2nd one going in.. 2 hours for this stuff.. then the fucking.. Rituximab… dreading that stuff

I hope it’s not so bad this time.. I hope my body still has some resistance to it. It’s a 6 hour infusion… then a 1 hour eposticide.. then 2 hour ifosfamide.. then a final 1 hour hydration.. then I’m DONE with chemo for a few weeks..

Get it.. cause the regimen I’m on is R-ICE… hah… hahah…

I love my friends

Only 2 rounds of chemo this time, 3 if you count FC. The next 3 days will be all day chemo infusions, then a 3 week break, then the next infusion followed by another pet scan to make sure it’s responding well to treatment

I’ll come out the other side of this happy and healthy.. I’ll never have to worry about this again. It sucks having a rare and aggressive cancer lol. Treatment better work.. I got too much going for me rn for it to not to.

It’s alright, mom and gramma are cool 😎. And my husband better already know what’s going on in my life or we’re gonna have a domestic. (Joke)

If all goes well, I’ll be out of the hospital before Christmas, and I’ll go back into remission before the end of the year. Hopefully my cool new T cells will eat my cancer up and clean me out, and I’ll never have to do this again.

After that, I’m gonna go through Fludarabine Cyclophosphamide in mid December as another form of chemo to suppress my immune system in preparation for CAR-T. After all chemo is done, I’ll get a few days of rest before the CAR-T infusion, which will be a weeks long stay in the hospital.

It’s still very treatable, and I have a game plan in place. I have my T cell extraction next Tuesday, after that I’ll be going through R-ICE chemotherapy first to weaken it while my cells are getting reengineered. It’s gonna be a super intense chemo this time around.

It’s very similar to the one previously diagnosed, the doctor said it’s not an apples to oranges comparison, rather a red delicious to a granny smith. Both are B cell lymphomas, but due to the different classification, some cells were likely resistant to treatment the first time around and survived.

So Help Me God I better get some decent fucking news today

I’ve really really been trying to keep it together, I put on the facade that everything’s ok, but truth is; I’m terrified. I’m terrified of what it is, I’m terrified treatment won’t work, I’m terrified of being alone..