a prank but it still made me sad probably to still want a dollshouse after all these years. id make it so pretty!

it's easier to dismiss smaller things when your boundaries + safety have been violated in such an insane way in the past that you're like Well this is a 6 out of 10 at MOST

by people i mean me i need to stop like. diminishing things that happen to me but it's hard because my scale for Badness is distorted by the results i have experienced in life

i struggle to talk to people atm because i feel like as soon as i do people can inherently see how gross i am inside and out i'm really sorry if i stopped reaching out to you as much the love is still there :(

i think people really diminish the impact of alcohol but i know people who cant get out of bed in the morning unless they have a drink. who are never sober. it hurts my heart

ty asmo ;;

lol sorry i feel like i sound like i'm trying to like. write pretentious poetry or something i think talking like this helps me feel detached enough to talk about it in the first place. i hope this is okay

i could never ever hate any of my alters because many of them have protected me from knowledge that could stop me from functioning on a daily basis nor can i wish they were gone. nor do i want to wish they were gone. i do wish i didn't have to hear this constant stream though

if it is a persecutor i feel like i'm obligated to feel compassion rather than resentment because persecutors have often been through so much and are suffering also but i deserve to feel happy and safe in my head