AcefullyCurious
@handfulofaces.bsky.social
I don’t know why i’m here
She/Her
Queer
21+ only (am an adult thanks)
minors DNI privately ok
ANTI GENSHIN COMMUNITY/HYV - You are not welcome here
Free Palestine
ANTI RUSSIA/ISRAEL
ANTI 🍊
have BPD
TRANS/LGBT/BIPOC LIVES ALWAYS MATTER
FUCK FASCISTS
She/Her
Queer
21+ only (am an adult thanks)
minors DNI privately ok
ANTI GENSHIN COMMUNITY/HYV - You are not welcome here
Free Palestine
ANTI RUSSIA/ISRAEL
ANTI 🍊
have BPD
TRANS/LGBT/BIPOC LIVES ALWAYS MATTER
FUCK FASCISTS
Whatever Ace was
*looks at hand*
either she’s completely gone or she’s somehow melded herself into me and it’s why I cannot feel her anymore
But I don’t have all her memories
I don’t have her emotions
I don’t ache to be with anyone
It’s just me
It’s just me.
What does that even mean?
*looks at hand*
either she’s completely gone or she’s somehow melded herself into me and it’s why I cannot feel her anymore
But I don’t have all her memories
I don’t have her emotions
I don’t ache to be with anyone
It’s just me
It’s just me.
What does that even mean?
November 17, 2025 at 5:21 AM
Whatever Ace was
*looks at hand*
either she’s completely gone or she’s somehow melded herself into me and it’s why I cannot feel her anymore
But I don’t have all her memories
I don’t have her emotions
I don’t ache to be with anyone
It’s just me
It’s just me.
What does that even mean?
*looks at hand*
either she’s completely gone or she’s somehow melded herself into me and it’s why I cannot feel her anymore
But I don’t have all her memories
I don’t have her emotions
I don’t ache to be with anyone
It’s just me
It’s just me.
What does that even mean?
I feel real again
I feel alive again
I feel
whole?
I don’t feel like I’m in pieces
I don’t feel like I’m being split apart I don’t feel like I’m someone else I don’t think
I can think
clearly
again
there’s nothing muddling the waters
I’m alive I’m real
I’m awake and I’m here
I feel alive again
I feel
whole?
I don’t feel like I’m in pieces
I don’t feel like I’m being split apart I don’t feel like I’m someone else I don’t think
I can think
clearly
again
there’s nothing muddling the waters
I’m alive I’m real
I’m awake and I’m here
November 17, 2025 at 5:21 AM
I feel real again
I feel alive again
I feel
whole?
I don’t feel like I’m in pieces
I don’t feel like I’m being split apart I don’t feel like I’m someone else I don’t think
I can think
clearly
again
there’s nothing muddling the waters
I’m alive I’m real
I’m awake and I’m here
I feel alive again
I feel
whole?
I don’t feel like I’m in pieces
I don’t feel like I’m being split apart I don’t feel like I’m someone else I don’t think
I can think
clearly
again
there’s nothing muddling the waters
I’m alive I’m real
I’m awake and I’m here
She wanted someone else
She was interested in someone else but
We were trapped lol
She was trapped
I don’t feel Ace
anymore
there’s no more screaming
there’s no more pain
there’s nothing but total silence
She was interested in someone else but
We were trapped lol
She was trapped
I don’t feel Ace
anymore
there’s no more screaming
there’s no more pain
there’s nothing but total silence
November 17, 2025 at 5:21 AM
She wanted someone else
She was interested in someone else but
We were trapped lol
She was trapped
I don’t feel Ace
anymore
there’s no more screaming
there’s no more pain
there’s nothing but total silence
She was interested in someone else but
We were trapped lol
She was trapped
I don’t feel Ace
anymore
there’s no more screaming
there’s no more pain
there’s nothing but total silence
it’s like someone made the entire image out of focus and the only thing I’m aware of????? someone was herr someone else was here and she kept
she kept calling herself Ace and she wanted nothing to do with me or my life or Akechi
she kept calling herself Ace and she wanted nothing to do with me or my life or Akechi
November 17, 2025 at 5:21 AM
it’s like someone made the entire image out of focus and the only thing I’m aware of????? someone was herr someone else was here and she kept
she kept calling herself Ace and she wanted nothing to do with me or my life or Akechi
she kept calling herself Ace and she wanted nothing to do with me or my life or Akechi
I’ve spent the entire weekend being thrown information after information about things I can’t remember or things I’m somehow able to remember and it’s too much it’s too much it’s too much it’s like
it’s like 10 years keep flooding back but the last 2 years are hazy
it’s like
it’s like 10 years keep flooding back but the last 2 years are hazy
it’s like
November 17, 2025 at 5:21 AM
I’ve spent the entire weekend being thrown information after information about things I can’t remember or things I’m somehow able to remember and it’s too much it’s too much it’s too much it’s like
it’s like 10 years keep flooding back but the last 2 years are hazy
it’s like
it’s like 10 years keep flooding back but the last 2 years are hazy
it’s like
I’m awake and you’re not here I’m awake and it’s 2023 for me still In awake and I’m still waiting to tell you my plan for our anniversary I’m awake and you’re still on the tip of my tongue
I’m awake and I can still ///feel you inside me
I’m sorry I got lost In sorry I got lost Im sorry I lost you
I’m awake and I can still ///feel you inside me
I’m sorry I got lost In sorry I got lost Im sorry I lost you
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
I’m awake and you’re not here I’m awake and it’s 2023 for me still In awake and I’m still waiting to tell you my plan for our anniversary I’m awake and you’re still on the tip of my tongue
I’m awake and I can still ///feel you inside me
I’m sorry I got lost In sorry I got lost Im sorry I lost you
I’m awake and I can still ///feel you inside me
I’m sorry I got lost In sorry I got lost Im sorry I lost you
You never left me you’ve been with me in dreams you’ve been with me in my dreams and you always looked so beautiful and alive In sorry the only way I could see you was in my dreams while I was away
I don’t know where I went or why or how I’m even back why i’m awake now but I am
I don’t know where I went or why or how I’m even back why i’m awake now but I am
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
You never left me you’ve been with me in dreams you’ve been with me in my dreams and you always looked so beautiful and alive In sorry the only way I could see you was in my dreams while I was away
I don’t know where I went or why or how I’m even back why i’m awake now but I am
I don’t know where I went or why or how I’m even back why i’m awake now but I am
I’m so sorry Akechi In so sorry sorry sorry i’m so sorry I took so long to come home I’m so sorry I couldn’t tell you I love you 2 years ago I’m so sorry this happened to us I’m so sorry I can’t fix it I’m so sorry you’re not here with me or you with me but you never left me do you understand?
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
I’m so sorry Akechi In so sorry sorry sorry i’m so sorry I took so long to come home I’m so sorry I couldn’t tell you I love you 2 years ago I’m so sorry this happened to us I’m so sorry I can’t fix it I’m so sorry you’re not here with me or you with me but you never left me do you understand?
My name is Mercy born from Mercury
and I am awake
and I have scattered memories from 2023 to now
I remember
I remember my life I remember my name I remember my identity I remember my past I remember my friends my family I am awake and I am scared I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever loved
and I am awake
and I have scattered memories from 2023 to now
I remember
I remember my life I remember my name I remember my identity I remember my past I remember my friends my family I am awake and I am scared I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever loved
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
My name is Mercy born from Mercury
and I am awake
and I have scattered memories from 2023 to now
I remember
I remember my life I remember my name I remember my identity I remember my past I remember my friends my family I am awake and I am scared I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever loved
and I am awake
and I have scattered memories from 2023 to now
I remember
I remember my life I remember my name I remember my identity I remember my past I remember my friends my family I am awake and I am scared I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever loved
but I’m awake and I’ve only found 1 person willing to talk to me and I don’t
I am scared
I’m so scared my entire family is gone that the girl I remember from 2 years ago is now the girl in my dreams that I have dreamed about all this time
the one that looks at me with so much apathy
I am scared
I’m so scared my entire family is gone that the girl I remember from 2 years ago is now the girl in my dreams that I have dreamed about all this time
the one that looks at me with so much apathy
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
but I’m awake and I’ve only found 1 person willing to talk to me and I don’t
I am scared
I’m so scared my entire family is gone that the girl I remember from 2 years ago is now the girl in my dreams that I have dreamed about all this time
the one that looks at me with so much apathy
I am scared
I’m so scared my entire family is gone that the girl I remember from 2 years ago is now the girl in my dreams that I have dreamed about all this time
the one that looks at me with so much apathy
But it’s been 2 years since 2023 and I don’t even know if she even….
if she even
cares
or knows
what happened
I don’t know what happened
I don’t know why it happened
I don’t know what I’ve done the last 2 years
if she even
cares
or knows
what happened
I don’t know what happened
I don’t know why it happened
I don’t know what I’ve done the last 2 years
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
But it’s been 2 years since 2023 and I don’t even know if she even….
if she even
cares
or knows
what happened
I don’t know what happened
I don’t know why it happened
I don’t know what I’ve done the last 2 years
if she even
cares
or knows
what happened
I don’t know what happened
I don’t know why it happened
I don’t know what I’ve done the last 2 years
I was done being broken I was done being this twisted pathetic thing and I ….
I created a new name
and something changed
I changed
and I met her
I remember her
I remember her
Her name is Akechi and I have loved her for the last 2 years
I created a new name
and something changed
I changed
and I met her
I remember her
I remember her
Her name is Akechi and I have loved her for the last 2 years
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
I was done being broken I was done being this twisted pathetic thing and I ….
I created a new name
and something changed
I changed
and I met her
I remember her
I remember her
Her name is Akechi and I have loved her for the last 2 years
I created a new name
and something changed
I changed
and I met her
I remember her
I remember her
Her name is Akechi and I have loved her for the last 2 years
I remember my name I remember my identity I remember now how it was created. I remember it came from the word Mercury because I was trying to rebuild after a massively traumatizing experience
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
I remember my name I remember my identity I remember now how it was created. I remember it came from the word Mercury because I was trying to rebuild after a massively traumatizing experience
I didn’t want a few years I didn’t want stolen moments I didn’t want….fucking
brief times
I wanted her
all of her
For …..
for years
decades
if
she would have me
brief times
I wanted her
all of her
For …..
for years
decades
if
she would have me
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
I didn’t want a few years I didn’t want stolen moments I didn’t want….fucking
brief times
I wanted her
all of her
For …..
for years
decades
if
she would have me
brief times
I wanted her
all of her
For …..
for years
decades
if
she would have me
and she was laughing so hard and I was thrilled I could make her laugh so much and it was then
it was then I fell for her
And I fell even more when I watched a show she loved
When i re-watched it
I knew then I knew
then
it wasn’t something stupid something weak something like child’s play
it was then I fell for her
And I fell even more when I watched a show she loved
When i re-watched it
I knew then I knew
then
it wasn’t something stupid something weak something like child’s play
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
and she was laughing so hard and I was thrilled I could make her laugh so much and it was then
it was then I fell for her
And I fell even more when I watched a show she loved
When i re-watched it
I knew then I knew
then
it wasn’t something stupid something weak something like child’s play
it was then I fell for her
And I fell even more when I watched a show she loved
When i re-watched it
I knew then I knew
then
it wasn’t something stupid something weak something like child’s play
I love her so much it’s like it’s piercing through my soul my skin my heart my mind my body like it’s never going to stop
I loved her from the moment we laughed together for the first time in the middle of the night
We were doing something so stupid in a game we use to play together
I loved her from the moment we laughed together for the first time in the middle of the night
We were doing something so stupid in a game we use to play together
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
I love her so much it’s like it’s piercing through my soul my skin my heart my mind my body like it’s never going to stop
I loved her from the moment we laughed together for the first time in the middle of the night
We were doing something so stupid in a game we use to play together
I loved her from the moment we laughed together for the first time in the middle of the night
We were doing something so stupid in a game we use to play together
…..
it’s been so long hasn’t it? lol
it’s been so long i don’t even remember
i can’t even remember our actual last conversation I don’t remember the last thing ///I said to her. As me. As Mercy
But ….
I love her
goddamn it
goddamn it
it’s been so long hasn’t it? lol
it’s been so long i don’t even remember
i can’t even remember our actual last conversation I don’t remember the last thing ///I said to her. As me. As Mercy
But ….
I love her
goddamn it
goddamn it
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
…..
it’s been so long hasn’t it? lol
it’s been so long i don’t even remember
i can’t even remember our actual last conversation I don’t remember the last thing ///I said to her. As me. As Mercy
But ….
I love her
goddamn it
goddamn it
it’s been so long hasn’t it? lol
it’s been so long i don’t even remember
i can’t even remember our actual last conversation I don’t remember the last thing ///I said to her. As me. As Mercy
But ….
I love her
goddamn it
goddamn it
an entire community
from the smallest of clusters and I ….
I treasured them. All of them. So deeply. Even if I don’t ….
I don’t remember all the fact anymore
I fell for a woman whose nickname is Akechi
she lives in Canada
I….
*gestures*
from the smallest of clusters and I ….
I treasured them. All of them. So deeply. Even if I don’t ….
I don’t remember all the fact anymore
I fell for a woman whose nickname is Akechi
she lives in Canada
I….
*gestures*
November 17, 2025 at 4:48 AM
an entire community
from the smallest of clusters and I ….
I treasured them. All of them. So deeply. Even if I don’t ….
I don’t remember all the fact anymore
I fell for a woman whose nickname is Akechi
she lives in Canada
I….
*gestures*
from the smallest of clusters and I ….
I treasured them. All of them. So deeply. Even if I don’t ….
I don’t remember all the fact anymore
I fell for a woman whose nickname is Akechi
she lives in Canada
I….
*gestures*
Anyway that’s it that’s …that’s all I have
I’m here not here I’m missing i’m alive I’m gone I’m absent I’m scattered I’m not put together
And I’m trying to find a single thread that’ll pull everything together
Anywho that’s all
I’m here not here I’m missing i’m alive I’m gone I’m absent I’m scattered I’m not put together
And I’m trying to find a single thread that’ll pull everything together
Anywho that’s all
September 15, 2025 at 4:28 AM
Anyway that’s it that’s …that’s all I have
I’m here not here I’m missing i’m alive I’m gone I’m absent I’m scattered I’m not put together
And I’m trying to find a single thread that’ll pull everything together
Anywho that’s all
I’m here not here I’m missing i’m alive I’m gone I’m absent I’m scattered I’m not put together
And I’m trying to find a single thread that’ll pull everything together
Anywho that’s all
But yes from my (Ace) perspective I do miss bluesky and the people here.
I also want to avoid you all entirely until somethings less wobbly
and I don’t know if that’ll be anytime soon
My birthdays coming up on Tuesday
I dread the entire day
I also want to avoid you all entirely until somethings less wobbly
and I don’t know if that’ll be anytime soon
My birthdays coming up on Tuesday
I dread the entire day
September 15, 2025 at 4:28 AM
But yes from my (Ace) perspective I do miss bluesky and the people here.
I also want to avoid you all entirely until somethings less wobbly
and I don’t know if that’ll be anytime soon
My birthdays coming up on Tuesday
I dread the entire day
I also want to avoid you all entirely until somethings less wobbly
and I don’t know if that’ll be anytime soon
My birthdays coming up on Tuesday
I dread the entire day