All I have now is my parents and pets who can't go on if I go now, so I must stay for them, to be the constant in their lives, even if everyday feels like a sad loop. But at the end of the day, who cares? I'm just an internet random. I just need to keep picking my pieces up and smile like I mean it.

and make sure people around me can have the best possible day they can, but who does that for me? Who's there when I need reassurance? Who's going to actually talk to me without one word replies? Who legitimately sees me as a priority and not an option in their lives? No one. I'm tired of all this.

supporting and fighting for others while the opposite never happens. It doesn't help that I'm too broken to value myself as I should be, yet I realize how little I matter to everyone except those who rely on me. I'm tired. Of all this. I'm past my running time, doing what I can to live the next day

Like, why would I even post this if not to vent without being judged and avoid receiving default advice like "things will get better" or "man it sucks"? I try to do my best on everything, to be the best brother, son, friend etc but it's never reciprocal. It'll never be. I'm always the one chasing