I’m tired of masking as happy and walking on eggshells and trying to be perfect as to not trigger an episode

I’m tired of crying alone and hiding it from him because it’s always too much to try to talk

I’m tired of asking to be a priority

I’m tired of asking for flowers

I’m so fucking tired

I’m so fucking tired of not being able to call it out because he’ll throw a whole hissy fit & accuse me of doing the same, so why is it even a big deal, etc

we’ve talked about this pattern at length but the last time, the convo got way too intense and shit going sideways real quick

🫂ilysm

love being told when I’m trying to talk about it bothering me that I’m “too aggressive” cool cool cool