I feel so alone all the time and I don't think anyone sees it or if they do they don't care and I don't know how to say it without coming off as clingy or weird or insane

I feel like everything is just showing me time and time again why I can't live on my own and I'll never leave here and I'll have to be caretaker to my grandparents and then my mom and my dad and stepmom and then I'll die old sad and alone in a house I've never left

idk sometimes it just feels like I'm the least popular friend in every single group. and that would be fine if people at least pretended that wasn't the case once in a while

almost did something dramatic in a group chat on the way home but rubber duck'd myself out of it by imagining how the conversation After would go because there's no way to make it look like anything other than a crash out, which it would be. it would be a crash out

idk if someone explained this to me id make an effort to fix it on my end but no one seems to even see the problem I have let alone put in effort to fix it on their end?

one day im just gonna give my therapist access to this account and that will be the next 10 sessions

like. I see why people always give me the same advice. but they're missing the point of why I think it's a problem. I feel insane sometimes

2026 I'm taking the house hunt more seriously

they argued that they use the rice cooker all the time and I had to point out that the only reason they do was because I refused to put it in my closet because I wanted to use it. they're literally going to buy me a new one bc they use it so much. they wanted me to put it in a corner somewhere

I don't know when I'm moving out so I don't know when I'd get to use it. you bought it for me so I could use it, not so it would sit gathering dust in my closet? like the problem is that my stuff doesn't feel welcome in the house

or that the problem is not that they don't have a spot for my new pot but that they don't want me to use it because I can just use the ones we already had, so they want me to put it in a spot impossible to reach

I might cancel therapy this weekend not because I don't desperately need it after this week bc I do but just bc I'm so overwhelmed and still sick

"Everything I touch I drop, everything I do I screw up, I'm tired of it" maybe get more than 3 hours of sleep next time then. this seems like it could have been preventable.

my first holiday out of this house I'm going to arrive at like noon and spend the entire morning Chilling