And no I'm not saying were getting back together.just that shes still everything I love and loved about her.and get this,me and her BOTH got really drunk because we were nervous about seeing each other.in its little way it kinda assured me that we did have a love like I remember.❤❤which is ok.its ok

And tell her everything I never said,apologise for everything i never saw,i wish i could walk into that room and find her sleeping with her little glasses on and take them off and tell her everything .but,its done .shes moved on and I think I have to too.but somehow,all these girls,will never be her

But truth is,I was sad.i was BREAKING ,I just wanted my Tracey back you know,the woman who made me feel like I could do anything .and I was dealing with life but in those moments I'd wake up to her reading a comic or taking a poop life was worth living.i was only alive then,and she never knew so.

Upset me.and I'm so sorry about that.i guess like everyone else in her life i had brought her down to expectations And failures.and not the little anxious odd duck she was.maybe,its a good thing we broke up.shes definitely happier now,freer now,and even if she doesnt miss me,I miss her and that's ok

Oh the big shades cause her heads tiny.the traps from all those years of bad posture .shame
TSHEGO O MONTLE OK

Four weeks.thats what it took.till she called me,and I remember how she audibly felt bad about what she really wanted.she tiptoed around her wanting a breakup so I made it easy for her,and told her we tried. It just didnt work out .no need for the eulogy ,and hung up.i DRANK MYSELF BLIND FOR A MONTH

.i cant say exactly everything that she said but I vividly remember her telling me that she didnt want the relationship in the first place,and yet I expect her to do the heavy lifting.i dont know ,it broke me you know.and it really did cause all I wanted was for her to love me.

The issue. The issue was I simply told her that for someone who complains about my communication it would be nice if she did the same.AS A JOKE.lmao did she not let everything off,lmaoo .

And I guess in that moment I was in some sort of denial about how it made me feel.losing her the way I did .so yea.