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@grumpyyy-ems.bsky.social
• 🔞 mdni • 30’s • alt : venting, gushing, etc. • digital diary •
(i block if idk u)
(i block if idk u)
is it really crashing out when it’s a man making you mad n sad at the same time
February 11, 2026 at 11:44 PM
is it really crashing out when it’s a man making you mad n sad at the same time
oh okay, the pattern🥺
February 11, 2026 at 7:53 PM
oh okay, the pattern🥺
no I won’t be super bubbly and whatnot after you’re mean to me
seems like a natural, common sense, consequence y’know ?
seems like a natural, common sense, consequence y’know ?
February 11, 2026 at 7:40 PM
no I won’t be super bubbly and whatnot after you’re mean to me
seems like a natural, common sense, consequence y’know ?
seems like a natural, common sense, consequence y’know ?
I hate feeling like an annoyance and burden just for trying to talk to my spouse in the mornings
my bad /:
my bad /:
February 11, 2026 at 7:12 PM
I hate feeling like an annoyance and burden just for trying to talk to my spouse in the mornings
my bad /:
my bad /:
if i'm posting about my community (aka THE GAYS) and you, some random straight cis man, pop in on my post with "hi" ... imma happily ignore you
& you should be grateful i'm not straight up blocking
& you should be grateful i'm not straight up blocking
February 10, 2026 at 10:29 PM
if i'm posting about my community (aka THE GAYS) and you, some random straight cis man, pop in on my post with "hi" ... imma happily ignore you
& you should be grateful i'm not straight up blocking
& you should be grateful i'm not straight up blocking
hope that one day I’ll have a partner that chooses to spend time with me after gaming for hours and hours
after having their meals prepped and brought to them, maybe they will make me a tea or a hot chocolate or hold my hand
after having their meals prepped and brought to them, maybe they will make me a tea or a hot chocolate or hold my hand
February 9, 2026 at 4:51 AM
hope that one day I’ll have a partner that chooses to spend time with me after gaming for hours and hours
after having their meals prepped and brought to them, maybe they will make me a tea or a hot chocolate or hold my hand
after having their meals prepped and brought to them, maybe they will make me a tea or a hot chocolate or hold my hand
I’m tired of existing
January 18, 2026 at 1:14 AM
I’m tired of existing
nothing like having slightly better days and thinking you’re making your way toward even nicer ones only for your brain to go “nah”
I’m so tired of being sad
I’m so tired of being sad
January 18, 2026 at 12:57 AM
nothing like having slightly better days and thinking you’re making your way toward even nicer ones only for your brain to go “nah”
I’m so tired of being sad
I’m so tired of being sad
I need to fast forward to whenever things are okay again I can’t I’m not strong enough
January 15, 2026 at 5:44 AM
I need to fast forward to whenever things are okay again I can’t I’m not strong enough
now I’m sobbing in a room while he lies on the couch and all I want is someone to hold me and tell me it’ll be okay
January 15, 2026 at 5:42 AM
now I’m sobbing in a room while he lies on the couch and all I want is someone to hold me and tell me it’ll be okay
I asked him to get off of the phone game (that he’d been playing on for almost an hour during our “chill vibe night” as he’s been calling them; I’ve come to think of them as at home date nights) so we could get back to spending time together & I wanted to know what he wanted to do & he blew up
January 15, 2026 at 5:41 AM
I asked him to get off of the phone game (that he’d been playing on for almost an hour during our “chill vibe night” as he’s been calling them; I’ve come to think of them as at home date nights) so we could get back to spending time together & I wanted to know what he wanted to do & he blew up
why can’t he fucking listen to what I’m saying instead it getting defensive and jumping down my throat
January 15, 2026 at 5:38 AM
why can’t he fucking listen to what I’m saying instead it getting defensive and jumping down my throat
really depressed to report that this man has made me cry way more than anything else lately and he is sticking with his silent treatment response pattern
I can’t keep doing this
I can’t keep doing this
January 15, 2026 at 5:37 AM
really depressed to report that this man has made me cry way more than anything else lately and he is sticking with his silent treatment response pattern
I can’t keep doing this
I can’t keep doing this
dear universe: I’d like some sex please 🥺
January 14, 2026 at 6:30 PM
dear universe: I’d like some sex please 🥺
I have been daydreaming about this one bsky crush for over six months atp & I get really mean when talking myself out of thinking it might be mutual
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
January 12, 2026 at 3:53 AM
I have been daydreaming about this one bsky crush for over six months atp & I get really mean when talking myself out of thinking it might be mutual
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
to the handful of people I can’t stop thinking about:
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
January 5, 2026 at 7:30 PM
to the handful of people I can’t stop thinking about:
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
I need to be fucked so good by a specific individual pls and thank you universe
January 3, 2026 at 5:39 PM
I need to be fucked so good by a specific individual pls and thank you universe
my eyes are so fucking swollen from crying
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
December 19, 2025 at 8:24 PM
my eyes are so fucking swollen from crying
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
honestly being told constantly how upbeat and positive I am, when all the while I’m struggling so bad
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
December 19, 2025 at 7:17 PM
honestly being told constantly how upbeat and positive I am, when all the while I’m struggling so bad
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
love thinking I’m having a lighthearted cutesy convo and then it turns out I’m talking to myself while being ignored for his phone and now i feel stupid
December 19, 2025 at 6:23 PM
love thinking I’m having a lighthearted cutesy convo and then it turns out I’m talking to myself while being ignored for his phone and now i feel stupid
my heart is heavy
December 9, 2025 at 12:57 AM
my heart is heavy
trying to not be a bitch, but it’s after 10:30a & my partner is still in bed
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
December 8, 2025 at 5:35 PM
trying to not be a bitch, but it’s after 10:30a & my partner is still in bed
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
i wish loving me was easier
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
December 7, 2025 at 1:09 AM
i wish loving me was easier
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
still pretty gutting when you’re trying to help support someone & brainstorm solutions only for them to respond to everything you’re saying like it’s theeee dumbest shit they’ve ever heard
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
December 6, 2025 at 11:27 PM
still pretty gutting when you’re trying to help support someone & brainstorm solutions only for them to respond to everything you’re saying like it’s theeee dumbest shit they’ve ever heard
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
this skillset will never cease to amaze me
apparently I mask so good, you can’t tell when I’ve been crying or am actively crying in front of you
November 28, 2025 at 9:33 PM
this skillset will never cease to amaze me